Tuesday, January 16, 2007

   Bum-a-thon, Rant-a-thon: Do I know you?
Last night I found out school was cancelled, so I had even more reason to be a bum.

I was so bored I did what I thought I'll never do. I went to myspace.com. No, I didn't sign up to be a member. I found the option where you can look for people who went to your high school, and I messed with that. To my amazement, all these people I knew from high school showed up! Yes, you are all probably rolling your eyes because you've done this shit 10 years ago, but it's new to me. Anywayz, all these people's profiles showed up, and wow, I don't know if I was amused or just plain disgusted.

Reading some of the profiles. Lord, I was so apalled. You're... "down to earth" or "a really good person" you say? Or they have some lame quote about life on their webpage that you know they don't live by. Damn, it made me sick to my stomach. There were so many dirtbags' profiles I looked through whom I used to know in real life, and the profiles were quite exagerated. Then I somehow found the profiles of people that I simply disliked. Vomit. Quoting the Bible, though you harassed people back in school you scum.

I shouldn't hold people for who they were back in time... But how much different can they be? I'll just stick to bitching at them for the sake of my point in this blog post.

That made me sick to my stomach. Why? Think of all the liars on the internet that are trying to be your friend. You'll never know who they really are. Few might be thinking, "Well why the hell do you still talk to me, Thanh?"

Well, I don't know either. I stopped looking for friends on the internet a long time ago. Since high school, except for one who I chatted to in college, and check up on every now and then. I have few friends in real life. Even invisible people on AIM I can't even keep up with. I eventually yell at people I don't know on my buddy list. I am the worst networker I know. The worst. Why don't I ever meet up with anyone?

Safety. Safety is my number one concern. Number two? Is delusion. I have a mind set of what someone is, and I don't want to mess with that delusion. I'm just reluctant to see people in real life, their flaws or imperfections. It's pessimistic. But I announce it's a safety issue, now I question is it really? So whoever's been keeping up with me for years, though we've not met, thankyou. =P

I need to grow up.

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