Wednesday, January 26, 2005

   important

well ok u all know I am a vampire but I am going to warn all of u now. It is full moon time and I lose control of myself from time to time. The only way to get me out of it is to beat the crap out of me. But I figured I would warn ya all now bout it before u start talking to me and that happens. ok.
Byes!
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Tuesday, January 25, 2005

   my life

Well ok here is my day today.
First off: I get up in the morning and I hade to go down my stairs to get my school clothes out of the dryer. Well I almost fell down the stairs this morning.
Second: I get to school and the weirdiest thing happens. I get this craving for alot of blood. I look at people as they head down the hallway and I hear their heartbeating and I smell their blood. I have never had my craving that bad before.
Third: I get my craving and I remember what my freind told me what was going to happen today. Well she is turning into a werewolf today. So yeah I have never dealt with them before so I am scared to death of what she might do.
Fourth: I am affected by the full moon and I never knew it before. So I still have major cravings all day long ok. Well I am heading down the hallway and this girl in front of me is heading down the stairs. I reach out and touch her hair on accident. She turns around and looks at me. She runs away scared and almost falls down the stairs.
Fifth: uh I have an ok day in my classes until I get to study group right after school. My study group teacher was in a bad mood so we didnt really talk at all. Totally sucked and gave me an uncomfortable feeling to even be there.
Sixth: Well ok I get home and I get on the internet. My freind I mentioned earlier is on. Well she changes and I end up acting really weird. But we end up fighting and uh yeah... eventually we go back to out normal self but I have gone back into my "weird" state once more since then. It totally sucks.
Seventh: We hade to get rid of my cousins cat today. The cat was really cool but so annoying. But I will get over it.
So yeah that is a breif on my day. Well I have to get going now. IO have to go to bed so I can get ready to be yelled at by my step bro for getting him a gym shirt since he refuses to change for gym and he will end up failing. But ya know I cant help those who dont want to be helped. Well any comments feel free to post them.
Byes!
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chatter box

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   another song for a certain person

I love this song. I am dedicating it to the ones I love. You know who you are. Love you! Well here ya go:
Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul
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[Chorus]
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide

I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul

Your beautiful soul, yeah

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Monday, January 24, 2005

a poem reposted

Faithful
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You are faithful
You are true
You are always there
You are there for me
You love me
You comfort me
You listen to me
You hold me close
You help me when I am down
For these things I love you
For these things I trust you
For these things you are faithful
Love is a faith
You are my faith
For that I am faithful

By Audrey Buderer
11-03-2004
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Sunday, January 23, 2005

   the quiz of the day!!

E:

Your Beauty lies
in Mystery. Captivating, mysterious and alone. You
are the girl in the little
black number that no one seems to know, the eternal
mystery girl. You make it a
point to never let anyone know more about you than
you want them to and do a
very good job of it. You're there one minute and
gone the next leaving them in
wonder of who you really are. A mature and normally
calm individual, quiet and
enjoy spending many hours of the day on your own,
most likely preferring night
to day . You love the dark and some may find you a
bit strange. You seem to be
rather distant and cold making hard for people to
get close to you, though you
probably like the distance they usually keep. You
probably wear make-up, but
concentrate more around your eyes than anything.
You know the effect you have
and enjoy keeping people in wonder.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Dark, Water Animal: Panther Color:
Black, Maroon, Dark
Tones Song: In The Shadows by The Rasmus
Expression:
Sly Smile

Gemstone:
Black Diamond Mythological Creature: Demon,
Vampire Planet: Venus
Hair Color: Black Eye Color:
Garnet

Quote:
"In the shadows for all time."

Where Does Your Beauty Lie? ..::Original Pictures Are Back! Detailed Results::..
brought to you by Quizilla

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   quiz results again

Take the quiz: "why do you cut yourself?"

traumatic expierence
You've suffered from a life-changing. traumatic expierence and you've never talked about it. Maybe a family member or close friend has died, rape, you've been arrested...whatever the case is, you need to talk about it and get it off your chest. Right now you've closed yourself up to anyone willing to help.
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Saturday, January 22, 2005

   pic

pretty pic sorry it is so big but yeah.. hope ya all like it. ^_^
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papa roach - between angels & insects

There's no money, there's no possessions
Only obsessions, I don't need that shit
Take my money, take my obsession
I just want to be heard, loud and clear are my words
Comin' from within man, tell 'em what you heard
It's about a revolution in your heart and in your mind
You can't find the conclusion, life-styule and obsession
Diamond rings get you nothing but a life long lession
And your pocket-book stressin'
You're a slave to the system, working jobs that you hate
For that shit you don't need
It's too bad the world is based on greed
Step back and stop thingking about yourself
Start thingking about
There's no money, there's no possessions
Only obsession, I don't need that shit
Take my money, take my possessions
Take my obsession, I don't need that shit
Cause everything is nothing and emptiness is in everything
This reality is really just a fucked up dream
With the flesh and the blood that you call your soul
Flip ti inside out, it's a big black hole
Take your money, burn it up like an asteroid
Posssessions they are never gonna fill the void
Take it away and learn the best lession
The heart, the soul, the life, the passion
Present yourself press your clothes
Comb your hair and clock-in
You just can't win
Just can't win
The things you own, own you know
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papa roach - last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort, suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arms bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight, chance are that I might
Mutilation out of sight and I'm contemplating suicide
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way



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