Not Foolin' Ya!!
No, no matter what you think, you are not going crazy just yet!
Yes!! It's moi! Fianlly updating her myo site after a long long time!
Lemme run ya down on what has happened since my last post.
Broke up with my boyfriend of 10 months. Umm...passed all my classes with As and Bs. Made a few new friends and lost some ones I had. Gotten a bit more familiar with my other online friends. Went to Texas for my summer trip this year (never again!). Almost died of boredom several times this summer to. Umm, got a girlfriend now (yes I'm bi). My most hated person in our little group is moving away finally. I'm addicted to some new music.
Ummmmmmmm
Got the base schedule for my Junior year just today and everythin'. Lost meh lipginity! *coughs*
And, the video on my site is meh little gay dude shakin' that little ass of his!!
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Saturday, December 31, 2005
New Year's Resolutions!
Hi folks!!
It's 11:36pm over here now. So I'll get this out of the way!
-Vana's New Year's Resolutions-
1. Get more Yaoi stuff.
2. Buy the 'Gravitation' series.
3. Watch my Tenchi Movie.
4. Watch Sensitive *Photo*graph again!
5. Finish Rayman 2 and Majora's Mask.
6. Get my overdue Christmas story finished.
and
7. Write a better 'New Year's Resolutions' List.
It's almost like a miracle now.
Life is taking an almost reconizable shape. Just like that I went from hopeless loner to sweet helper. It's funny how our lives get turned so upside down and twisted all around. But somes days I don't mind. I'll just sit back and relax. No worries!
When I look back, things scare me. About who I was of course! I used to complain about how my life was hopeless and that I'll never be able to find anyone. I sounded like all the other people trying to get pity for themselves. I look back and laugh on it now.
It was so simple back then to just pretend that I didn't care about anyone or anything. But life has a way of making you change without even realizing it. I don't mind it thought, I achually prefer it to happen that way.
Nothing is ever going to be clear cut anywhere. Things are always full of bumps and pot-holes. That's just life.
Yea I know. 'What do you know!' 'You're just a kid who won't stop complaining!'
I've heard it all before. But I've learned something, you're going to complain about something, it's human nature to not be truly satifised with anything life gives us. I tracked my progress in life since early July of the '05 year.
[{07/10/05-12/12/05}]
The entrys are amazing. So much raw emotion, it was overwealming at first. But the more I read the more I understood. I realized that I was fake. Those journal entrys wern't me! They were just words on the screen. All those words didn't say anything about me. They just told of a winy kid who hated life because she never got what she wanted! I was shocked and ashamed with my self. I knew better than to act like that. But those entrys proved that I havn't learned anything. I just kept making excuses for myself. I want to go back and erase them, but I can't. They serve a purpose. They remind me of a person I never want to be again. A person that I thought was me.
Not Foolin' Ya!! 
New Year's Resolutions! 
Miracles 
