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Anime Fan Since • Jan. 2003 Favorite Anime • Fruits Basket, though the manga is so much better Hobbies • reading, writing, hiking, buliding computers, driving nowhere, shopping Talents • Writing realistic fiction and reading people
myOtaku.com: usagi sohma
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
I am feeling very alone right now. Last night kinda did it for me on that one and I can't understand why. I mean I understand what triggered the feelings but last night at work was actually a good night and nothing went wrong so I have to ask if that shouldn't have canceled out the feeling that I am alone . . . That's the way that it usually works, but I haven't felt as if it has been canceled out at all. Instead I feel as lonely as I did before. I miss my friends. I miss seeing them everyday and having them call back and randomly show up just b/c. I miss knowing them and feeling connected to them. It's just this lonely feeling. As if no matter how hard I try no one tries in return. I am starting to think that I shouldn't even bother with it and should let them be and live their lives.
Love how loneliness leads to depression. But that ties into my worst fear: ending up completely alone. I just wish that I knew what to do about it. I am training to become a Psychiatrist and have no idea what to do about my own delimas. That's a good sign.
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I am feeling very alone right now. Last night kinda did it for me on that one and I can't understand why. I mean I understand what triggered the feelings but last night at work was actually a good night and nothing went wrong so I have to ask if that shouldn't have canceled out the feeling that I am alone . . . That's the way that it usually works, but I haven't felt as if it has been canceled out at all. Instead I feel as lonely as I did before. I miss my friends. I miss seeing them everyday and having them call back and randomly show up just b/c. I miss knowing them and feeling connected to them. It's just this lonely feeling. As if no matter how hard I try no one tries in return. I am starting to think that I shouldn't even bother with it and should let them be and live their lives.