Monday, May 9, 2005

I JUST WROTE A LONG POST AND IT FRIGGIN DELETED IT!!!!!!!!!!! MOTHER F*CKER
ok from the top....


well im reallly tired wuz up until 4:20 or 4:30 making a card for my mom for mothers day it was of juri from yu yu hakusho cuz my mom said she liked the outfit and the outfit came out great the figure 2 but the hair and the face i dont like....then i went to my grandmothers that was fun cuz my lil' baby cousin (Davrams goddaughter) is obsessed iwth walking but she cant do it on her own yet so u stand up and she grabs ur pointer finger on either hand then u help her to her feet adn bend over so ur not lifting her off the ground and she roams freely shes so adorable she waves and plays patty cake and she never cried once she came close when she accidentally walked into a table....yes....a table....but my aunt donna came to the rescue with funny faces b4 she really started crying...also there was really good food


next is liss pissing me off again...ok so my mom got me 2 really cute shirts and liss came in and asked y she didnt get nething and i said its cuz its my confirmation weekend so she said that i had already gotten a lot of stuff and i said it was all from other ppl so she asked wut i got from my mom and i held up my rug/blanket and the shirts and said thats all and she said o yea sure sarcasitcally and rolled her eyes and i was thinking wtf liss....R U ON CRACK!!! i really dont get her! if its not about her it has to be bad and if it is something special for me she has to get something to or she gets all angry about it like when i was going shopping for confirmation outfits she wanted to come and i didnt want her 2 cuz i new it would become all about her....i didnt say this but i really didnt want her 2 then she found out we wouldnt be shopping for her jsut for me and she got all huffy and said she wasnt going if she didnt get something...wut gives her the nerve to be mad at our mom for buying me something when liss didnt do a damned thing for our mom on mothers day to my knowledge she jsut pisses me off so my mom said lets all go to bed and i new she wouldnt do nething so i ordered liss out of my room if she was gonna be like that and she started dragging our 120 lb dog out with her and then he started trying to hump her so i got a special kick out of that cuz i was mad at her so yea.....i call it karma....but w/e also i would like to publically apologize to ThePupNamedInuyasha for not getting to her site to chat i got caught up in hw and liss was on the comp all nite so yea.....o and *poke* Davram Bashere....UPDATE!!...ok im better
well if i think of nething later i'll post it for now im going to my room to do some social studies and then SLEEP!!
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
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Sunday, May 8, 2005

   ITS OVER!!! long post so its in categories!!!
ok this week was crazy so lets get started


1The Play
ok so the play was awesome i really wasnt nervous but the lead collin was....and a lot of ppl tried to make it worse by worrying him but he did an awesome job in the end so did rini and atsuko and everyone! ok now as for backstage all im saying is a kid named jon agreed to be rini's manwhore rini proposed 2 more times and was accepted both and nick i. was getting a little posessive it was very fun! o yea nad when i first go there since i came like striaght from confirmation i was in a rush to get dressed so i just kinda slipped the dress on up to my waist and took my skirt off underneath and stuff cuz i was getting dressed right in the hallway cuz i was hurrying it was really funny my shirt actually never came off it was on my stomach under my costume for the whole play o yea and afterwords i went to hagen daz with nicole jenna and rini and we celebrated with ice cream and ur mom played a large role in the conversation
like we could change nething into a ur mom sentence
i.e.
person 1:so yea that kinda smelled
person 2:ur mom kinda smells
person 1:so this dude called me a man whore
person 2:ur moms a man whore
person 1:ur mom
person 2:ur mom ur mom



2The Confirmation
Confirmation is cool cuz now i dont have to go to ccd and i got some awesome presents and u no now i am officially a catholic by my choosing woot woot ok so here r the presents i got
~money money money!!!
~a stunning sterling silver cross necklace
~an exquisite amber bracelt
~a kick ass....box...(dont ask)
~MY SQUISHY!! (a really soft rug that is orange and that i use as a blanket)
~an amazing cameo watch
~a rosary.....pearl bracelet (yes its a bracelet and it doenst look like a rosary but it is one)
~chocolates
~a teddy bear
~lots of cards
~and thats all i can remember....

it was cool but i was upset cuz no one came i mean it was my immediate family and then my grandmother my greatuncle (my sponser) my other grandmother and....that was it.....it hurt my feelings quite a bit.....and no one showed up for the brunch the next day except my greataunt my grandmother my grandmothers boyfriend my great grandmother my 2nd cousin and my greatuncle(not my sponser) my other grandma and great uncle had a communion to attend but yea it kinda hurt that noone came...there r certain exceptions that i can understand like Davram couldnt be here cuz he was busy with tests and stuff and same with my other brother but i dunno...i guess it was kinda me being selfish and wanting ppl to come....also the next day i kinda sensed that my moms family was kinda like o so ur dads family isnt coming they didnt come (like haha we did they r worse then us) and i was like no they actually were here for the ceremony not the brunch tho(i wanted to say yea they came for the important part unlike u who didnt come cuz u didnt want to spend the night at our house)....yea i dunno....


3The Tests
ok so spanish tests were really easy i studied entirely to much for them and thank u to Davram who talked to me even when i was being mean and stressed out however the e science test not so easy and i didnt get to study it wut with the confirmation the play and the spanish tests so i predict an 80 range test there....

The Randomness
ok so yea after that long hard week i came home and b4 i went to bed i was watchinga movie with my mom and other ppl and iwas falling asleep and i never fall asleep when i watched movies but i just crashed on that couch and my mom woke me up and sent me 2 bed and i slept in my Confirmation clothes....also i drew a pic for my mom and im in the process of coloring it and i actually really like it its of this girl holding a tree branch wearing a kimono and she has long hair that has a little ribbon at the end and i colored her kimono purple with these symbols on it but the purple fades as it goes down yea...i liked it....o and my mom told this really sad story earlier it was really gruesome aboat a car accident that she saw happen and im not gonna tell the story but it involves
a steeringwheel going through someones body
a person get decapitated
a lot of blood
and 3 twenty something ppl dying

yea she told it and i had to go to the bathroom and cry for a little while cuz all i could think was those poor ppl how horrible must it have been i dont no wut came over me but it got really upset and i couldnt stop imagining how they were thinking and how aweful it must have been and i couldnt stop crying and putting my self in their position it was like i was feeling it with them....this happens to me when i hear about physical pain what ever part of the body on the person was in pain will immediately start to feel really weak and fragile to me and so hearing this story not only did i feel like that but emotionally i felt weak....well on a brighter note going to nj 2morrow to see my cousins and aunts so i got to go finish this pic and go to bed


well neway sry for not updating recently but now that the play confirmation and the tests r over i should be updating more regularly!
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
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Saturday, April 30, 2005

   i feel so bad
i just snapped at davram on aol...i feel really bad about it i no he wasnt trying to do anything but help and he was talking in spanish and i was getting frustrated cuz no mattter how hard i tried i couldnt understand half of what he said and then we started talking about the state tests which freak me out just talking about them and all he said was u'll do fine and i got angry and i no he didnt do nething rong he really did nothing i just got angry and i feel sooo ridiculously bad but i just do no i really cant handle state tests or finals well i really do a shitty job coping with it and i was trying to explain that i cant study alone but i dnt think ne1 understands y and i bet that half my friends will not understand y i got upset i mean most of the time no one nos y im upset when im upset and i dont no how to explain it and liss wont leave me alone she keeps bugging me on how long ive been on the comp and i really dont think i can deal with her nemore..........i just really feel crapppy right now
~Serenity
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   i no i no ive been bad not updating and all....
well i didnt update this week cuz i have drama and yea it goes till like 4 or 5 so i when i get home its pointless to update cuz like 2 ppl read it so here is whats been happening


CONGRATS TO RINI SOME POOR SOUL FINALLY ACCEPTED HER PROPOSAL!!! ok yea but im not actually gonna post about this ill leave it to rini to tell u (disclaimer: rini is not actually getting married)


hmmm what else well...rini and i keep finding ways to improve or anime and add to it and we always end up pulling ppl we no into it so that makes it really funny like when i didnt no hayes was around the corner and we were talking about the anime and i see him and i literally fell over laughing it was so funny so thats always cool

o yea so today was "day of prayer" b4 confirmation so i went to confession and stuff but we were put into groups so in my group there were 3 girls and 4 guys (i think) neway when it came time to listen to the speaker there werent enuff chairs so the person who organizes this told me to get a chair so i see one in the corner and i go to get it but b4 i can this guy in my group who goes to iona so i dont no him was like here use this one and he points to his chair and runs to get the other one so i figure he is gonna use that chair but instead he got it and left it for someone else to use and this made me really uncomfortable cuz he was kneeling the whole time and i was sitting and i didnt no what to do....but it was very nice of him yes so he was cool and we talked but only for like 2 minutes b4 confession.... thats really all i can remember wait! i have to warn u i cant update this week either i can update today and 2morrow but during the week because of drama! sry well ill be on but yea i catn update well i hope to see u guys around!
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
p.s. that girl sara that i dont like apparently she doesnt have that much of a problem with me cuz when were on stage and stuff now since we have to do a lot of scenes together she acts like shes my friend so im thinking yea sure we can be friends if u just leave ur damn attitude out so im not mean to her but i still dont exactly like her....at all....
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005

   AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH DAMN STATE TESTS!!!!!
ok so today i found out that i have a proficiency test in spanish and its next week!!!! we just fucking heard about it today!!! godammit!!!! (^)-_-(^) that is all im saying the state board of education straight from me to them a great big "GO FUCK YOURSELVES!" ooo ok i feel a smidge better but im still paranoid.....


o and special delivery for my dear friend sarah who is in drama with me *eyes turn red* "FUCK U BITCH!!! I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHAT U THINK!" *back to normal* ok im feeling a little better about that now to....


on the brightside for todays posts i had my last day of religion 2day!!! woot! and tho it is kinda said to see it go i just gotta say onething "FREEDOM!!!!" *starts dancing like a moron again* o yea and yesterday i was talking to soulstealer (aka miami boy aka the lost inu aka pupinuyashas "little popsickle") and pupnamedinuyasha again that was fun as always! *smiles at fond memories of tackling miami boy* ahhhh good times! speaking of good times i gotta go meet them at inu's chat box right now so i gotta jet! later ppl! i love u all!
peace. out.
the ever bipolar (lol)
~Serenity (V.K.)
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Monday, April 25, 2005

   well my writers block went away....
ok im gonna try to make this short sweet and to the point but we all no im not very good at that...

first my writers block went away! yay!!! i wanna thank destinyssweetman cuz he helped alot heres a cookie and a hug! thank u! so yea my dad ended up helping which was cool b^-^d i thought he would have been like "u had all week roar!" and stuff but we just talked about the story and what i wanted to happen so yea it was cool....-_-" then my mom made me print a copy for her which was a mistake cuz she handed it off to 5 diff ppl at her work 2day.....yea it was ok it could have been better


next is that im pissed off cuz in social studies we have a state exam AND a mother fucking final all in the same month within like 2 weeks of eachother! O.O plus all our other finals like english and math regents and science regents god i hate all these mother fucking tests!!! i dont think neone really understands my paranoia of state exams.....

hmmm o yea i wont be able to post for a little bit ill be getting home to late from drama (theatre stuff) but if i get home by 4:30 and i can get on the comp i promise to post k! well thats all for now
peace. out.
~Serenity
P.S. i was talking to my friends ThePupInuyasha and Soulstealer aka Miami boy aka the lost inu and yea i just wanted to say u guys rock!!!here r some cookies and hugs and some pocky now lets all go jam in my jacuzzi(actually its a hot tub but ya no jam and jacuzzi sound better together b^-^d) with our shiny rox!!!! and ill sing for u!! lol u guys r awesome!
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Sunday, April 24, 2005

   ah shit im not gonna finish
i still cant get past this writers block! i swear im gonna die on monday! i cant talk to my parents they'll just say u had all week but its not my fault! eh today was ok xanth came over we ddred and watched fruits basket which was absolutely hilarious like when they all transformed when uo and hana were there and they had to cover it up o man that was hysterical and i read arsh's story....hehe...hehe....*giggles* hehehe......*bursts out laughing* HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! ok im good just some really laugh out loud parts...hehe...*mutters something about getting digits* haha....ok moving on what else well i was home alone for a good 2 hrs i think and suddenly i just turned the song "a thing called love" all the way up and started dancing like a moron i thought that would help with my writers block...it did...sorta...it got me a few pages...hey i was wonder ppl in my english class is it supposed to be double spaced?? that would certainly help....i dont no y but i have this habit of comparing myself to others and right now im doing it and managing to make my self feel worthless all on my own....i dont no....the selfesteem is not great over here.....sometimes i wish i could be the best at something....i no i no "there is always someone better than u" but still y do those some1s always gotta be my friends......sry....random...on the brightside i am a close friend of mike h.'s thats cool...i was online and he imed me from this other sn and said it was only for close friends so i couldnt tell ne1 about i was like aww i feel so special and he laughed at me and said "anime all the way" twas amusing....

on another note i have become acustomed to the idea of going to the dinner dance alone/with friends i mean i could go with chris...*shiver* nope no i couldnt definitly not an option...emma came back from the bahamas today mad tan that was interesting....well till later ppl
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
p.s. i wont be able to post at midnight nemore sry it will have to be later but will u guys still visit me please well thanx regardless
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Saturday, April 23, 2005

   woa! its midnight! whoda thunk it?
ok well yea...i should be working on my holocaust allegory so naturally im on the otaku.....now now dont get the wrong idea i wanna work on it i just have an extremely bad case of writers block i am literally sick to my stomach thinking imight not finish this thing on time cuz i dont no what to write....*starts banging head against wall* think dammit think!!!! i think i might cry if i dont get an idea soon.....

well yea xanth is coming over today that shoudl be fun. well i didnt really do nething 2day just kinda...hung out and stuff....i feel like such a bum i really wanna finish this allegory dammit!!! ahh!!! im gonna cry my teacher is gonna kill me monday cuz im not gonna be done! ahhhh i really was looking forward to this but now whenever i write something i go "no thats crap i hate it" and then end up deleting half of what i just did....so frustrating.....im really nervous i just no im not gonna finish and miss bitch-...i mean...nevermind....ahhh also kinda sad...comments went somewhat like this *pulls out chart adn pointer* 20 was the high point then it dipped to 19 and remained at a steady decline for a day coming to 18 *points at low spot on chart* unfortunately it has dropped to 12....*sigh* well V.V im off to finish my allegory or at least attempt to.... later
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
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Friday, April 22, 2005

   whats up ppl?
ok so i did spanish hw today *grumble grumble* piece of crap teacher.......i still have to finish my allegory and cartoon but i can do that 2morrow....

speaking of 2morrow person(s) invovled in code name: ham and eggs i need to contact u 2morrow yea to be home or u no pm me or sumthin....

ok so today when i woke up it went a little something like this

sleeping sleeping....sit straight up in bed
me: SHIT!! ARSH'S THING!!!! *runs around frantically getting ready for something i am already close to 45 minutes late for*


yea i felt really bad about that....like really really bad....but when i got htere it was all good we watched grease and there r so many sexual references that i didnt get the first time but i understand now
example:
rizzo: whats up
kiniki(cant spell that name): one guess

me:>.< oooo i get it....ew.....

then we watched meet the fockers boy was that funny some great oneliners

"we've fockerized them"
"hey my brother from another mother!"
chibi baby "Asssssss.....hole....."

o god that was a funny movie yea so after that i didnt do all that much went home and just kinda hung out.....i looked up pics and yea hung out like the lazy bum i am.....at least at arsh's i got to hangout with all my friends *hugs them all and hands out cookies* i dont deserve u guys ur 2 good


btw ppl if i talk to u regularly or if u visit my site alot or r a new friend to me u wont be deleted from my friends list this is why i cant delete many ppl cuz i just signed a whole hell of a lot of gbs so most of my friends r new and i cant delete them gonna have to wait a month or so the u no decide who is cool and who is not worth my time speaking of gbs i have made it from 140 or something to 173 in a matter of days O.O yea i was like snap look at me go! neway *turns to davram bashere* update....today *continuously pokes him*

btw yamiko= a girl! there fore is not season 2 matt from digimon regardless of if u think they look a like


also be4 i go does ne1 else think its kinda sad that some of my friends have visited my brothers site more often than they visit mine??
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
p.s. i seem to have made it to 400 hugs without noticing well thank u ppl i love u all 2 *hands out cookies pie and hugs*
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Thursday, April 21, 2005

   whoa....man are those hershey kisses kicking in!
ok so im sry if earlier u were talking to me cuz i was literally falling asleep at the computer! :P i couldnt helpit the sleep over was great!!!

we had so much fun lotrs freak rini and zelda stayed over it was the second day that zelda and lotrs freak had played ddr ever right so they loved it and were likeplaying it obsessively it was great rini and i own it so we just sat back and watched there really good for beginners also we alternated going on theO and we did cartomancy which is always fun hehe *devilish smile* so we ended up going to bed at....4 30am or so......o yea bad part liss was being a bitch and i was really pissed off at her and i slamed a door my dad called me downstairs grabbed my arm and started yelling at me i was like damn he has a strong grip and boy can he yell loud but i was a wreck when i went back upstairs i was crying cuz he was really angry and i was upset but luckily i have great friends to cheer me up unfortunately ambi couldnt come to the sleepover *tears*


next morning wake up at like 10 00 lotr freak and zelda have to leave soon get in a few moments of ddr they leave rini spends the day with me cuz no one was at her house. now the thing about rini and me....we r psycho...i mean seperately were not bad but u put us in the same room and u have 2 hyper morons and damn proud of it! so we ended up spending most of our time first doing some cartomancy then we started expanding on this anime idea we had and we ended up with quite a bit it revolves around basically me + hayes= insanely evil devious chibi child
rini+ nick=insanely nice good sweet chibi child

ok so plot my child's (yamiko) sole goal in life is to destroy her child (hikaruko) hehehe it sounds stupid the way i phrased it but its really funny so yea rini drew pics then made some on paint here are the ones she made on paint yamiko is the blonde hikaruko is the brunette (yamiko=girl Hikaruko=boy)



yea so if ne of u want me to expand on that just comment that u want to no more and i will consult with rini and thenpost more b^-^d

o right and then during the middle of the day ambi came over just to get something she left here but rini and i didnt let her leave for like an hour or 2....then we walked her home in bare feet (she lives semi close to me) and i was still in my pajamas which happened to be a shirt and boxershorts so yea ppl were staring.....but then b4 rini left i started getting really tired making me act like an idiot like when rini's fingers were hanging down from the chair she was sitting i had the urge to poke them cuz i was lying on the floor by her so i did and i started cracking up histerically at that i dont no y it was so amusing but it was!

cant wait for 2morrow get to go to arsh's cant wait!
peace. out.
~Serenity (V.K.)
p.s. *pokes davram bashere* UPDATE!!!! *continuously pokes him till he updates*

p.s.s. im wittling down my friends list getting rid of ppl who no matter how much i visit there site doesnt visit mine and ppl who havent updated recently
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