Friday, February 18, 2005

Pic I drew of Kimaras Character

Hope ya all like this pic. byes!

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http://www.myfreewallpapers.net/abstract/pages/anarchy-forever.shtml

Well yeah... I hate the government now. Bush needs to fucking die!! ok sorry Well I think you can tell my angry towards the government by the video and the pic.
Well ok yeah I want online at all yesterday. Well though my mom is trying to send me to my real dads this weekend. I dont want to go becuz I am always so bored over there all the time. Plus I know I will have work to do over the weekend for school and I know for sure I wont get it done at my dads becuz they leave so much! >.< I love going over to my dads but its getting rediculous over there. Someone please get me out! *falls on knees and begs* I so need out of here! sorry bout that. A bit of dramaticy this morning for ya. Well I will hopefully be on at least after school today. Well I have to get ready for school even though it is like 10 degrees outside I still have to go to school. But hell I have no school Monday like I know basicly everyone else does so yeah I so look forward to no school for a day. I might acually catch up on the work I hade to get done and catch up on my sleep too. Well bye guys! Thanks for the comments for yesterday. I am leaving early in the morning from now on to make sure I catch my bus. well byes! ^-^
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Thursday, February 17, 2005

>.< arg

Well since I missed my bus this morning my mom said no internet after school today. >.< I even got off my computer earlier then usual and I ended up leaving a minute late becuz I hade to get my stuff together but she still said no internet after school. Sorry guys. Leave a comment bout ur day is ya want. you can pm me to if ya want. I will reply to any of them tomarrow morning. bye! Again sorry guys. T-T
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Wednesday, February 16, 2005

   This dream I hade

Ok since I have the day off of school today I figured I might as well post some stuff. Plus I have been thinking bout this dream for along time now. well here it is:


Ok it starts out with me laying in my bed at my house and I wake up and look around my room. I look next to me and i see Rhent. He is laying there sleeping. I get up from my bed and go to my door and there is Chanel/vg. I look at her and she looks at me. Then out of nowhere she gets covered in blood and her eyes go solid white. I look back at the bed and Rhent is covered in blood. I go over and shake him a bit and he dont move or say anything. I look around my room and all i see is everything covered in blood. I sit on my bed and pull my knees to my chest and scream crying. I wake up crying.

:I was so scared of that dream. I walked around school dazed all day just thinking bout that dream. I guess thats it for my dream. byes!
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   HELL YEAH!!!!

WOO HOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WE HAVE NO SCHOOL TODAY!!!! Well we were going to get out early at 1 o clock. But now we dont even have school today!!!! SO freaking awesome!!! Well there is my uplift for the week!!! *dances around* ok I am acting weird again. *stops* *blushes* bye!
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Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Papa Roach - Scars lyrics

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
My weakness is that
I care too much
And my scars remind me
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cuz you came around
Why don't you just go home
'Cuz I've channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that
I care too much
And our scars remind us
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that
I care too much
And our scars remind us
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shoulda never come around
Why don't you just go home
'Cuz you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I tear my heart open
I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that
I care too much
And our scars remind us
That the past is real
I tear my heart open
Just to feel

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Monday, February 14, 2005

   ok another sucky day for me

Well I got up yesterday and all I could think bout was killing myself since a little bit after I got up I was yelled at for something stupid. >.< arg..... Well I cried myself to sleep last night over it.


But anyways... Well today was crappy today at school too. I was depressed all day for some odd reason and I was yet again thinking of suicide.. T-T I really dont know why I am lately but it is begining to scare me a bit. I just hope I dont acually do it though.... Well I will try to not think of it to much... Well I guess thats it besides that I have homework to do in 3 subjects tonight.....

Before I forget HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!! (even though I dont have a valentine T-T)
Byes! *waves bye*
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Sunday, February 13, 2005

heh heh yet another quiz that describes me well

The one passion that deeply burns in your soul is
longing for love... You're often depressed and
you've been hurt so many times that you tears
seem meaningless, if you even have any left to
cry! You want to be able to reach out and tell
someone everything, making your troubles go
away... But... You jsut can't bring yourself to
do so... Everyday you wish that all of the pain
will just go away... Just disappear... However,
it just seems to get worse and you try to
bottle everything up inside as best as you can!
However, your plan sometimes fails, making you
lash out or break down emotionally. You just
wish to be like everyone else... You want to be
able to tell someone all of your problems...
But you're afraid of admitting your weakness...
You're that outside, loner, mistunderstood
person that has been pushed out of everyones'
life. You desperately try to break through the
barrier, but you guts tell you no... You'll
just be hurt again and again... So why bother?
Your sanctuary is your room, where you can hide
out and be out of 'their' visions. You like to
express your thoughts and feelings through
various forms of art, and try ridding of your
pain in 'different ways.' You're so busy caught
up in your own little, lost world, that you
have yet to realize that a light burns inside
of the darkness of the pack. You might not know
it, but out there... Someone is watching your
every move... Enjoying your presence...
Enjoying you for who YOU are! Wipe away those
tears and open up those beautiful eyes, see the
light! See what you're missing and grasp ahold,
break out of that crust, and mold... Smile your
way through life because the most beautiful
things cannot be concealed forever :)


What Passion Burns In Your Soul?
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this describes me well

In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything
because your eyes are covered up by tears! You
are constantly hurt and depressed... No one
seems to understand how you feel because
everyone is scared to get close to you... You
long to be able to reach out and tell someone
everything, and all of your problems... But you
have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to
want to hear what you have to say. You've been
hurt many times that you don't seem to have any
tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an
endless river flowing... You've started to hide
and bottle up all or your problems and
feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go
away... You want company, but at the same time,
you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your
room where you can just be alone and try to
throw away all of your aching pains. You're
dark and mysterious and people like you for
that reason. Even if you think you're all by
yourself in the dark, someone is always there
with you. Your special someone wants to admit
and show their feelings towards you, but
they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out
more and enjoy life because, it is far too long
to frown your way through :)


What Lies Behind Your Eyes? (With Pics, See All Results!)
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   yay cuteness!!!! =^-^=

Your a kitten:
REALLY cute, happy, fun-loving and fuzzy soft!
AWW!!!!! Your just so soft and fuzzy people can't
ignore you! Everyone has to pick you up and
give you a hug. Its like a rule! So gentle and
happy-go-lucky! You so naturally lovable! o_o


=^_^= What fuzzy animal are you? =^_^= {-With Pictures!-}
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