Tuesday, May 3, 2005

stuff bout my day

Well my day went pretty well.
I am in a good mood.
My friend Tim tried to kiss me today like a million times.
I keept telling him no but he kept trying anyways.
Eventually my mom pulled up and saved me right before he kissed me.
I would of SO gaged if he managed to kiss me.
But besides that everything went pretty well.
I got my homework done pretty quick since I only hade english where i just hade to read one scene in Romeo & Juliet.
I am on the phone with Tim right now and he is yelling at me for not kissing him.
But i got to go now.
-=~Vampy~=-
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Monday, May 2, 2005

ok well

well since I was on here for a hour almost two hours to long today since i was waiting for my step dad to get home so i can burn a cd. I dont know if I will be on tomarrow at all or not.
Just figured I would let you know now.
Byes!
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POST AGAIN

ok well I decided to type up my posts early in order to make sure I got them posted and have plently of time to talk to people since most of the time while I am on the computer I am wasteing most of it typeing up a post. So yeah.......
Well dont mind me to much if this turns out kinda weird but I am typeing this up origanlly in the notepad program and well yeah I think you get it.
Well today at school went pretty good besides the fact of my freind Tim flirting with me again this morning in front of his girlfreind and she was giving me nasty looks behind my back since then all day long.
OMG!!!
I so wanted to kill Chanel when I seen what she wore to school today!
Bright yellow shirt that cut low and a bright yellow flowered skirt with pink flip flops.
Me and Tim were makeing fun of her all day cuz of it. I swear if you turned out all the lights you could still see her cuz thats how bright that damn yellow shirt was.
I wanted to puke when I seen her.
*gags*
ok thats a bit better....but it still dont get the image out of my head of her in the bright yellow shirt.
I knew why it was cut so low cuz it was to get back at me over it.
Oh well.....the only thing it did to me was relieze what I walked away from and I am glad I walked away from it.
And it is really weird typeing at my own computer right now cuz my keyboard is SO old. Some of the keys are starting to stick a bit and I have wore this thing out every since we got it cuz I have hade to type up so much stuff.
Well on a diffrent subject.
I finally got my mom to trim up my hair today. No one freak out on me please. All I got cut was the ends off so it could help it grow better. My brush was starting to rip apart the ends of my hair and they were starting to split a bit and well yeah that wasnt good. But my mom trimmed it and found out something bout my hair. The back of it grew faster then the front. Weird a bit to me but yeah.
I thought it was really weird when my freind Tim today told me to hug him in front of chanel or he would punch me. I hugged him a bit creepied out but yeah chanel seen it and kinda got disgusted a bit. I should hug people more often in front of her if she does that then.
OMG!
I never reliezed how stupid people are in my school until today. My damn freinds were haveing a "sword fight" with permenant markers!
They are SO STUPID!!!!!!
But I have work to do for math class since I am falling behind a bit in there again. -_-
I hate falling behind. But eh I aint gonna be able to pass anyways cuz the dumb people at my school didnt give me enough classes to add up to 5 credits that I need to pass. I know I already got 1 and half credits from last year but this is just rediculous. I need a slow learners class but my dumb school dont provide those classes anymore due to them wanting each of ours students to feel "equal".
BS!!!!!
How is it suppose to make a kid feel equal when they are stuck failing 3 damn times in a row just cuz they cant pass one damn class cuz the class goes to fast for them?
My school has WAY to many problems.
Well time to do my homework so I can get on my moms computer and do stuff that I need to get done around the house and call people since certain people that told me to call them never called me back and nice little junk like that.
:P
Byes!
-=~Vampy~=-
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Sunday, May 1, 2005

   YAY SOMETHING GOOD FOR ONCE!!!!!!!!!!!

heh heh well suprisingly on a sunday I am acually haveing a good day despite all the BS going on in the house still.
^_^
I think it is because I acually got out of the house for like 2 hours earlier and was able to walk around and talk to my brother without any worrys of anyone hearing what i said.
^_^
I got to go to the store earlier and spend some quality time with my mom talking bout stuff.
I know it helped her and it helped me a bit to.
Then being able to talk to my bro helped me out to cuz he kept me laughing basicly the whole time.
Plus my friend Tim acually hugged me a little bit after I woke up.
It shocked me but yeah.
So for the one day in my life things are going pretty good.
I got some things for school that i needed finally.
I got some new pencils (since everyone steals mine or breaks em whenever i let em borrow em), refills for my zebra brand pen, new tennie shoes (black, blue, silver and white on em) they are by athletic. They are pretty nice and confy too. And i got a new book called Eragon.
I love this book. I am on chapter like 3 now. I know it will be worth the $7 my mom spent on it. Cheap yes but its worth it, plus it will make my mom happy to see me finish a book and have her money not go to waste.
Well tomarrow is another day for me to see whats all gonna happen to me then.
See ya all if i can.
PM me if you wish to be sure to talk to me.
BYES!!!
^_^
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Friday, April 29, 2005

new background

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Well another day........

Yep well its another day and another one to mark down that i cut. My arm bleeds a little bit now everytime i move it so far.
I dunno why I do this anymore....
it hurts but yet I have no other way to ease the pain I already feel.....
My life is confusing day to day and my head spins constantly from all the stuff I have to do that piles up more and more.
I want to come back down and relax and be happy with everyone else.
I want to stop hurting myself cuz its hurting more then helpling.
I just want for all of it to go away so I can be with the one i love the most in my life right now and thats Rhent.
If only I could be held in his arms as I fall asleep I know my life would be so much better.
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Wednesday, April 27, 2005

I GOT A PIC OF HIM

^_^
I got this pic mainly for InsaneDemon (Demon).
Its a pic of Tim!!!
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/scan0084.jpg
*drools*
He looks good in this pic.
*wipes up the drool and leaves saying* now only if I hade a pic of Rhent. T-T
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ok well heres whats up now

Ok well I am only allowed on the computer for 2 hours now a day cuz i got bad grades.
I got 5 F's, a C+, and a D.
so yeah.
I have to use my moms computer to add to it so no more posts from me in the mornings anymore.
Well I dont got much time left and I got to get stuff done on here before I get kicked off.
bye guys.
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more crap that caused me to cut again

ok...ok...ok I know I have heard it a thousand times from people I shouldnt cut myself but it's a problem for me thats slightly addictive and its hard to break.
Well I talked to chanel(vampsgirl) yesterday and well I found out she cheated on me for the past five months.
I was SO pissed when I found that out. I went and did some digging in my room last night and found my good scissors and well used em before I went to bed.
I almost hade blood on my blanket cuz I didnt relieze how sharp they are.
Sorry probably didnt wanna hear that but yeah it kinda came out.
Well I aint worring to much over chanel because she dont relieze the fact of that she drove me away from her. She lost the best thing she could ever get.
I thought being with someone for over a year almost a year and a half and being engaged would acually mean something to someone. Apparently it didnt mean much to her because after I was stupid enough and purposed she treated me worse after a week that I did that.
I would say me purposeing to her was the stupidiest move I ever did and yes a even stupidier move then cutting.
I know she will more then likely read this tonight after school and try to start stuff with me tomarrow over it but if she tries to start stuff with me now I am not gonna hold back and I am just gonna punch her dead in her face.
I have been going through more hell apart from her then what I was with her only because she has been telling people crap about me that aint true.
And yes chanel I found out what you have been saying because like I told you SO many, many, many times before I have my "little birdies" everywhere. My little birdies will acually tell me the truth unlike your so called birdies. Cuz just to inform you half of your so called birdies are acually good friends of mine and they will let me know when people talk shit bout me.


Just to change the subject though.
I acually caught up on alot of work I hade to get done last night.
If only my moms computer acually printed out the stupid report pages I have to get done for World History.
I am going to try going to the art room today and see if I can print them out there cuz they got a colored printer, plus I know the art teachers there ^^ I am sure one of em will be nice and let me print like 5 pages for a school report.
But speaking of school work. I talked to my mom the other day about that.
She said that she will acually pay for summer school this year for me if I am only failing like two classes and need those to pass.
But there is a drawback to it.
Whether I fail or take summer school I will loss my computer both ways.
Stupid in my opinion but also I see where she is comeing from on that.
I think though if I only need summer school for one class I should keep my computer.
But I am trying now alot harder.
It is hard to keep up with all my work I got to get done considering I am takeing both sophmore and freshaman classes and I failed like one class in the begining of the year yeah this semester stuff is gonna be pretty hard.
And just to add to it though I failed Biology for the year. So I have to pass all the rest of my classes even if it means passing it with a D. So yeah I am trying my best right now.
I try to be online and talk to people while I do my homework in case I need any help so yeah.
And I just remembered I hade math homework to do last night and I didnt get it done.
*sighs*
man...
Well hopefully I will have extra time in health class to start it or do it during lunch.


Well I am ending this long post of the stuff in my boring depressin life.
see ya all after school maybe.
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

uh...............

Random comment post today since I cant think of anything to post bout.
my random comment:
"what is this thing we call love? If love is suppose to be SO great then why is it that because I loved someone it hurt? I thought love was suppose to take away the pain? I found another love to try and heal my wounds from before.
She stabbed me in the back even after being together for two years. He came in not to long ago and found me lying there bleeding. He helped me up and showed me how bad she really was because my "love" for her was blinding my sight on how she really was. For that I am eternally grateful to him. I reliezed something in the process though.
I was going to give up on love completly after her but I ended up falling in love with him. I felt safe in his arms from any harm. And when I was in trouble he acually came and helped me unlike her when she sat back and watched.
I dont understand this thing we call love. I never did before because all I ever experienced before was false love. False love is just a enemy hiding until the right time and they stab you in the back when you least expect it. And sometimes you just cant leave the person alone even though you know they stabbed you in the back thus causing you more pain. You eventually get used to the pain from the one person and begin to shut out the world.
I didnt relieze that she was acually a false love to me. He stepped into my life and revealed to me who she really was.
Well I have finally steped away from her and steped into his light. I feel comfort in his light and I never want to leave it. I love the feeling of being near him. I get comfort in jus hearing his voice. I never got that from her.
So now I understand what this thing called love is.
Love is when you can be safe from harm with someone else and you know it for sure.
I know I love him more than anything. I know he will heal my wounds from her and keep me safe."


:long quote? yes it is but I guess thats kinda random but yeah thats what I was thinking about. Yes philosophy is very confuseing. I aint reading my own work because I would confuse myself and fry my brain for the day just trying to figure out what in the world I said. Well yeah random comments today. Have fun.
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