Thursday, June 1, 2006

   Last Day of School


Okay,well unlike others,I enjoy going to school,but it's just the homework and project I hate.We just got out and I'm really sad because it was my last day at Mandalay Middle School.I also wouldn't be seeing many people now that we're going to high school.I tried so hard not to cry many times because I didn't want to ruin my makeup,but I ended up crying a bit.I was in the talent show with my two other Asian friends and we had to perform twice!When we sang to the eighth graders, the crowd was loud at first calling out our name and it was unexpected too!Wow they were loud!I actually made eye contact with the guy I like,but then he looked away.My friends who sat in front of him said that he was cheering for me!I was so happy when I heard that,but I wished that he had said something.I also did my hair like I was going to prom or something and many people complimented me!This made my day happier and unlike my friends,I wore pink and white.>.< Well.......he's gone,some of my friends are gone,my teachers,and almost everyone.

"Sayonara forever..."
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Thursday, May 18, 2006

   Flag Football


In seventh period for running conditioning class,Mr. Zehnder had about 10 or something of us go play flag football with the eighth grader's in Mr.King's class.Although,he wouldn't let the rest of us go because there were to many people and less teams,so the rest of us had to play with the seventh graders.At first,all we played was soccer and I didn't really have fun....until yesterday,we chose our teams for flag football.The thing was,I hated football and the new rule added was that if a girl on your team throws,catches,plays quaterback and all and scores,your team gets double points.The teachers wanted the girls to be more active and involved.I'm kind of lucky because I'm on a team full of eighth grade guys I know,but the problem was that I was the only girl on the team.So the double points all depend on me.They were really kind because they showed me many plays and how to throw.It was really fun because they have been kind to me unlike any other guys.Usually,when I play others sports and when I mess up,guys would yell at me.Today,our team won about 9 to 0.I'm so happy and I can catch!Sounds lame,but all well.I really like flag football now,but not regular football.Now I think that my favorite sports are flag football,basketball,and tennis.Tomorrow,I get to go to Elitches Garden with my friends for school and I'm so excited.I can't wait!

~You won't always succeed,but that's okay because our failures help lead us further on our paths~
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Monday, May 8, 2006

   Talent Show Tryouts



Hey there!Today,it was the talent show tryouts for our school talent show of course.My friends and I were so nervous because we have been practicing almost everyday since the second month of the school year for this.We made some minor mistakes,but it doesn't matter because we actually did good.Esther played Eternal Snow from Full Moon O Sagashite on the piano,while Jenny and I sang.We did our best and everything,so all we can do is wait for the results.I hope we make it because if we don't,I'll never be able to give him my last words!I'll be mad too because we worked so hard you see.Also,during seventh period in running conditioning class,our class played against the seventh grade gym class.My team won I think,but I got bruised a couple of times because I tripped,fell,got scraped,pushed,and etc.Esther and I really hated the terrible pain of protecting our flags from the guys of the opposite team.Although,she was on the red team and I was on the blue team.Luckily,I was on the team that had most of the guys in my class.>.< Oh yeah,the guy I happen to like will be moving from the neighborhood and he'll be going to a different school...yeah...the school year is almost ending and I'm going to miss everyone.

~Besides our sufferings,there is happiness on our lives~
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   The sun is Setting


I open the white blinds of my window as I stare out
The sky was beautiful as colors were painted in the sky
I was wondering if you were watching the sunset
The sun was no longer going to be there like you
For the moon would soon rise into the dark night like I would
We are seperate and opposites that we can never be together
Why is that?
We may be different,but can't you see?
We're alike in many ways as well
The sun is setting
I saw someone that I didn't recognize
Do you know who it was?
It was me.
The sun showed me a bawling girl as she clutched onto herself
That girl was thinking of somone she would never see again because he was leaving
They were seperated and he wouldn't stay
You were only there for some time,but not enough for me to show you how much I loved you
My heart was being broken slowly and painfully as you left
These tears wouldn't stop...they wouldn't stop at all like the flow of a river.
I watched as the sun was setting
It reminded me of you as memories stayed clutched onto my mind
It may sound silly,but I had a dream of you
That you were the one that saved the broken and lost child
Your face was hidden because it was a sign that you were gone
But you had changed the young girl you see.
The young girl you changed and saved was me
You made her realize her own emotions
How happy she was or how much sorrow she had
You made her have a dream to see you again
Someone that she could never be with,but to love eternally
The sun is setting
The sky is letting the breeze move swiftly by
I'm thinking of you as I wonder...
are you watching the sunset?
The sun is setting in the peaceful sky.

~I..I'm sure that I saw you for once watching me~
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   Shining star of the sky


You are the star in the sky that shines the brightest in my eyes
I look eager every night to see you
Sadly,you never appear when the clouds have covered the darkness
The clouds are those who step between us because
time is against us
I was just never meant to be with you
You were to stay in the sky and I was to stay on the soil
You may not notice me from down here,but I'm praying to you
I want to be near you and I'm trying so hard to get to you
Nothing is working because you're letting yourself be covered by the white clouds
Even if I flew to you,you're too far to reach
Do something...do something
I'm starting to give up as I fall on the ground and burst crying
You're not doing anything
Is it because there are others on the ground that notice you?
Are they the one that are the brightest to you?
Shining star of the sky
I love you as my heart glimmers of sorrow and happiness
If I could just see you again from the clouds
Maybe I can spread these wings and soar to you
They can't because I'm chained and you're moving away
Why?
Why?
Shining star of the sky
I can't stop thinking of you as I wait for the dark
You're no longer appearing as the clouds become thicker
What do I do shining star of the sky?
I'm crying...crying because I'm confuse.
You won't do or say anything.
I won't give up as I continue to shut these eyes and whisper my words to you.

~I..I'm sure that I saw you for once watching me~
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   I am to only cry and have the sorrow of loving you


I know you love her and I can only watch from the distance
The way you smile makes me happy that I begin to turn away
My tears are secretly hidden away from you
You no longer see me and only an illusion that was once there
You take glances to see the girl that had fallen in love with you
But you turn away unsure of who I am
I curl in the corner of a small light protecting me
It's telling me that I should forget about you
I know I should,but I can't
I am the one to love you
She is the one for you
You are to never see me and only a lost memory
I know you love her,but does she love you like I do?
I know..I know for a fact that I do love you
Does she know you like I do?
Could you hear if she really meant it everytime she told you that she loved you?
Maybe she did meant it,but she was also the one to make you laugh
The one to bring you happiness
Something that I couldn't do because I kept chasing you as you kept moving further away
I am to only cry and have the sorrow of loving you
I cant stand it as I fall to the ground no longer running after you
You're never going to stop,but I call out your name
I'm singing words to you and sometimes,I can see your eyes looking at me
I drown in your deep blue eyes that take me away
I look back at the ground as I quietly whimper
Listen to my last everything before you leave
Stay for one bit and atleast do something for me for the last time
Say something before you disappear along with all our memories

~I..I'm sure that I saw you for once watching me~
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Saturday, May 6, 2006

   Music Videos



The Day You Went Away



Tham Goi Ten Anh



Eternal Snow(A very beautiful piano version)



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   Good-bye....good-bye forever


Why did you have to go away?
Why?
I don't understand.
It felt like the world was against me as time kept taking you away
Why is it doing this to me?
I was breathing hard and my lungs were burden by the pain.
I stopped and silently whimpered.
My heart wouldn't let you go and your slipping from my grasp.
I scream out your name as you fall away.
Suffering like this is stupid...very stupid
Help me and quit turning away because you're throwing a memory away that you'll never see again
You're making me feel like a moron.
My foot steps were having to be dragged by my own foolish self.
I lay in my bed crying as I think of you.
You're gone...you're really going to be gone forever.
I'm never ever going to be able to see you
All I can do is say good-bye and give you my last words.
That's it...that's the end of us.
I'll never get to see you that I wasn't even able to become your friend.
I'll tell you I love you for the last time.
Good-bye....good-bye forever
You'll never even read this,who am I really writing to?
I wish that you could have atleast said something
I..I exist you know.
I'm still here
Say something....say good-bye to me before you leave.
I want to hear you and see you for the last time.
I love you.
Good-bye.
I write you a letter secretly as I watch you leave.
Will you throw it away or actually read it?
I don't know...I don't know what's happening to me
I sadly confide in tears,
"Good-bye....good-bye forever."

~When you moved away,I've been shedding these tears~
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   I remember............


I'm here with you for the last time before you are forever gone
I remember to the time I had first confessed.
I was nervous and my body was quietly shaking.
I had told my friend that I would do it today
She smiled when I had told her what I would do.
I take a glance at the back to see if you are there
You are.
I keep thinking about how you would react
What you would say?
How would I feel?
Alright,this is the day for me.
When we stepped out of the bus
We slowly treaded so that you could catch up
People were swiftly passing by
The streets are empty and I held onto my friend
We reached the stop and when you were close enough
I turned around and told you that I had liked you
You stared at me for awhile and I had decided to stroll with you for a bit
Then I stopped.
I was really trembling
My heart was thumping so fast that it was as if I had done non stop running
You whirled around to look at me and I told you that was how I felt about you.
You only smiled and told me that you would see me later
I dashed behind my daddy's truck as tears burst from my eyes
Nothing was the same anymore
I knew that you couldn't return my feelings
I remember how you said my name
I remember how you use to look at me at times
I remember you and you shall never go away from my mind.

~When you moved away,I've been shedding these tears~
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   When you moved away


When you moved away
I was watching the truck pass by
When you moved away
The pictures on your window were no longer there
When you moved away
There was nothing
When you moved away
Water came streaming down these cheeks
When you moved away
I whispered goodbye
When you moved away
Images of the past came rushing inside me
When you moved away
My lips trembled as I said your name for the last time
When you moved away
I sang my last song
When you moved away
I closed my eyes and listened to the breeze
When you moved away
I guess my fate to be near you was never meant to be
When you moved away
You were gone forever
When you moved away
My heart ached in pain
I wonder.....what did you think
I kept dreaming of you
What do I do?
Petals flew from my hands
And I wonder....
Did they reach you?
I watch the peaceful sky and hold my hands against my heart
Goodbye...goodbye
You're no longer there,so leave
Never look back like you never would.
I only felt this way because it....
It was when you moved away

~When you moved away,I've been shedding these tears~
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   Just Something




~When you moved away,I've been shedding these tears~
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   Watch Me


Dear you,

I know that you'll never read this because you can't.
I'm spilling my heart into words for you to hear
Don't ignore me when I have tried so hard to get here
The stage is dark and the crowd is silent
The light is only flashing down on us
The snow is playing behind me with my friends as I take a deep breathe
I can picture this..
All of it if I do make it...
I'm singing my song of sorrow for only you.
I want you to understand me and my feelings.
Watch me as I sing to you on our last day
I need to make it and I want you to really look at me this time.
I'll never see you again and it'll be my last.
I'll be crying and you won't see it
I don't want my memories of you to fade
I don't want you to walk away
You won't say anything to me
Why is it?
That's okay now
I understand that you don't love
I really do and I know that you don't hate me
I'm fine...I'm fine
But am I?
This time,you'll really know them
My emotions
All of it
I act foolish around you, but only because you do around me
You can't see it, but I do
I know that when I had confessed,you changed the way
you thought about me
You're moving further from me, but atleast stay...
Watch me spread my wings and sing my heart out
Watch me doing something I've never done
Watch me say my last words for you
It's up to you to say something now
I'm doing all of this for the last time
Say something before I'll never see you again
Will I see you?
Your words will determine our fate.
See that and it's all up to you.

~When you moved away,I've been shedding these tears~
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   Why is it so hard to get others to see us?

There are people in the world who admire others
We all do,but not just celebrities
They are even the people around us and even our loved ones.
It's hard when you are being pushed away from seeing your own good qualities from words
We all suffer,why can't everyone just see that?
Besides our hardships,we do have a good life.
A life that others can't have, but why can't we appreciate it?
There are people who are handsome or beautiful
that others want to be like
Only because those people get attention and admiration.
They can be intelligent.
They can be cool in everyone's eyes.
They can be kind.
They can be athletic.
They can be those people who can do things that most of us can't do.
They're so called "perfect people."
Why is it so hard to get others to see us?
Why must we always try do things different just to get others to see us,
but do they?
NO.
Do you know why?
We're not perfect enough for them.
Why must everyone be perfect?
Why can't we just once see others for their qualities and for who they are?
Why must we do things or say things to hurt others?
We think that those people have gone through the worst.
Have they?
I'm sure they have,but what we need to see is that everyone does.
We make others feel stupid and ugly just because we say things to make them look bad.
We risk ourselves by changing not just our physical looks, but even to the part where we must change our hearts.
Only because others make them feel like they have to and just for others to look at us.
It's hard on us too when people talk bad things to us like they know us.
Do they?
I'm sure not the real us that we have concealed in.
Why do we conceal our true selves....
Only because some people make them feel torn and alone.
Why is it so hard to get others to see us?
Snap out of it and open your eyes
Nobody is perfect and look at others for who they are
Accept them and quit saying things that make us feel bad.
Why must we be beautiful or handsome just to get your attention?
Why must we be good at everything just to get your attention?
If you cannot understand this message,really,look at life and live it for real.
Quit judging others based on physical looks or what they can't do
Quit living in your world of "perfection"
The truth is,we all can't be your so called "cool" friends.
We're all different and unique in our own ways.

~When you move away,I've been shedding these tears~
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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

   Snow of Tears Part 2
Hey there!If you haven't read the first one,please do on the bottom of the page.

My Last Words For You


We have known each other since to the times we were kids.
Days are briskly passing by and time is pulling you further away.
I’m still chasing you, but it seems as if you’re letting your self fade.
Why can’t you see that maybe just like others,
I’m still embracing onto my wistful memories and rattle emotions of you
I can’t easily let go and drop them onto the bottom of my misery
Like it was nothing and everything was just an illusion of a moron girl.
I’ll admit, I am a moron, but at least I understand myself.
I’m trying to act as if I don’t care about you and that it was just a simple crush
But it won’t work because you still appear in my head no matter what
Like the sun will always shine in the sky if we believe in its smile.
I know you don’t love or hate me, but it’s just resentful that you don’t.
I am watching the frosted clouds swim in the everlasting water sky
Remembering to when I had confessed foolishly to you
I think about you and wonder if you ever think of me?
Just once, do you ever or do you just never?
Maybe it’s because you don’t want to.
When I had told you my feelings down the street on that clear day
I’m sorry for the confusion that I have caused.
They say, when you tell that person you like them, you will feel relieved and relaxed
Do you want to know the truth?
I didn’t because I had more weight on my shoulders, but I was glad that on that day
When you had smiled and said my name
I cried though and why did I shed those tears?
I don’t know, I really don’t……
You must feel really awkward, but you see, I couldn’t help and still can’t.
I would have accepted a no or for you to say that you only wanted to be my friend,
But not for you to avoid me and turn your back to not give me a lend
My heart is as fragile as a luminous glass and it can no longer stay in one piece
For it has been broken.
I can see it…..
I can see the angelic snow of tears cry from these dark eyes
I can simply say all my words in three…..
I love you.

~I cry singing in the eternal snow for you~




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