Wednesday, March 22, 2006

   Loving Him With All My Heart
Spring Break started about last Thursday for my school and I'm feeling less stressed out like others.Although,it's kind of hard for me to say because I still think about this guy I like at school.I won't say his name and only that I think about him everyday.Maybe to be with him was never meant to be for me and that I should just keep moving on,but I can't.I can't be like girls out there who can easily forget about the guys they liked and go find another guy to love.Once my feelings are set on one guy,then my feelings will stay attached for him within my heart.I am a very foolish thirteen year old and should give my love life more chances.I know that I am still young,but I'm just like others who can only like one person at a time over time.My aunt tells me that I should just forget about him and that there are plenty of guys out there.I understand that fact and I'm thankful that she tried to help me feel better.I have told him that I have liked him a month ago and my actions haunt me still.People say that if you tell the person that you have feelings for that you like them,you'll feel happier and that all the heaviness on your shoulders will be lift off.For me,it was different because I felt even sadder and my eyes grew watery afterwards.I thought things were bad as it was,but that wasn't even the worst part yet.As you can see,my friends gave me a note telling me that he already had a girlfriend in which I had never knew because I thought that he had just broken up with her.During the last two periods of school,I was bursting into tears and couldn't stop.My mind felt like a never ending winter and it took me awhile to get over.My friends were such kind people as of to comfort me when I needed it most.This sounds very stupid and please do not get mad at me.Weeks and weeks have passed and he has started to act more weird around me after I told him that I had a crush on me.He tends to ignore me sometimes and gives small glances at me during classes.I have come to understand that he does not hate me nor does he like me.About two or three days ago,my brother's girlfriend's brother who is about my age and goes to me school,just told me that the guy I liked wouldn't be going to the same high school as I would.For he would be going to a school that was even further away.He actually lives down the street from me and I've known him since third grade.My heart weakens and weakens,but I am learning to grow strong because if I truly liked him,I would be happy for him no matter what.For the talent show and if we make it,my friend Jenny and I will be singing Eternal Snow,while my other friend Esther will be playing the piano.The tryout is coming close and I hope that we will make it because we have been practicing since almost the beginning of the school year.If we don't,it will be a great disappointment and the reason I am singing this song is because it expresses my feelings for the guy I like.Then he will know that I dedicate that song for him and that it will be my last to see him because the talent show is on the last day of school.

~"When there is love,there is also life."~

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