Thursday, July 28, 2005

The Dreadfully Unbearable And The End o_0
Ok, yesterday's title was just me being a retard. It had nothing to do with nothing, so don't worry about it. I used to do it all the time, i guess you guys just forgot. Today's title does have some meaning though. See if you can find out!

And today be the last day of band camp for me! Yay! ::cough:: the end ::cough::. Well, i'm excited for it. I'd say i'll probably be home around 8-9cst. The exhibition is like 7:30ish, then after that is a picnic and then everybody's welcome to leave. I usually like to get out of there kinda fast, just cuz i wanna get home and relax. Well this year i just wanna get home and talk to Ari. I think she'll be getting back from bandcamp around the time i get home anyways. I really hope she does well.

Today's the first day of and band stuff, and kinda band camp in general, for Ari! Urgh, and she's sooooo nervous. I know i was nervous when i was a freshman. Man, i was so hopelessly disoriented. I had never been in the high school before except like on field trips to see a play or something. I had no idea what was going on. AHAHAHA, i was playing the bassoon the first day! And it was marching band! >.< I'm embarassed just thinking about it. You don't march bassoon! Man, if some freshman came in playing a bassoon the first day i'd laugh in his face and apologize afterwards.

The hardest part for me is this sense of helplessness. I just wish i could help her. I'd sell my xbox if i thought it would help her! And me likes me xbox. Oh and by the way, this is the Dreadfully Unbearable...although that's a little too dramatic...for me anyways. You guys go visit her site and give her some support. She's Angel of Pig on my friend's list if you didn't already know.

And as mine ends hers begins. What bad luck. I wish our schedules worked better together. A couple of days after she gets back i start school...oh well. There's nothing i can do.

Well, i'm quite tired now, so i'm going back to sleep. You guys have a good day, bye!
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Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Upside Down Triangle
Emotions are so hard to control sometimes. I wish i could be there for her, to make things easier. There's not much i wouldn't give up just to be there. Everytime i see her hurt i just want to throw myself in the way of the fire to stop her pain. To shield her...that's what i'd do if only i could. Ah, but to make her happy...this is where all my joy comes from.

It's hard for me to fully convey how i feel. So...i'll be a little less poetic. I just want to see her and hold her in my own arms. To go to her school and beat the living shit out of anybody that even thinks about saying a harsh word to her. I want to go to bandcamp with her to both keep her company and to help her make some friends. I want to show her my house and let her know firsthand what it's like to live in the country. I'd take her down to the creek and the water cave and the little rock face that's fun to climb up. I'd play Halo 2 with her and let her talk into the mic. I'd hide her from the lightning so she wouldn't be afraid. Eh...but i feel kinda weird saying all this stuff. But it's how i feel...

Heh, i feel sappy.

Well today's the last full day of band camp for me!! Yay!! Tomorrow is 1-7 then at 7 we do an exhibition for the parents. So it's kinda like a half day. Yay for half days! Ugh, but it's still too much for me.

Today we played some Halo 2 during our dinner break. It was kinda fun. I pretty much owned everybody. I really don't like it though when it's not very organized. Also it's no fun when you're not competitive. Like if i beat the other team i wanna feel really happy cuz it was a good game and cuz i wanna beat my friends to shut them up! But i still had a good time being the best one there. But my little bro was there too, so it was close between me and him. We're both really good.

Family Guy Quote:
Peter (after Lois tells him he's childish): "If I'm a child that means you're a pedophile, and I'll be damned if i'm going to stand here and take this from a pervert."

Hmm...can't think of much else to say. So i'll say this. BYE!!
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Monday, July 25, 2005

Keyboards Make Bad Pillows
Y'know....you never really realize how much somebody means to you until you lose 'em. Well, i've felt this twice so far over the summer. I didn't actually lose anybody, i just lost 'em for a little while. I got really lucky twice, cuz i got to be with them again. ^_^

Well, today is the first day of four more days of band camp! -_- Look at my super excited face!!!! ::throws up from all the sarcasm:: Oooo, i guess i had too much.

Yep, band camp and parades are the absolute hardest things in all of marching band. And the funny thing is we do a parade during every band camp! Isn't that funny?! ::slightly insane laughter:: I mean really though! It's like Crumley (band director) wants us to pass out by the end of the week! Hell, the last day we all have to put on an exhibition for the parentals! Meh, but i guess it's worth it....i guess...I think what really made me stick with band is the promise of scholarship money and whatnot. Also i figured everybody needs to do something in their highschool careers.

And Ari leaves for band camp on the 31st, only three days after my last day of band camp. And by the time she gets back i'll be starting school in a couple days. Man, it really seems like our schedules just hate each other. But it's alright i suppose, we still get to talk to each other a lot. Plus there's the moon. ^^

I worry a lot about the future. The future for me is just a big uncertainty, probably the same for most people though. I just worry about it, i wonder what's going to happen to me. I wonder what'll happen to the people i know. I wonder what'll happen to the people i love. But if i worry too much about the future i won't enjoy the present. And i really do have a lot to be grateful for.

Meh, i wish the scanner would work. I think i'm gonna ask my dad if i can move it to the computer that i use. He never uses it. I've got a bunch of drawings and comics i wanna show everybody! Although some of the comics you guys might not understand, some of the stuff i'll have to explain. But it's all funny, or at least i think it is. I guess you'd have to know the people in the comics.

And thus concludes the post...

Later people.
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Sunday, July 24, 2005

My wall
To be able to see her smile...to be able to hold her...this is all I want. I think about it all the time. Every time I see the celestial body that shines light down on us at night I remember I love her. Every time I see a happy face I remember her happiness.

I consider the internet to be both a gateway and a barrier. It can be really hard sometimes. I met many people online, and yet I haven’t. I’d really like to meet some of you guys in real life, but there’s that barrier. Eh, but for some of you I plan to meet you one day anyways. Right now I notice the barrier more than anything else. I just wish I could bust through my monitor and see what’s on the other side and just crawl through. It’s unbearable at times.

Well I had to wake up at 8am this morning. I didn’t get as much sleep as I’m used to, not to say I didn’t get enough. I usually get too much, so today I got just enough. I stayed up late last night because something amazing happened. Some of you will know what I’m talking about, others will not. I don’t think I’ll ever forget last night. I keep rereading those words in my head over and over again; I still get that wonderful and nervous feeling when I think about it.

Today’s big event was the parade. I had to march in it. It was very hot. The sun was just beaming down on us. I was very sweaty, with sweat and whatnot. The sweat mixed with the sun block that I had put on my face and it really irritated my face. It hurt! Plus at the end of the parade the inner parts of my legs started rubbing together a whole lot. The inner part of my left leg really hurts now! >.< But I’ll get over it.

I’m really dreading having to go back to band camp Monday. All I want to do is spend my time at home on the computer talking to her. But it’s alright, because I know I’ll get plenty of chances to talk to her. Plus not to mention it’s really hard anyways. It’s a lot of work. But it’s only 4 more days, so not too bad. Or so I’m trying to convince myself. Shhhh, I might hear me. I know, I confuse myself a lot of the time too.

Well dudes, later!

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Saturday, July 23, 2005

^_____^
I'm not afraid anymore.


You've made me very happy.
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The longest 24 hour day since yesterday
Well, today was interesting. I started my day at 9:00am. I woke up and went downstairs to get online and talk to Ari. But the wireless connection wasn't working. So i went upstairs to try it on another computer, the wireless wasn't working there either. So i just got on the computer that had an actual wire coming out of it. And i talked to Ari! ^^ Of course, i do that a lot nowadays. But i wouldn't have it any other way.

Band camped was interesting. My "best" friend Josh decided to quit for the second time. He did the same thing last year. Go to band camp the first day then quit. What a fucking pussy. That's my opinion of him...kinda harsh. But that's what i think. He made the wrong call in my opinion. But who knows, maybe it's me making the wrong call. I'd kinda like to quit too, it's quite difficult. But because he quit i ate lunch with some other friends, which was cool. Then i played some football. It was pretty fun. I'm not good at football, but i did a couple of things. First i batted down a pass, i was proud of that^^. Then i caught a short pass and ran in a good ways. It was tackle football, and the guys couldn't get me down for a while. Plus i was really sweaty, so they couldn't grab my arms, they'd slip off. Hahaha. Anyways i fumbled it, cuz i suck at football, but one of my friends on my team picked it up and got down further. Then we did a quick handoff and got a td. Then it rained!

Let me tell ya, it's soooo humid in tennessee. I know it's worse in other places, but it's quite bad here too. I sweat soooo much when i'm out on the field. It's really sick. And uncomfortable.

Life can be very confusing sometimes...right now it is for me. I have two friends over the internet that i really care about. They're not having the best time to say the least. I think one of them is confused about....actually both of them are confused about life and love in general. I only hope the best for them. To you two (you know who you are) just know that i'm here for you and that i'm thinking about both of you a lot.


Everytime I see the moon I think about you and smile. ^_^

Later all you cool people that check out my site!
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Friday, July 22, 2005

2 ready 2 die
Urgith!!!! Band camp was tough yesterday, and i'm dreading it today. It starts at 1 and ends at 10. And we're out on the field when the sun starts going down. So it's not as bad as last year. But the humidity is a killer. You sweat a lot out there, regardless of who you are. I felt like a basted turkey! MMmmmmm...turkey.

I hate starting things that take a lot of effort and time. Like marching band. The first day was yesterday and i just got the feeling that it would never end. It's like the beginning of a long journey. You know it'll be forever before you see home again, but you also know it has to be done...kinda like the lord of the rings.

So today's the second day of band camp...i'm not exactly sure when's the last day, but i'm sure looking forward to it. This saturday we have to march in a parade...or so i'm under that impression....i wonder if that's right, cuz tomorrow's saturday...eh, i guess we'll see. I also know that we get sunday off. Boy am i looking forward to that. I haven't got any plans, i just know i'm gonna enjoy myself.

I'm kinda tired right now, i think i could use a little sleep, but then again i always feel tired after i just woke up.

Mitch Hedberg Quote:
I think Bigfoot is blurry, that's the problem. It's not the photographer's fault. Bigfoot is blurry. And that's extra scary to me, because there's a large, out-of-focus monster roaming the countryside. Run. He's fuzzy. Get outta here.


Well cool people...bye.
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Thursday, July 21, 2005

My day and guitar
Now a song! ...putting up lyrics on meh site seems like such a cliche...i probably just know someone who does it a lot. ::glare:: Anyways. This song somewhat describes how i feel about some people...you might be one of them! ::glare again:: But then again, maybe not...you should ask.

When everything is wrong I'll come talk to you
You make things alright when I'm feeling blue

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
With the one thing that brings light to all of my darkness

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

There is no other one who can take your place
I feel happy inside when I see your face
I hope you believe me
Cuz I speak sincerely
and I mean it when I tell you that I need you

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

I'm here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do

You're my best friend
and I love you, and I love you
Yes I do
Yes I do...
Yes I do

Really, an awesome Weezer song. I heard it for the first time just last week. I thought to myself, hey, cool lyrics! I should post it on meh site! So i did.

Ok, well yesterday (wednesday) i pretty much spent it on the computer. Guess who i talked to! ...i guess that was an easy question...Hah, but that really was pretty much all i did.

Oh, i guess i also played some guitar. I was lookin' around on the internet at guitars, and i found my dream guitar. The Gibson '57 custom Les Paul Black Beauty. If you were to buy me this guitar i'd marry you if you were a girl...or if you were a gay guy. But if you were a normal guy...or lesbian girl i'd become your best friend/slave. Hahaha. And now witness the picture!



::drooling:: ::salivating:: ::erection?!::
Ok, maybe i'm going a little too far. I didn't really have that last one happen...but those first two, yeh. My goal in life is to not get stabbed and to own one of those guitars....and i guess find true love or something like that. It exists!!! >.<

Later cool people.
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Meow says the kitty and confusion from the monkey
Hiya people. How's it going?? I'm doing pretty good. Today (tuesday) was my first day of band camp. Although it was rookie camp. My little brother and sister went. The camp's only for rookies, section leaders, and officers. I'm a section leader. I don't think i'm going to go tomorrow, i really didn't do anything productive today. I went there and did some fundamentals, that are extremely boring. Then some sectionals, which we just talked. Then we played in the full band, which was lame again. But i had a friend there so it wasn't too bad. Also i went out for chinese for lunch, so that was fun. It was really funny. Josh (my friend) just would not try sushi! I pestered him about it the whole time, he just wouldn't do it. I had to give up so we wouldn't be back late! ...i will get him to try it one day. Also we talked about the ninjas that take your plates when you go up to go get more food. They're ninjas i tell you!!! Ninjas!!!!!!

So i'm back and the kitty seems at least a little happier, which makes me happy! Yay for happy! She also decided to change her site, so i decided to change my site as well. It was long time coming though. I've been growing tired of it. I like the new style, i think it's cool. I've also got a cooltastic song up too. Tangerine! One of my favorite Zepp songs. The kitty says it makes her sad though...but after much debate i decided to keep it up. She likes the song for some reason too....

And from the monkey that i haven't talked to in a long time...he's confusing me. I'm not sure what's going one. He seems very low and angry and sad...i'm worried. Red, if you read this please send me a pm or something telling me what's going on with you. Hopefully i'll be on aim though, so we can talk. Remember if you're going through hard times the otaku family is here for you, and especially me. So don't hold it in.

Wow, it's quite late right now. Yet i'm not too tired. And i can stay up all night for certain reasons...but i'm sure the reason will get tired soon enough. Haha.

Later cool peoples.
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Monday, July 18, 2005

My guitar
How i'll enjoy playing it again!
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