Friday, January 21, 2005

   I dedicate this to all my friends on the Otaku!
OK, I have to apologize to eveyone for the last post. After reading all those comments you all left for me, it made me think about my decision to leave. I realized that I was about to leave for the stupidest reasons! I really wish I hadn't have posted that. It was really stupid! I'm sorry for doing that. It was a really stupid thing for me to do. I regret even thinking about leaving! Well, the good news is that I'm NOT leaving! And its thanks to everyone who tried to convince me that it was a bad idea. I would like to thank:

destinyssweetman
DeathT-2
Silent Love
JouYasha
goku162002
ElvesAteMyRamen
Takara Sohma &
brooke142004

for commenting on my last post & letting me know that I would be missed greatly if I left.
They also made me realize that it would just be one big mistake if I did leave!

I also have to thank some new friend that signed my GB & made a really good point! They were Snow Guardian & darkkairi. They left some nice words in my GB & helped alot.

Last but not least I really need to thank AwesomeDude898! He's the one that has convinced me te most to stay here on the Otaku. He PMed me this message here on the Otaku. I'll let you guys read it. Its really hard to just explain it:

"Yo Rosa. I wanted to stop by and say that I owe you an apology. I honestly think I've been neglecting you as a friend. I've been very busy with school work and all, plus my family isn't exactly making the house-hold a less stressful place. But that's no excuse for what I've been doing. You've regularly come to my site and commented on my posts, while I haven't been returning the favor. I rarely had time to read the posts on your site, if you updated at a time it would register on my PC (time zone difference), so when you updated and I even got to see it I said to myself, "I'll read it and comment tomorrow". But I never did. I was mean to you and ignored your posts, even though your recent ones about your required hiatus from The Otaku were obviously important. I've been a serious jerk to you, and I acted in a way that nobody should act to their friend. I shouldn't have callously ignored your posts while you diligently stuck with mine. I've been a horrible friend to you, and I ask that you please, out of the obviously abundant goodness of your heart, to forgive me for how I acted. You stuck with my trivial nonsense in my postings and even tried to comfort me when I was feeling down, and I put what you had to say on hold. I realize now how badly I treated you, and I ask that you please forgive me and know that I am deeply as sorry as I can be. So will you accept my apology?

What made me realize the magnitude of my actions was your most recent post. You mentioned that people had ignored your site with the exception of a small list of friends, which included me. The truth was that I really shouldn't have been on that list. I've been a lousy friend in every rite.

We were there for each other when we talked together about how your parents had made you feel so depressed. That was when I knew how much I cared about your well-being, and how much you cared about mine. That was when I knew I had really made a deep connection with someone that was a true friend. But, over time (a short period of time even), I lost sight of that. I lost my grip on who truly was my friend. I forgot about how much we cared about each other. However, you did not.

That is why I want to sincerely ask you for your forgiveness. I don't want you to leave The Otaku, and I don't want to lose touch with you. I love you too much, and we all love you too much to have to say good-bye to you. Please accept my apology, and please don't leave us all here holding the pieces."

I really was speechless when I read this. I knew then that I would be letting down one of my closest friends here on myOtaku. And I don't want to do that. AD898, if you're reading this, just know that you are NOT a lousy friend! If NE1's a lousy friend, its me. I was about to leave you & eveyone else here behind! Reading your message really hit me! I didn't realize how much my friends here really cared about me. I'm really sorry for even THINKING about doing that to you & everyone else! I'm the one who needs to apologize! Not you, Logan.

As I've said, I've decided to stay on Otaku. It'll be a LONG time before I actually leave! I've realized that people here do care & I can't let everybody here down. If I ever do leave, I'll make sure it will be for a good reason & not something so stupid like before!

Thanx again everyone!
I dedicate this song by 'The Alan Parsons Project' to all my friends here on myOtaku.:

"Old & Wise"

As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows approaching me
And to those I left behind
I wanted you to know
You've always shared my deepest thoughts
You follow where I go

And oh when I'm old and wise
Bitter words mean little to me
Autumn winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be Lifted from my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see
There are shadows surrounding me
And to those I leave behind
I want you all to know
You've always Shared my darkest hours
I'll miss you when I go

And oh, when I'm old and wise
Heavy words that tossed and blew me
Like Autumn winds that will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they ask you if you knew me
Remember that you were a friend of mine
As the final curtain falls before my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

As far as my eyes can see...



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