Thursday, April 21, 2005

morning ppl

yeah well its morning and i aint suppose to be on but oh well.
I am trying to eat my 6 peices of toast I am haveing for breakfast since we dont have anything to put in the microwave or have any good ceral. Oh yeah i got orange juice to go with it.
Such a good breakfast aint it? ^^
Well yeah I found out I am not allowed on after 9:30 pm again, otherwise my mom will come in here and hover over me until i do shut the computer down.
Um well I have been getting my homework done in everything but Biology because I have already failed Biology for the year (thanks to my dumbass freind mellissa greene who decided to loss both hers and mine papers the day before they were due and made my grade drop -_-).
well only 3 peices of toast left. Yeah I kinda eat fast.
and oh yeah thanks to everyone who is trying to help me out here I am getting better, unlike what my post said a couple of days ago.
Well I just remebered this at a bad time.
I have a report due for World History tomarrow on three tanks or airplanes (any combination) used in World War two. -_- why do I always remember the important stuff at the last minute?
ugh
*grabs another peice of toast*
Well yeah......um thats about all I can think of for right now besides I am going to be on a very odd time schedule cuz my watch says one time, my alarm clock says another, and the clock in the living room says another.
And my alarm clock is like 45 minutes behind.
The clock in the living room is like 5 minutes faster then my watch.
and yeah.....three clocks like that are confuseing me. T-T
Well yeah I am going to finish my last peice of toast then sit on my site for a bit then get ready for school as I always do. -_-
bye.
~-Vamp-~
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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

before i forget

Yeah well I talked to my mom earlier. I almost forgot to post what she said.
I am not allowed on in the morning anymore unless I have alot of spare time (like a half hour). And I am not allowed to get up at like 4 o clock in the morning anymore to take a shower. I have to get up at 4:30.
I am not argueing to much cuz its pretty resonable.
So yeah just hope that i member to post when i get home then i guess.
Well got to get stuff done and I found someone for my interview for english class. A old freind stopped by and I am interviewing him cuz he is a illustrator.
byes ^^
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back ground

yep yep yep
new background again
http://www.ai.mit.edu/lab/olympics/97/Crusaders/dragon.jpg
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*growls really loudly*

OMG!!! THIS IS SUCH BS!!! I got up this morning at 4 o clock cuz I couldnt sleep so I decided to take my shower for school since I was up. I get done getting all my stuff for the shower and take my shower by 4:25. I go into my bedroom to set some stuff down and a few minutes later here comes my mom. I have my computer on because when I woke up I hade it on so when I got done with my shower I could get on for a few things then get off unless I was gonna listen to my music. Well she comes in and askes my why i was up so early, I answer her then she sees that my computer is on. She assumes I was on here early doing S***. Well I wasnt! But she walks out of my bedroom after that saying "I am takeing that damn thing out of your room today." So yeah. She assumes I am doing stuff on here when I aint. I guess I should of taken one step back on not hit the enter key for when the password thing comes up when I start it up.
Well yeah thats the story. So I decided to tell you guys that because I dont know whether I will be allowed online anytime soon.
And yeah I got a favor to ask of everyone. If you could find a Animator, or a Computer Service Techincan I can interveiw or at least have their e-mail or phone # by the 21st that would be much appreciated. Its for school since we are doing careers stuff in there and those are the two careers type things that I want to do eventually.
So yeah thats it.
Hope to see you guys soon.
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Tuesday, April 19, 2005

new background

heres the new background for a while
http://www.animecowboy.com/gallery/Neon_Genesis_Evangelion/Rei_Ayanami/ngeva000.jpg
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Sorry again

I am sorry to everyone who I made a promise to me for me not to cut myself anymore, but i did last night.
Things are basicly on a steady pase of getting worse for me as the days pass by.
I would have to say that after today alot of things are going to change for me.
I am breaking up with Chanel today (vamp'sgirl) for the reason on how I have been lately.
I am sorry to her that it would have to end this way but I would honestly rather end it now then wait any longer and see her to be transfered to another school.
I think that me being in a relationship at school right now is not going to help me very much.
I honeslty think all I would be doing is just hurting the other person thus hurting myself more for hurting the other person.
Besides I am in a very unstable state right now and I dont think I could really do anything anyways.
I am sorry Chanel but I feel it is better off this way.
But I am going to go now so I can get ready for school and write up the note to chanel.
Again I am sorry.....
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Monday, April 18, 2005

   PICS OF ME AND STUFF

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/Chaneltetters.jpg
thats chanel on the top pic and my freind amanda teeters in the bottom pic.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/DadChris.jpg
my dad in the top pic and my bro chris on the bottom pic
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/FamilyanduncleJohn.jpg
thats some of the family with my uncle in the black and red robe and my step mom in the spider like dress thingy in the top pic and the bottom one is of my crackhead uncle john
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/Family.jpg
yep this is of the family
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/KyleMe.jpg
ITS KYLE!! he is such a sweet heart. He SO wanted to date me and tried to kiss me a few times on the bus when we rode the bus together but i wouldnt let him. oh well he is still cute!! ^_^
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/MeJohnErnie.jpg
Yeah this one is of me from the homecomeing dance where I meet John Keefe and Ernie Skiver. John and me are in the top pic and Ernie is in the bottom pic.
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/MikeBridgetDevin.jpg
LOOK ITS MIKE!! ^_^ mike is SO awesome. me and him have been friends since last year, well remeet friends cuz we didnt talk for like 3 years. And thats my nephew Devin who is 7 now and his mom Bridiget (my sis). Aint devin a cutey!? ^_^
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v232/Vamp2004/MomScott.jpg
Yep and the top pic is of my step bro Scott and the bottom pic is of my second mom Ethel. I kinda caught her off guard on that pic.
But hope ya liked the pics!! ^_^
BYES!
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I'm sorry

Sorry I didnt post this morning I didnt have time to.
I am home now and balling my eyes out.
I dont think I can take this anymore.
My counsiler has died so I basicly have no one to talk to now.
I mean I have my boyfreind but I just dont know.
People in my school just will not leave me to my peace.
I dont know how much longer I can take this.
Things at home are SO stressful with all my homework that needs to be done so I can pass to keep my computer and takeing care of my aunt all day with my aunt is to much.
I just dont know what to do.
I have already failed two classes for the year.
I am trying my best to do all of my work but it just keeps pileing up more and more everyday.
I have so much to do in such a little time I cant take it.
I dont know what to do with myself anymore.
I want to just sit down and slit my wrists and get this over with but I cant do it.
I think of Rhent and then I just freeze and wonder what this would do to him.
I love him more then anything but I just cant take all this shit from school.
I am sorry if something does end up happening to me but I am on the edge of a cliff that I know no one can save me from once I step over the edge.
I'm sorry to some people if it feels like all their good freinds end up this way but I acually only have freinds online.
My freinds at school toss me aside like a toy and they always have.
I just wish I could go and see everyone before something happens but I cant so all I can say is good luck to all of you and I hope you have happy lives.
Please dont mourn over me for I am nothing to mourn over.
Sorry.......
*walks out still crying*
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Saturday, April 16, 2005

yep yep

Well yeah I am awake now and decided to post today. Well tomarrow I wont be on long because I am being made to spend the day at my dads. He called me yesterday and told me that he is going to fix my uncles truck and since him and my aunt were going to go out there tomarrow that they should pick me up and take me out there with them for the day.
So yeah.... I really dont want to go because of the things going on over there but I got to. -_-
Well yeah I was talking to my mom a little bit ago. She said if I fail again I will loss my computer completly. So yeah sorry guys if I fail but I am honestly trying in school. Its just my damn aunt being here now is keeping me from getting my damn work done. And I tell my mom to print stuff out for me and she dont do it and it toatally pisses me off. >.<
My aunt is being VERY demanding on her food. Like it has to be cooked a certain way or she wont eat it. Some things have to be cold or she wont eat it. And the food has to be in a certain container or she wont eat it. >.< *growls* it pisses me off knowing she is doing this.
Plus she wont take her medication the right way so she spitting it back up like 5 minutes after she takes it cuz it starts to get stuck in her throat.
*growls again but loudier*
Well yeah I am being made to keep my bedroom door open today since I hade it closed basicly all day yesterday. I only hade it closed because my aunt has her damn handheld radio going and with my headphones on it dont drown out the sound cuz she has it up so damn loud. Plus she dont ever get the stations in all the way cuz she always has the thing adjusted wrong! So yeah most of the damn station she gets in is damn static!
Yeah sorry I am complaining alot but she is driving me insane. Well I am going to bug my step dad and see if he can find the disk to go with the printer and maybe we can get it hooked up today. Yeah cuz i wont be here tomarrow and I dont want people going through shit on my computer.
bye for now guys.
I am gonna try and put more of my fanart up today.
*leaves with eyes glowing bright red and growling*
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Friday, April 15, 2005

   FAN ART FINALLY

YAY I FINALLY GOT FAN ART POSTED!!!
ya all can go check it out. I will try to get them posted quickly. I have to get used to the photo program i am useing so yeah. I hope ya all like em now that i finally can get em posted. ^_^
And the thanks goes to my brother!!
If he wouldnt of helped me figure it out ya all wouldnt get to see my art! ^_^ *hugs my bro*
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