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• survive myself, become Kenshin's twin...WHAT??? ALL I NEED ARE THE EYES!!!
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Tuesday, February 28, 2006
*sarcastic* Boo.
Look I know I’m supposed to be the loving, caring and overly protective friend, but I’m not going to protect you forever. I’m sorry, but if you can’t suck up the fact you’re life is changing and you have to move (yes, certain people who’re reading this, you’ll know who I’m talking to, but I really, REALLY have to vent here) stop dreading it and if you have the chance to change it STAND THE FUCK UP!!!!!! IF YOU HAVE A GOD DAMNED OPININ SAY IT!!!!!!! DON’T SIT THERE AND CRY, STAND UP GET SOME GUTS AND SPEAK WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY!!!!!!
I know I’m being majorly insensitive, but right now I could care less. My life sucks, I put on a mask and make everything better to the point where I believe it too. You wanna hear a sob story hear this:
1.When I was 2 1/2, my mom moved away. I haven’t seen her for years, last time I saw her in person was in 2001. For almost 10 years I didn’t know she even existed until I finally stole the letters she’s been sending for the time she left from my step-mom.
2.At 5, my dad got married to the greatest bitch I believe can possibly exist. Then she crapped out two of the snottiest devil children.
3.We’ve moved at least 7 times within Minnesota and Wisconsin. Before Angie came, my dad and I lived in well over 9 states for less than 2 months at a time.
4.My father’s jobs included: bouncer (strip club & bars), sign painter and other low crappy jobs that barely fed us. I hardly know my own father because he’s gone so much. I love him dearly, but I also hate the fact he doesn’t know me and that I don’t know him.
5.When I was 8, 10, and 12 I went to my cousins funerals who happened to commit suicide. The one where I was 10, I walked in on my favorite cousin at the time just after he shot himself. I was put into therapy. Never worked, still receive pills.
I GOT OVER IT!!!!! I HAVE MOOD SWINGS, YES, BUT I GOT THE FUCK OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!
You know I really am sorry, but right now I really have to vent. I love my friends like family for the simple fact in reality I don’t have one. I zone out to find a so called “happy place” but when I zone the only thing I think about is death and lots of blood, which is probably because I sat in a really small living room with my cousin’s corpse for 3 hours at the age of 10 without crying once. I’M AN INSENSEITIVE BITCH AND I KNOW IT!!!! WHY??? BECAUSE I FOUND OUT EMOTIONS DON’T HELP ANYTHING. I PROTECT THE FEW THINGS I HAVE LEFT IN THIS WORLD AND IF THEY LEFT IT’D GIVE ME THAT MUCH MORE OF A REASON TO ENTER THE CORE AND DIE WITH WHAT DIGNITY I HAVE LEFT. |
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