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Tuesday, December 20, 2005
Miracles
It's almost like a miracle now.
Life is taking an almost reconizable shape. Just like that I went from hopeless loner to sweet helper. It's funny how our lives get turned so upside down and twisted all around. But somes days I don't mind. I'll just sit back and relax. No worries!
When I look back, things scare me. About who I was of course! I used to complain about how my life was hopeless and that I'll never be able to find anyone. I sounded like all the other people trying to get pity for themselves. I look back and laugh on it now.
It was so simple back then to just pretend that I didn't care about anyone or anything. But life has a way of making you change without even realizing it. I don't mind it thought, I achually prefer it to happen that way.
Nothing is ever going to be clear cut anywhere. Things are always full of bumps and pot-holes. That's just life.
Yea I know. 'What do you know!' 'You're just a kid who won't stop complaining!'
I've heard it all before. But I've learned something, you're going to complain about something, it's human nature to not be truly satifised with anything life gives us. I tracked my progress in life since early July of the '05 year.
[{07/10/05-12/12/05}]
The entrys are amazing. So much raw emotion, it was overwealming at first. But the more I read the more I understood. I realized that I was fake. Those journal entrys wern't me! They were just words on the screen. All those words didn't say anything about me. They just told of a winy kid who hated life because she never got what she wanted! I was shocked and ashamed with my self. I knew better than to act like that. But those entrys proved that I havn't learned anything. I just kept making excuses for myself. I want to go back and erase them, but I can't. They serve a purpose. They remind me of a person I never want to be again. A person that I thought was me.
-Vana
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