Saturday, February 17, 2007

Party last night
haha, well I had to lie to my parents again... told them I wasn't drinking... I made my first promise since that night..... and I kept it this time, just know that whenever I make a promise from now on, it only means I am serious about it... I drank and got near drunk... but not entirely. I almost finished my mickey and I left it there so they could have the last shot or whatever was left.last night was the most amazing night of my life lol... it was the craziest thing ever... but who cares, lol, that doesn't matter. I said "you hafta distance yourself from me" and she seemed mad, haha... I hope she wasn't too mad with me if she was at all... and I was talking to some cool guys last night too... there was a guy named ben, who told me that I am a rare breed "a 17 year old who knows how to pace himself while drinking" lol, I htought it was pretty funny. he was the one who ended up giving me a ride home... and that guys with the sweater vest... josh! yes! lol, he was really cute.... I think I may be turning a little bi... but oh well. and they worst thing about it if I do, is taht one of my good friends is a bit of a homophobe... he doesn't matter either... and we never hang oyut much anymore... like once per week is lucky for us, haha. there is another party tonight which I will probably go to... but I won't drink tonight because I ahve no way of getting anything, and I ain't really in the mood. I hafta work tonight again.... and tomorrow... oh well, I should get at the party a bit after 9.... it starts at 8. and I guess that's all I hafta say today... last night was great, haha, I'll post about tonight's party tomorrow, or at least I will try :P
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Thursday, February 15, 2007

Today
I have the balls... wow, lol, I can't believe I did that... I was awkward, haha... oh well. I have been quite happy since then, but now a close friend is feeling bad and I ain't sure why... I sometimes wonder if it is my fault... lol, I can apparently get a record deal.... but truth be told.... no offence to my band, but I don't really wanna be famous with these guys.... The guitarist and bassist, sure, but the other guitarist has no point.... and the singer, I htink our bassist can sing, and if worst comes to worse, then I can sing too... I really don't mean anything bad guys.... oh well. it doesn't matter anymore.... my school play won the first competition, so we are going on to the bigger one in april, I think... we are starting to practice again, first practice tonight.... and in between all this... I start to wonder....was that it? was that the end? is it weird? was taht the last one? I wish I knew for certain but I can't read people's minds now can I? o well, it doesn't matter still... nothing matters right now... I cross too many lines, lol, questions I ask, things I do, I am such an idiot... maybe some of the stuff I do isn't as bad as I think it is..... but then again matybe other things are worse than I think.... but that's the problem, when I speak, I don't think... my first... our last, ha, too much to think about, no reason to overload my brain.... and I lvoe those milk things in our school, 2 buicks but they are SOOOOO good... I am thinking about stealing some new shoes... but that seems a bit too risky, I could also get someone else to steal them for me and pay him for them.... seeing as he is a coke head.... the only thing is, is that will I get caught with hot goods? stolen goods? would the police link it back to me? I wish I knew, but like I said, I can't read minds.... and I can't see the future either... o well.... it would ruin the surprises, right? meh, not much to say... I wanna thank you brandon for the moral support, it means alot man... don't ever stop being you... in any case, I know this is one of those days I will never forget... and I mightpost some more lyrics when I get some typed up... and don't say they are good just to be nice, I would rather you tell me they are the worst thing you ever read than having you lie to me... and I think you are genuinely good at what you do, and I believe I am decent at what I do outside of lyrics... thanks anyway...
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007

Valentine's day
Happy valentine's day to you all... mine was in a way good, and in a way bad... I spent all day wondering what she would think when I agve her the present... first she didn't take the chocolate... lol, I cam back later with a stuffed animal that did a cat call whistle, lol, and a cd she had wanted forever! I hope she liked it, she seemed happy, and even though she said she would be mad, she wasn't... lol, it was pretty good all in all.
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Tuesday, February 13, 2007

I WANNA HUG YOU!
I want to holdyou all ngiht long,and just tlak,I wanna fall asleep with you, I don't ever want to let you go... I will always be here,no matter what you need, no matter what the circumstances. when you say you're mad, I hope you aren't mad at me :P. when I am mad I am never mad at you... and I was thinking, was that paper today just a coincidence? o well, taht doesn't matter, I enjoy company from you, and I enjoy the talks, and I enjoy every other little detail between me and oyu, I hope we can stay such good friends like this.... I can only hope though... and if ever we do go out own ways... I hope I won't forget you... and I hopeyou don't forget me, you are my best friend in the world, and you hafta know that, I don't go around calling peoplemy best friends alot.... lol, I only have one, and that is you... I just want to be with you.... we barely see each other outside of school, but I enjoy every second we are together at school... about a year ago.... even 6 months ago, I never believed there was sych thing as "young love". but my views have started to change, I have started thinking and pondering, on and on.... hours at a time, almost breaking out into tears... haha, but that time is not now, young love just fucks things up.... from what I have heard anyway.... I am one of those people who not only learns from his own mistakes but the mistakes of other's aswell. I don't ever want you to get hurt, even though I am quite certain you won't... just be careful. and the one thing you must remember, is I am always there for whatever you need me for... a friend or just someone to talk to. or whether it be someone to hold you or share your pain with when it gets unbelievably unbearable. and anytime you want to talk, I will be ready to talk on the phone... call me up, whatever time it is, I odn't care, 3 in the morning, that's nothing! I just love hearing the sound of your voice... I lvoe just staring into your eyes, holding your hands and getting lost in all thought.... haha, Let's conquer this world together and we will fly off to heaven together, side by side... hand in hand... I know there is something that is meant for us... and I am starting to believe in fate and destiny... though maybe I am wrong, maybe I shouldn't trust fate and destiny... they will probably turn around and biteme in the ass, oh well... I'm young, I wana live it up. and want to love... I want to marry, have children, gorw old and die with someone I truely love with all my heart and I want a life filled with excitement, skydiving, bungee jumping, I want to learn to fly a plane! oh wow, I have sure rambled on long enough, that's enough for now...

I wanna hug you!
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Monday, February 12, 2007

Smokin' little pistol
ok, well here are some lyrics I wrote at 3 in the morning a little whiule back.... I know, they are stupid, laugh it up, lol, but a friend wanted me to put them up, so I am...

Smokin' little pistol

Verse 1

She's a smokin' little pistol coming to shoot you down
So swift, so deadly, she'll leave you dying on the ground
I think I fell in love with her but time can only tell
What is she doing to me, she is putting me through hell

Just the other day she shot me down and walked right through me
I can't believe how many f*cking years it took to see
Even though she is shooting through me and breaking my heart
I've finally discovered this is the pistol for me

Chorus

Might as well shoot me now, 'cause this is going no where fast
Might as well shoot me now, 'cause how much longer can I last?
I wonder why she's kept my attention for so long
There is something about this, I am sure I can't be wrong

(2 bar guitar fill)
(2 bar drum fill)

Verse 2

Having a head rush, adrenaline pumping through my veins
Thinking back all these years, I've discovered the source of my pain
I could go for a shot gun or even a machine gun
All that doesn't matter because she is the only one

There's another guy and he's too old for to play with pistols
I can't stand this guy, this pistol will shoot down that asshole
After he is gone, I will be here to claim her as my own
I know forever and for always she will be mine alone.

Chorus

Might as well shoot me now, 'cause this is going no where fast
Might as well shoot me now, 'cause how much longer can I last?
I wonder why she's kept my attention for so long
There is something about this, I am sure I can't be wrong

(2 bar guitar fill)
(2 bar drum fill)

Verse 3

This smokin' pistol is mine and she will shoot you all down
Splatter your blood everywhere, leave your body on the ground
She is starting to spin out she is gonna shoot me down
look at her twirling so fast, she is shooting all around

I sold my soul to the devil to get her by my side
I guess I am stuck here until the end of the ride
I will buy some booze and cigars and never leave my home
I may as well enjoy this before she leave me all alone

Chorus

Might as well shoot me now, 'cause this is going no where fast
Might as well shoot me now, 'cause how much longer can I last?
I wonder why she's kept my attention for so long
There is something about this, I am sure I can't be wrong

(2 bar guitar fill)
(2 bar drum fill)
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fantastic day
today, even though I was back at school I had a great day for one reason or another. I can't wait for 7 o clock, new sitcoms :P I kow, I am loser, w.e lol, my fav atm is "how I met your mother" and not just cuz it is about your mom, it's because the jokes are genuinely funny.
yesterday was possibly one of the happier days of my life.... or as far as I can remember anyway. I was just smiling all day and I don't know why... I was working and stuff... then went home and knew I ahd to go to school the next morning early, but I lvoed it! :D I was so smiley.... until the few minutes after I got home, my sister can be a real bitch sometimes, lol, even though she is only like 11....ish. she still gets annoying as hell.... but it's sibling rivalry, right? what can you do? :P I got stuff to do. and the other night, being told I was a good drummer just made the rest of my week, thanks guys :D I just wish I could put my thoughts into words better and make songs... lol, I wrote some thoughts today and they came out really good today, though I think I lost the paper and I forget what it said now... o well, lol

KEEP ROCKIN' THE FREE WORLD! \m/

:P
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Sunday, February 11, 2007

greedy

Your Greed Quotient: 75%

You're definitely a greedy person, and there's nothing wrong with wanting to keep what's yours. You are a bit spoiled and demanding at times - make sure to give a little back to those who are generous with you!

How Much Greed Do You Have?

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Last night
okay, well yesterday was an eventful day, that's for sure, haha. ok, first I was supposed to go to chocolate pudding's place to meet up with the band I was gonna play with and then later that night to a party at a girl's house...

but I had to work... but thanks to one of my co-workers I got the day off. he said he needed more hours and I said I wanted to go to the party and such....so he took my shift, thanks james :D

the band meeting started at 2... my work started at 4 but then my boss wanted me to come in at 3... so I said alright... and the party started at 6 or 7, not really sure... in any case I would have been at work till 9...

so like I said, he took my shift for me... there didn't end up being a party at her place... instead I went to another party, which by the way was fantastic, much better than the original girl's party. good friends, good company, god times.

first the band thing, I played drums a bit people are all like "yay". lol I was so terrible and they still thought I was decent :P and anyway, the bassist couldn't be there, and thje guitarist was pretty late.

then the party, we got chips, pop, pizza, all cuddled up underneath a blanket and watched "Bon Cop Bad Cop". it is a half french and half english movie. it was very interesting.

I hope things weren't weird for her last night... they weren't for me, but I think she lied to me again. but oh well, taht's another story for another time. last night was one of the best nights of my life because of all the good company, friends and good times. I think her G likes me cuz I play drums, lol.

that about sums it up... today I hafta work... and then tomorrow back to school, oh boy, it's gonna be fun :P
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Thursday, February 8, 2007

Chocolate pudding
lol, chocolate pudding. over the past couple days you seem to have been getting more weird... I am just a little curious why.... or maybe it's just me... lol, oh well, anyway.... party this weekend.... I hafta work though... I don't wanna... not much more to say
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Tuesday, February 6, 2007

inconclusive before
yeah, I will continue from where I left off before... I had to leave in a hurry... anywayyyy yeah greg, I am tlaking to you, I have heard from more than 1 person that you wanna kick my ass, good luck with it, I didn't wanna bring your name into it but now it's too late. what are you gonna do? bring some friends? like I said, I ain't going down without a fight... I know I sound obnoxious but I honestly think I hate you, it's a feeling I have never felt before... HA! you are such a loser, basically having to beg, AREN'T YOU!? AREN'T YOU YOU LITTLE BITCH! the stories I heard about you from people, it makes me laugh...

befopre I forget... sorry to my friends that read this and I know you'll probably all think less of me, but I have some shit to get off my chest...

and I am kinda wondering, why are you reading my posts greg? what does it matter to you? just in case I put something in here about you? looks like you finally foind somehting RIGHT!?!?

haha, now back to me hating you... afriend tells me they get chills when they feel good.... I never got those chills for liking someone... haha, I get em when I can't stand someone... like that asshole who thinks he is "da shit" but I kicked his ass just the same, he lifted weights for 1 SUMMER and thought he was buff, I laughed at him, then he wants to fight me! HAHA!!!! HOLY SHIT!!! and now you.... I got chils all over my back going into the back of my skull.... I been bottling up anger for a long time and now I have a few people that I am ready to take it out on... him and you.... and those faggots he hangs out with... I have 12 years of being bullied and pushed around ALL BOTTLED UP!!! I also have all the anger towards my dad that I keep bottled up, I lashed out a little tiny bit at him today and he started freaking out so I am just like WHATEVER! y'know it's sad when you make more of an income than your dad does.... I guess I shouldn't be complaining about my dad... you guys don't even have your real dad by you side... I wish you did, but wishes are but wishes, never to come true...

and all that stuff I heard about you... are you trying to get fucking poty out of people? I met you once and just from that time, I know for a fact you aren't instable! so I don't see why you would make shit up other than to get pity out of others... pathetic! ha!! even worse than me! I try to get sympathy from people but that is cuz I am a retard, HA! but never pity... like I mentioned before, you said you have spies! wtf is wrong with you! trying to turn her friends against her!? that is lowest thing I have ever seen! just stay away from her, please man, stop harassing her! I know she doesn't want my help and she will get mad at me for saying this, but who fucking cares? it doesn't matter just one more on the list of people who hate me. she semms really upset lately and I want you to stop fucking with her head man... whatever, I guess there is no way I can stop you, this is the only way I can get to you... I swear to god if you do anything you will fucking regret it, and even if she stops tlaking to me I WILL figure it out... call me a child, whatever, I know I am throwing a bit of a tantrum, but you hafta trust me here... watch yourself... one wrong move and that's it! ALL IT TAKES! and I hope she doesn't lie to me to protect you... then again, that's just the way she is... fucking twitches.... I don't know what else to say... just leave her alone if she wants you to...


I'm really sorry to my friends... don't hate me for it, but this is just how I feel...
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