Sunday, September 2, 2007

Fucker
Damn jackass was being a jerk today, fuckin' dude I work with, being stubborn and complaining about his feet hurting because he had to walk a bit last night so he wouldn't do his job..... we would have been done 30 minutes quicker if he had actually worked.... dammit!
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Damnnnn
man, my cousin is coming to live with me for the school year and I cannot stand him
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Friday, August 31, 2007

Of course
we fucked it up, we never should have dated, now we can't even be friends, no matter what one of us gets mad.... I thought it would be normal after everything, and believe me I'm trying to be like before...

You wouldn't come to give me a hug before you went into work...

P.S. that thing you said didn't exactly help the matter, whether or not it's true..."I already have a new boyfriend"...ouch...
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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Yeah right, right?
I've felt happier today.... I don't know why... I just have, not to sound harsh or anything, but I feel free for once in a good long while...
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Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Leather jacket
I gave it to you to remember who I actually was, not who you wanted me to be, the cheap-ass thief who thinks he's cool...
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Untitled
Wow, didn't hit me half as hard as I thought it would... I saw it coming, I was gonna start that exact conversation within the next few days... but I swear, I'm cool with it, we agreed, it's totally fine... full moon tonight... it was beautiful... I still love you, but we're better off...
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Friday, August 24, 2007

Nevermind
Sorry about taht last post, I was paranoid and jealous... I just hope nothing too serious happens, I don't need to be hurt too badly just yet... my first girlfriend.... I don't need to be cheated on or hurt badly in another way after 2 months with her... I'd never trust another girl again if she broke mine... she's the only one I ever really trusted.... only one I believed I could trust.... and like I had mentioned before, I have some trust issues, I'm cautious... not that I didn't trust you.... it's your older posts and stuff I've read.... maybe inaccurate.... but I have read that he tries to kiss the girl that he used to love... I always thought he was a decent guy and I tried to be friends with him, I even play cards with him, hung out with him a few times, I guess that just kinda stopped, never really called him again to see if he wanted to chill, y'know?

this whole thing was paranoia... thoughts going through my head... bad thoughts.... but she's out to see him again.... and I really hope nothing happens.... I love her so much... and I had to think about it today.... and I now realize I was a fool for even starting to think otherwise...

I don't think I've ever felt this weird in my entire life... such an odd feeling... love...
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Thursday, August 23, 2007

Stuff
Where to start? the fact that my oldest friend is embarrassed to be with me and thinks he's gonna lose his job if he hangs out with me? or maybe the fear of losing the only one i care about and that I believe cares about me... I guess I have always had trust iussues and they are still there, got lied to way too much as a kid.... I'm too messed up to even tell you all about... everyone around me is changing.... and that's means I have to aswell... I hate you all for changing...overly-obsessive? I love you....
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Sunday, August 5, 2007

Wedding
It was pretty fun, downed 4 coolers, 4 beers and a glass of wine by the end of the night but along with the amount of food I ate it did next to nothing to me, I had a pile of food 2 inches high in a circle with a diameter of about 20ish centemeters. it was a shitload of food, great food too... after everything got digested I started to feel it a bit more... I did alot of thinking.... about alot of things... not many cute girls there, I'll tell ya that... I stayed at the bayhill inn, the beds were SOOO uncomfortable, I slept on one for an hour and then couldn't fall back asleep on it so I ended up sleeping on the floor...

I apparently had another shift at moxie's yesterday that I didn't know about... they understood when I told them what happened so it's all good. and I am working today at 4... anyway, I'm out, cya.
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Saturday, August 4, 2007

First shift at moxie's
My first shift at moxie's was yesterday going into today... it was cool, I have a feeling this is gonna be a good job... they made me close on my first shift, lol. at the end of it, the assistant manager or supervisor or somehting came up to me told me I did a good job, asked if it was my first shift and handed me a white chocolate brownie and whispered, "keep it on the downlow". I kinda laughed and thanked him. it was cool overall... oh yeah and during my shifts I get free drinks as much as I want as well as some food sometimes, the cooks just randomly bring us food, today they brought us a steak dinner and a huge tub of fries.... mmmm.... and for just under 10 bucks an hour, you can't go wrong...

earlier today I went to subway and greg was there working... he didn't exactly seem happy to see me... sorry, maybe it's just me but even if you don't like the person you should still be nice to them... maybe he is just like taht with all customers... whatever, I would still like to get to know the guy, I mean he seems at least half wise, knows alot about war and respects those who fought in them...

My dad... what the fuck.... don't even know what to say about him today... yesterday he started freaking out for no reason, he wanted the computer and just said "get off"... he didn't ask or anything.... just "get off".... he doesn't work and pay bills for the family.... all he does is sits on his lazy fucking ass 16 hours a day and watches tv, plays video games or uses the computer for god knows what... and then he goes to sleep and does it all again and every second day or sometimes every day he will mix it up a bit and decide to get drunk.... I really can't stand this anymore.... when I talked to my mom about the whole situation again she even said, and I quote "It's my fault for marrying him"... I wanted to say "well then fix it"... but it's not for me to butt in on, it's her choice... I wanted to say it so bad but something held me back and I don't know what... I wish he'd at least get a minimum wage job... just to help I mean an extra 650 bucks per paycheck wouldn't hurt now would it? and it would keep him busy...in september when I get my shifts at shopper's back, I will be working 2 jobs at once, more than he's worked in the past 8 years... I guess it just sounds like I am compaining now... next!

Tomorrow I am going to a wedding and staying the night in neepawa... it's my cousin, dale's, wedding... he is marrying a woman named tracy, a woman by the same name as his sister, kinda funny when you think about it... I haven't been to a wedding since I was like 7 or somehting like that.... yeah I think it's been 10 years since kelly and carmen's wedding.... but I am expecting the wedding to be as boring as sin, someone better spike the punch ;) anyway, wish me luck guys :P
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