Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Naruto FanFic!!!

Ok so here is the second chapter! Ok just so you know, token may be on Chapter like 11 but I started writing my FanFic way before him! So in his face! He probably wouldn't even be writing one if it weren't for me! Just wanted you to know that...and for the people that read this, this chapter has boyxboy! Some Shounen-ai! the bump bump is next chapter so, can't wait! ^__^ enjoy! Chapter 2 "What?!" Naruto screamed at the Hokage. "Do you always have to yell Naruto?" Tsudnade was briefing Naruto and his team on the next mission they would go on but this one was different. "Yes Naruto, you will be split up for this mission, your team will consist of you, Kiba, and Shikamaru. "Hey! Dont forget Akamaru!" Kiba yelled from behind everyone. "And yes Akamaru as well. Sasuke your team will be; you, Lee, and going along on his first Konoha mission Gaara." "What they get the Kazekage?!" Naruto was yelling again. "Naruto knock it out! It will be fine." Sasuke said to Naruto smiling slightly. Tsudnade called out the rest of the teams she tried to separate them so it would be either all guys on a team or all girls on a team, but the last team was different. "Ino, Choji, and Hinata." " What! I was already in a team with Choji before! Can't I go with someone else?!" "What Ino you dont like me or something?" Choji joked. Ino punched Choji in the head. "Stop, now you all will be going on the same mission just we needed to spread out across as much land as we could. We will be heading to a village far from here, there have been reports of missing children and some accounts of murder. This is a C-ranked mission, so you can go on your own, but just in case we are sending some Jonin with you." "Awe, come on Grandma Tsudnade we can handle it!" "Calm down Naruto, and respect the Hokage." Kakashi walked up behind Naruto and put his hand on his sholder. "We know you can handle yourselves well its just with the murders going on we cant take a chance, so we will be coming with you." Kakashi gave Naruto and the other Genin a smile. "So when do we go?" The red head asked. "Well Gaara you will rest up tonight and leave in the morning after breakfast, so everyone get a good nights rest and meet at the front gate for departure, good evening." Naruto walked out of the office and was walking down an alley when, "Hey Naruto!" Naruto turned around, it was Kiba and Shikamaru. Kiba ran at Naruto as Shikamaru walked, taking his time. "Hey Kiba, Shikamaru..." "Ruff!" Naruto bent down petting Akamaru. "...hey Akamaru." "So are you ready for the mission tomorrow?" Kiba was always excited for a new mission, unlike Shikamaru who thought all missions were a drag. "Yeah, its just, why do you think Grandma Tsudnade split us up? It makes you think...you know?" Kiba looked at Naruto as he picked up Akamaru. "You know you have a point...why would she split us up, I mean she knows we work better with our original teams because we train with them." Shikamaru just stood there. "Maybe she wants to test our team work skills." Shikamaru simply said. "Because we work with our teams all the time, we kinda predict what they will do next, but working with new people, you have to think things through." "I see what your saying. Well I cant wait to see how it all turns out, see you later Naruto." Kiba and Shikamaru walk off leaving Naruto alone. As Naruto walked home he thought of Sasuke. "Why, when me and Sasuke finally told each other how we feel we have to be split up for the mission." Naruto sighed out loud. "My that was a sigh." Naruto jerked around to see Sasuke standing there. "Sasuke!" Naruto ran to Sasuke and hugged him. "You act like you haven't seen me in ages, whats wrong?" Naruto straightened himself up. "Well tomorrow we have to go on a mission and, when we just told each other...well.." "Yeah, go on." "..and Grandma Tsudnade's gonna split us up and..." Sasuke saw Naruto was sad and hugged him again. "Sasuke, will you do something for me?" "Sure Naruto anything." Naruto hesitated. "Will you stay the night with me?" Sasuke froze, not knowing what to say or do. "So will you Sasuke?" Naruto pulling away from him to see his face. "Sure Naruto, I'll stay, but will you come back to my house so I can get some clothes?" "Sure!" They walked towards Sasuke's house. "Wow, Sasuke and Naruto? And I thought we were the only ones!" "Shut up, they will hear you!" "But, I just cant believe it." " I know but now we arn't the only ones, we finally have someone to relate to." The two strangers walked off into the night. "Ok now I'm ready, I think I have everything." Sasuke was franticly looking around for anything he may have missed. "I'm pretty sure you have everything, lets go now its getting late." Naruto was laying on Sasuke's couch waiting for him to find all his things. "Well Naruto we probably would have already left if you would have helped me!" "I'm sorry, let me see what you have." Naruto got up and looked through Sasuke's things. "Toothbrush,paste, hairbrush, shirt,pants, and..." Naruto blushed as he held up Sasuke's boxers. "...boxers." Naruto laughed as Sasuke snatched them out of his hand and stuffed them back down into the bag. "Your such a perv Naruto!" Naruto just kept laughing. "Well you seem to have everything." Sasuke drapped the bag over him and walked out of his house and locked it. The walked back to Naruto's house, it was dark already and the moon was bright as it luminated the village. Naruto unlocked his house and walked in. "You can put your bags in my room, I'm going to make supper, ok?" Sasuke didn't say anything he just walked into Naruto's room and put his stuff right next to Naruto's dresser. He went to go and leave but saw a picture on his dresser, it was of him, Naruto, Sakura, and Kakashi. "I remember this day...Smile Sasuke!" Sasuke sounded like Sakura. A tear rolled down Sasuke's face, not noticing Naruto walking in. "Whatcha looking at Sasuke?" Sasuke turned around dropping the picture. Naruto walked over to Sasuke and picked up the picture, looking at it. "I remember this, it was our first day of being Genin..." Naruto looked up at Sasuke trying to wipe away his tears. "Sasuke whats wrong?" Naruto put the picture back on the dresser and walked over to Sasuke. "You really do care for me don't you Naruto?" "Of course I do! I will always love you Sasuke." Then Naruto wrapped his arms around Sasuke and hugged him, Sasuke doing the same. "Dont cry Sasuke, please." They stood there for a while in each others embrace until. "Naruto, whats burning?" Naruto gasped and ran for the kitchen. "Nooo!" Sasuke joined Naruto in the kitchen. "Wow, it looks...great..." Looking at the burnt bread. "Your lying Sasuke, it looks horrible!" Sasuke started laughing. "Stop laughing Sasuke! I've never made bread before, I've always made ramen!" Sasuke, still laughing, walked over to Naruto and put his arm around his waist, still looking at the food. "Well I thank you for trying. So what else did you make?" " I made ramen and thats it..." "Well the ramen for sure smells good." "Thank you." Naruto reached for some bowls and chopsticks. "Go sit at the table I'll bring you some ramen." Sasuke didn't want to get in Naruto's way so he sat at the table. "Here you go." Naruto handed Sasuke some ramen and they sat beside each other and ate. "Wow that was good Naruto! But now I'm full and I'm tired. Where will I sleep?" Naruto looked at his ramen as he slurpped up the juices. "Well I was planning on sleeping on the floor because I only have one bed." "You dont have to sleep on the floor Naruto, I will, or..." Naruto could see what Sasuke was implying. "Ok Sasuke..." Naruto got up and put the dishes into the sink. "Awe! I knew what I forgot!" "What did you forget?" "I forgot to get night clothes!" Naruto looked at Sasuke up and down and went into his room. He came back out with a t-shirt and a pair of shorts. "Here you can wear some of my clothes, we are about the same size." Sasuke took the clothes and went into the bathroom to change. Naruto went into his bed room to change, he had his night shorts on but as he took off his shirt Sasuke walked in. Embarassed Sasuke turned to look away and blushed. "Its ok Sasuke." Naruto walked over to Sasuke without putting his shirt on and turned Sasuke around. "Naruto..." Sasuke looked deep into Naruto's eyes and carressed his face with his hand. Naruto had took ahold of Sasuke's hand and interlocked fingers. They pressed their foreheads together, feeling each others embrace. Sasuke grabbed Naruto's back and pulled him close, there bodys pressed together. Sasuke pushed Naruto against a wall. He had the yellow haired boys hand above his head, and Sasuke worked his leg inbetween Narutos. Sasuke moved closer to him as their lips were but a breath apart, Naruto filled that gap. Sasuke shocked openly took in the kiss. "Is this really happening? I'm kissing Sasuke?" Sasuke could feel the warmth from Naruto's lips and wanted more. They stood there pressed against each other until Sasuke broke the kiss for air. Just to be joined by another kissed forced by Naruto this time. Sasuke's arms were around Naruto's waist pulling the yellow haired boy even closer to him. Naruto's naked chest pressed against Sasuke's clothed upper body. Sasuke grabbed Naruto's butt and pushed him against himself further making them rub against each other. Naruto moaned through a kiss. The raven haired boy could take it not longer, he wanted Naruto, now. He skimmed his arms down Naruto's back, and then up under his shirt, Naruto shivered. "What wrong Naruto?" "Nothing its just well this is our first kiss and well..." Naruto couldn't finish as much as he wanted Sasuke right now, he couldn't make himself go any further. "I understand Naruto, your not ready." Naruto shook his head in agreement. " Its ok, I wont go any farther." Kissing Naruto again. Naruto yawned. "Ok well I guess its time for bed." Sasuke took Naruto by the hand and they walked over to the bed. "Naruto your not going to wear a shirt?" "I guess not..." Sasuke looked at Naruto and smiled, Sasuke leaned up and pulled his own shirt off. Naruto blushed at seeing how incredibly muscular Sasuke was. "Well I guess I'm not wearing one either." Sasuke layed down in the bed next to Naruto and proped his head with one of his hands and just looked at Naruto. Naruto took one of Sasuke's and and wound their fingers together. "Thanks for staying over tonight Sasuke, it really means alot to me." "No problem, acctually I should thank you, if it weren't for you, I would be alone tonight." Sasuke leaned over and kissed Naruto on the fore head. Naruto smiled and drifted off to sleep. Sasuke stayed awake a little longer and watched the sleeping ninja. Admiring how his chest would rise and then fall with each breath. The moon light fell in from the window next to the bed, covering Naruto's sleeping body. This made the boy look innocent, and you could clearly see the marks on his face, Sasuke traced them with a gentle finger. "Why did they have to split us? Now I have to leave Naruto, not knowing if he will be alright or what. I will have to talk to Kiba and Shikamaru tomorrow...they will make sure he is returned to me, unharmed." Sasuke layed down and pulled the sleeping boy closer to him their bare chests touching and fell asleep.

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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

   MY Naruto boyxboy FanFic!!!

Ok first and foremost...this story (eventually) will have boyxboy, so if you do not like that then just plain an simple do not read! I'll still love ya, just don't read it! Ok so this is my first FanFic, so I didn't describe things the best I could because I'm just not good at those type of things..just bare with me on this ^__^ Chapter1 The day was warm and the ninjas trained in the forest. "Naruto! What are you doing?!" screamed Sakura as she stared at the knuckle head ninja laying on the ground. "You always mess things up!" Sakura was getting more frustrated with him. Naruto got up and patted himself off. "Sorry to disappoint you Sakura, at least I tried, unlike you." Naruto mumbled under his breath. Sakura punched Naruto in the head. "Oww! What was that for? I was just telling the truth, you never do anything just sit back and stare at Sasuke. I still dont know what you see in him" Sasuke was now sitting on a tree trunk away from everyone trying to get away from the normal arguements of Sakura and Naruto. " Why are you over here Sasuke?" The tall ninja appeared from nowhere. "I dont like being around them when they get like this Kakashi-sensai." "I understand but you do realize that that is who they are, Naruto is always going to be loud and always making mistakes, and Sakura...well I'm not sure what to say about her, I still don't completely understand her." This brought a small smile to Sasuke's face but soon faded as Naruto and Sakura walked over. "You two done fighting yet? It really gets annoying." Sasuke got up and started to walk back to the village. "Sasuke where are you going, we arn't done training for today, still a couple of drills to do." "Sorry Kakashi-sensai, I just dont feel like it today, I just want to go home and rest." "I understand, so in that case training will be cut short today." With that Naruto jumped into the air yelling and cheering. "Thank you Sasuke!" "Why are you thanking me you dobe? I'm leaving because I cant stand you or Sakura." Sakura just stood there looking at Sasuke walking away and a tear rolled down her face and she fell to the ground. "Whats wrong Sakura?" Kakashi said leaning down to see what was wrong and putting his hand on her sholder. "Sasuke...he said..." choking with every word she said,"...he said he couldn't stand me..." now tears freely falling off of her face. "Dont worry about it Sakura, you know how Sasuke is, just act like it doesn't bother. Maybe he will turn around." Kakashi said smiling. Sakura gave Kakashi a weak smile, "Thank you Sensai." Wiping the tears away and getting up. Naruto had caught up to Sasuke and was talking to him. "So Sasuke, why did you say you couldn't stand me or Sakura? You know she really likes you, and for you to say that, really hurt her." "Naruto, I said that because you and Sakura always argue over the smallest things, truely I can't stand her." Naruto just stared at Sasuke with confusion. "Why?" "Well I see you train all the time and you try your best and, like you said, she does nothing and when you make a mistake she yells at you for it. I just think she should give you a little bit more respect than that." Naruto looked at the ground when Sasuke said that and thought to himself, "Sasuke really thinks that? He notices that I do try my best?" "Naruto what are you doing?" Naruto looked up and realized he had been blushing bright pink. He looked away and tried to change the subject. "So Sasuke, would you like to come and get some ramen with me? I'll pay for it." Sasuke stopped walking and looked at Naruto, "You have never asked me to get ramen with you." Sasuke stepped closer to Naruto and leaned towards him. Naruto blushed a little and leaned back. Sasuke put his hand on Naruto's forehead. "Well I figured you would have a fever, but I guess not, ok I'll get some ramen with you." Naruto let out a big sigh of releif." What was I thinking? And why did I blush so much? Its just Sasuke, hes a chick magnet..and its just ramen, what could possibly happen?" Sasuke was already a good ways ahead of Naruto. "Naruto, if I'm going to get ramen you better come on before I change my mind." "Oh...ok I'm coming." Naruto ran after Sasuke and walked beside him the rest of the way to the ramen shop. Naruto sat at the ramen shop and finished up his forth bowl of ramen. "How can you eat so much ramen Naruto?" Sasuke said as he raised an eyebrow. "I love ramen, cant get enough of it." Naruto said smiling big with a noodle hanging out of his mouth. Sasuke just smiled and continued eatting his ramen. "Why are you smiling Sasuke? Did I do something? Is there something on my face?" Naruto was moving his hand all over his face trying to find the reason Sasuke was laughing so much. "Naruto, I'm sorry but you have a ramen noodle hanging from your lip." Naruto smiled as he slurped the noodle and ate it. "Thanks Sasuke." "No need for thanking, any way you would have found it eventually." Naruto stood up and started stretching as Sasuke got up and just stood there watching Naruto. After Naruto paid the bill they left. "So Sasuke what are you going to do the rest of the day?" "Probably go home and do nothing, like usual." Naruto walked looking at the ground, he had realized him and Sasuke hadn't been fight and arguing that much lately. He could sense they were getting better aquainted with each other, and better friends. "Um...Sasuke..." "What is it Naruto?" "..since your not doing anything this after noon...would you like to come over to my house? I mean...since you dont have anything to do and..." Naruto was cut short. "Sure." Sasuke simply said. And they didn't say much after that as they walked to Naruto's house. "So Naruto, you live here all by yourself?" "Yeah, I've been here alone for as long as I can remember." Noticing the hurt in Naruto's voice Sasuke put his arm around Naruto's neck. "Dont feel bad Naruto, your not alone,I Iive by myself too." Sasuke said trying to cheer Naruto up, but failing. Naruto walked in and slumped on the couch. Sasuke looked around and found there were barely any decorations on the wall just a couple of things here and there. Sasuke walked around a little and then ended up sitting on the couch next to Naruto, who was sitting there with his elbows on his knees and his head in his hands. "Naruto whats wrong? You seemed fine earlier." Sasuke put his hand on Naruto's sholder to try and comfort him, and Sasuke noticed some drops falling from Naruto's face. "Naruto, whats wrong? Please tell me." Naruto didn't say anything just continued crying. Sasuke lifted up Naruto's head and looked at him. "Please dont look at me." Naruto said as he jerked his head away. Sasuke pulled his head back so he could look at him again. "Naruto you are my friend and even though I dont act like it, I care for you, thats what friends do, so tell me whats wrong." Naruto looked at the concern in Sasuke's face and sighed. "Well you of all people should know, staying alone no one around to talk to, and then when you do go out to where the people are they just yell at you and..." Naruto started crying again. Sasuke didn't know what to do, he wasn't good at comforting people, and especially in this situation. Naruto was a boy and so was he, boys arn't suppost to cry its weakness, but Naruto was his friend. Sasuke hesitated and finally grabbed Naruto's other sholder and pulled him close into a hug. "Its ok Naruto, I understand just dont cry anymore." Naruto cried into Sasuke's chest and hugged him back. "Thank you Sasuke." Is all Naruto said and slowly stopped crying. Sasuke pushed Naruto away and looked at his face, his eyes were slightly red and his face was wet from the tears. Sasuke wiped the remaining tears from Naruto's face and stared into his big blue eyes. "Naruto if there is anything you want you just tell me, ok?" Naruto shook his head in agreement and said quietly, "Ok." "Ok now Naruto you need to go wash your face, it will make you feel better." Naruto didn't move he just sat there still in his slump. Sasuke got up and held out his hand. "Come on Naruto." Naruto looked at Sasuke in confusion. Sasuke bent down and grabbed Naruto's hand and pulled him up. "Where is your bathroom?" Naruto pointed at a door. Sasuke dragged Naruto to the bathroom and got a rag. "Naruto sit there." Pointing at the tolet. Naruto sat. Sasuke wetted the rag and walked over to Naruto. Sasuke sat on the edge of the bathtub and started wiping Naruto's face, all the while Naruto just sat there staring into Sasuke's eyes. "What is this feeling? Why do I feel so strange? I just want Sasuke to hold me again, like before...but..." By then Sasuke was done and got another rag and started to dry Naruto's face. "Why are you doing this Sasuke?" Naruto lookin into Sasuke's raven black eyes. Sasuke looked confused. "Why?" "Yeah..." Naruto trailing off with is words and slowly letting his head fall back to looking at the ground. Yet again Sasuke took his one finger and lifted up Naruto's head. "Like I said earlier, I'm your friend and..." Before he could finish Naruto had Sasuke in a hug. "Naruto..." Sasuke gasped. "Thank you so much Sasuke, you've always been there for me and now...your here with me helping me...I love you Sasuke." Sasuke's eyes widened and he gasped. "What did you just say?" Naruto looked up. "I said..." Just realizing what he said Naruto leaned up away from Sasuke, "...nothing." Sasuke looked at Naruto with a slight smile on his face. "Did you just say you loved me?" Naruto started blushing. "No..I didn't say that." "Yes you did!" "No I didn't..." "Did you mean it?" Naruto looked at Sasuke who was smiling at him. "What do you mean, did I mean it?" " Exactly what I said, did you mean it when you said you loved me?" Naruto was so embarassed at the moment he didn't know what to say. "Well..umm..yeah.." He was stuttering with every word he said. Sasuke smiled and stood up. "Well Naruto, I dont know what to say, just..." Naruto looked up at Sasuke standing there. "What?" "Truthfully, I do too." "You do too what?" "Ahh the same old Naruto, and the reason why, I love you too you dobe." Naruto smiled and stood up next to Sasuke and hugged him again. Naruto had just told Sasuke how he felt about him and Sasuke told Naruto how he felt. Nothing could take the feeling away from him that he felt at that moment.

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

New Pic!

I gots a new picture up! Its done in photoshop!!! Check it out because it goes along with my fan fic on deviantart!! Naruto Pairings-sasukexnaruto Story Hosted By theOtaku.com. Comment, vote...you know that good stuff

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Yayness!

Ok so I'm sorry to my friends I didn't come to school today...there were no towels clean! And I also woke up late...so yeah...I did the request Casey asked for so check it out! Secret Lovers! Hosted By theOtaku.com. I worked hard on that picture! Sayonara!

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Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Randomness

Ok so at the moment I am writing a Naruto Pairings FanFic...It makes me happy! They so do the bump bump! Who you ask..well I'm not going to tell you! If you seriously want to read it its on deviant art...if you can't find it there, my name on there is...UniqueSideEffect..you can find it under my gallery...so yeah, if you don't like yaoi at all do not read my fanfic...and if you cant take detailed bump bump do not read it *sigh* so run off to www.deviantart.com and look up my name and check it out! I'm going to draw another request...I can't tell you b/c Token could read this and..well..yeah...and my friends on here that are not Token's friend you should so be his friend...he also is writing a Naruto fanfic...but his doesn't have bump bump..so if you like a more layed back Naruto story his would be the one to read and everyone is straight..*sigh* I'm also drawing pictures to go along with my fanfic..the first one is of Sasuke holding Naruto, and Naruto is crying...and yes I gave them big noses! Sorry, one should take pride in their big nose! I still unfortunatly hate my life *sigh* I had a really good day today, I just realized I probably wouldn't be this pervy if I acctually had someone...but then again it is too much fun being pervy! Now remember children 'Drugs are bad, really fun, but bad none the less' Now have a nice day I'm going to be depressed somewhere. *sigh slumps away*

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Sunday, December 9, 2007

   50!!!!!

OMG! I got 50 Guest Book Signings! I know it doesn't seem like many but man does it make me happy!!! So thank you to all my friends on here, you really really have made my day! I loves you all! *hugs all* Well have a nice day!

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Saturday, December 8, 2007

Request Drawing!!

Keikohatake's Request Hosted By theOtaku.com. Here is the request drawing KeikoHatake wanted me to draw, its not completely finished I still have to do the cherry blossom tree and the background but other than that checks it out! Yeah my days are getting better progressivly *sigh* I still hate myself, but I have to say it with a smile *smile*twitch*smile* My friend is better, I think...he seemed better when I saw him last, though I'm still and always will be worried for him. Anywhoo I'm in the process of drawing another picture..I like the whole idea of it and its turning out pretty good hehe, it has to do with GaaraxLee, they are all chibi and I love it! I cant wait to post it! I still have to ink and post Token's pic..I will get on that..maybe tomorrow if I dont get caught up in writing my fan fic again *sigh* Well hope you've had a good day, I've had a decent one, and OMG I just got done watching Naruto! I seen the manga where Kiba stabs himself but when I saw it on tv I literally cried! It made me so sad! And that dude (I forget his name ) the pretty one with the two red dots on his face and the red eye liner like stuff...yeah..all I wanted to say about him is hes pretty..hehe.. *runs off*

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Friday, December 7, 2007

Irukaxkakashi Hosted By theOtaku.com. New picture up! And TONIGHT I am going to submit the KeikoHatake's request! Its not completely dont but good enough! And the I have to fix and ink Token-kun's Naruto drawing he did! and I want to add something else..but not 100% sure well I got to hurry up and go I'm gonna be late for school *runs off to dry hair*

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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

I hate myself...

Third Eye Blind-Jumper I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand The angry boy a bit too insane Icing over a secret pain You know you dont belong Youre the first to fight Youre way too loud Youre the flash of light on a burial shroud I know somethings wrong Well everyone I know has got a reason To say put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand Well hes on the table and hes gone to code And I do not think anyone knows What theyre doing here And your friends have left you Youve been dismissed I never thought it would come to this And i, I want you to know Everyones got to face down the demons Maybe today You could put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend You could cut ties with all the lies that youve been living in And if you do not want to see me again I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand I would understand Understand Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah Can you put the past away I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend And I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand I wish you would step back from that ledge my friend I would understand Yeah another bad day...This song goes out to one of my friends, he did something today that I wish not to explain on here, let him keep his privacy. I just feel like crap, b/c even though he wouldn't care if anyone knew what he did I still feel bad b/c I'm his friend and I wasn't there to comfort him, so many things are going through my head right now...I'm like crying my eyes out!! Because I'm such a crappy friend! I know Casey you explain the things to me but its just I know how hes feeling and I didn't do anything *bows head and crys* People told me not to worry about it but I cant help but worry about him! And the assistant principal told my teacher not to take into consideration with it b/c it just him! So assistant principal you can burn in hell! You burn in hell and suffer!!! Sorry about that, I just really hate him right now! Yeah theres like only a couple things that made me happy today...my friend Kristie showed me her butt! Yeah her butt, she got a shot in her butt and decided to show me and Casey...that was an experience in its own...and we had this Christmas assembly and this elf and Santa tackled the Grinch! And the elf and Santa keep like body slaming each other! It made me happy..then the whole thing with my friend happened and it made the rest of my day miserable and depressing...well I'm off to do stuff and later watch some more Full Metal Alchemist... Sayonara

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Tuesday, December 4, 2007

*slump*

Linkin Park-By Myself What do I do to ignore them behind me? Do I follow my instincts blindly? Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening? Do I sit here and try to stand it? Or do I try to catch them red-handed? Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness, Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness? Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin I make the right moves but I'm lost within I put on my daily façade but then I just end up getting hurt again By myself (Myself) Pre chorus: I ask why, but in my mind I find I can't rely on myself I can't hold on To what I want when I'm stretched so thin It's all too much to take in I can't hold on To anything watching everything spin With thoughts of failure sinking in If I turn my back I'm defenseless And to go blindly seems senseless If I hide my pride and let it all go on Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone If I let them go I'll be outdone But if I try to catch them I'll be outrun If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer (By myself) Pre chorus Chorus How do you think I've lost so much I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch How do you expect I will know what to do When all I know is what you tell me to Don't you know I can't tell you how to make it go No matter what I do, how hard I try I can't seem to convince myself why I'm stuck on the outside Chorus (2x) Yeah I had a good day then..it just turned to shit. I dont know... Yeah about the song, if there was song for me that would be the song, always has always will be, for some odd reason. I just feel really depressed right now *slump* Its for numerous reasons, knowing me personally I'm normally happy go lucky and I rarely talk about personal things to any one, like say for instance boyfriend/ girlfriend things I dont talk about to anyone-why?- I'm insecure! And just to tell you ahead of time I'M NOT GAY!! Just pointing that out! Yeah I'm in this mood mainly because after school I was standing by myself and saw all the "happy little couples" and I thought to myself, wow how pathetic am I? I'm 18 and never had a boyfriend!!! Ever!! And for some reason that depressed me so much...*sigh* I dont know I just feel like crying, I dont know what to do with myself, Am I disgusting? Odviously I am, but on a happier note today this girl made me soo happy for some odd reason...at the end of class she just ran over to me and said "Amanda let me take your picture!" and I was like what?!! she was like "I'm having a really bad day and the face you made earlier made me happy so can I take your picture?" so I let her take my picture, it just made me happy ^__^ Well I'm gonna go and be depressed somewhere *slump* Sayonara

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