Friday, January 26, 2007

Yeah so I had a pretty terrifying day. My first ever viola solo. Yeah I tend to get really nervous just being around people let alone standing in front of them.
So I was still at school, just got to orchestra. One of the kids asked ms graf "are we playing today?" She says "only Roberta"
She proceeded in saying that my piano accompanyment (yes, spelled wrong sry) was on her way up. So I was forced to play my piece in front of my class. I was so scared and jittery and.. oh i messed up lots so they made me do it over because they knew I had to perform bigtime tonight. So I feel quite like an idiot. I don't know why. I did fine. I just don't feel like its good enough.
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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Yeah so my private messaging isn't working. Much sorry, it says I have unread messages but when it brings up my inbox it shows nothing. I tried waiting for the page to finish loaading but it said "done" at the bottom and it does that every time I try to check. Sorry..
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

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Well. I'm not sure exactly what to say except that the english language hates me today. its like every word I write or type looks wrong. looks funny. especially the word "count"
look at it. c-o-u-n-t co-unt. it looks weird.
spaced out sooo much today. staring at the teachers. their lips moving. talking to me. and I don't hear a word. you know the lil thing "i see your lips moving but all I hear is blah blah blah.." yeah. that sums up my day entirely.
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Saturday, January 20, 2007

I like work. It fascinates me. I sit and look at it for hours.
I walked to work today. Usually my sister takes me but I decided that walking would be better. I really love the trees they put in along the Boulevard. They're the kinds that disperse the little nuts everywhere. I don't know what kind. The nuts are football shaped and one end is a light tan and the other end is dark brown and it comes together really awesome in the middle. And the trees themselves are so cute. They have such awesome personalities.
So I feel very demeaned. Leah said I sounded like a second-grader when I told her that my tree talked to me. It didn't really talk, but it did squeak. I am completely serious. Okay, I guess you need some background on this. So before Christmas Leah and her family went up to Pine Valley to cut down a christmas tree. Leah saw a little tree she knew I'd like, so she brought it back for me. So I have this tree, and i have no idea how to make it stand up. It's too little to fit into the christmas tree holder thing or a bucket, and big enough that it wouldnt fit in a jar. So I got a pot from outside and filled it up with rocks and dirt and stuck the end in and then put some water in, hoping it would make it stay green for longer before it died. So.. a month later.. it's not dying. The needles aren;t turnign brown and falling off. In fact... it looks.. bigger. That amazed all of us. I guess it somehow sprouted roots, although I've never heard of a tree that big starting roots from nothing.
So anyways, the other day I decided to water it. I got a big quart jar, and poured it all into the pot. Then I hear this sqeaking! This sucking sort of sqweaking and I'm like.. okay.. this is weird. I thought something was wrong with the vent on the floor or something.. but I got closer.. and it was coming from the tree! Mom and Patsy are my witnesses! I thought it was entirely adorable.. a tree.. that sounded like a mouse in pain. Okay, maybe that's not why I think its adorable.. but still.

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Friday, January 19, 2007

Tired, tired. Been waiting for this stinking weekend all week and now that it's here, I don't want it. Oh well. I'm just really tired but I don't want to go to sleep. I mean really, it's four o'clock. Well, I want to sleep. I just don't like waking up a few hours from now just more tired and onery than I was beforehand. Neh maybe I'll go drink an energy drink. Solution to all problems.
So I was talking to Monica today and she asked if I was going to ask Kelton to the Sadie Dance in March. It's like where the girls ask the guys, you know? So I said that I probably would. Then she told me that she was talking to kelton a couple of days ago. He asked her if I had asked him to the dance in a friendly way or if I liked him. Monica told him it was probably a little of both. Then he said "Oh good, because I really like her too." Ha I had to laugh because monica was imitating him perfectly. He'll use big hand gestures for emphasis and close his eyes and his eyelashes will flutter and he looks so much like a little bird lol.
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Monday, January 15, 2007

I'm beautiful, no matter what you say.
Today is one of those days where nothing quite works. You get up and put on something fancy and it just doesn't feel right. You try to do your make-up extra special and it just doesn't work. Nothing feels right. I wasn't content to just wear a t-shirt. So typical. It's one of those days when you dig down and find the bright red lace bra with little orange hearts and pink bows and the outrageously colourful underwear and THEN put on the t-shirt and comfy boring stuff. Then I still feel pretty and don't look it at all. Same with the make-up. Just mascara and lip gloss and I feel wondrous. Too bad for mirrors or I could do this every day.

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Sunday, January 14, 2007

neh
Nonsense. What is this patience you speak of? *SMACK*
The little voices in my head react faster than other peoples' I guess. Neh. I guess the little voices should be telling me to get on my homework. But no. They only tell me USELESSNESS. You'd think they could multi-task. You know. Bug me about the stuff I should be doing. Not making me feel small and insignificantly idiotic. One day my CONFIDENCE SHALL WAX STRONG. Until then, I guess, I must listen to these stupid conversations. I wish there were an off switch.. *smacks forehead repeatedly* Shut up, shut up, SHUT UP
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Friday, January 12, 2007

How marvelously scrumptious
I can't believe it.. here, in this desolate land of nothingness. Here amongst the rocks, the dirt, cactus and tumbleweed.. SNOW!!! It is snowing! Hard and fast. I was so happy.. I just went outside and ran and ran until I was wet from it and my sides ached. Lol driving home it was snowing too so Patsy stopped the car and Leah and I got out and twirled through the snow on the side of the freeway. It was delicious.
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Thursday, January 11, 2007

well.. it used to look like a staple gun..
What a perfectly rottenly wondrous day. I have strep throat. I had to give a devotional in seminary which actually turned out quite well considering I was reading them Are You My Mother? You know, the little kids book. I related it to life and our eternal salvation somehow.. and i must have pulled it off well because Brother Leonard really loved it. I don't even remember what I said..
So yeah then in history.. we're doing this group thing. Each group got to create a country, flag, and economic system and everything. Well, I happen to be in a group with two of the most loudest competitive guys in the class and they decided that we were this communist country that was suppressing everyone.. and okay.. the team with the most points wins in the end. you get points from answering questions right and winning wars. Those two.. Cody and Jacob.. they've started a war with every single other country and thanks to MY brains, we've won. Sorry, that sounded conceited.. but really, I'm the only one answering! So yeah they've come up with all this terrible stuff and terribly hillarious comments about our taking over the world that almost gets us all kicked out of class..
So yeah there was lots more to today but it hurts my teeth to type. I mean.. my teeth hurt anyways and thinking doesnt help. That didn't sound right either..
oh well.
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Saturday, January 6, 2007

Really odd dream from the night before last..
Okay, in the dream, I was standing in the desert, not far from where I live. I was facing my town, although since in is in a valley, it is unable to be seen. I can see the mountains in the distance. The sky is the normal blue with a few light clouds, more of them gathering in various shades of soft blues, pinks, and purples nearer the mountains. It was then this.. hoard, army, mass, large group.. whatever you want to call it.. of sheep were coming towards me. On pogo sticks. Bouncing towards me. The pogo sticks were various shades of neon blue, purple, green, and orange. Suddenly.. everything in the dream was black and white except for the sheep and their pogos. They came closer and closer. Then, the large sheep in front was about six feet in front of me. He climbed off his pogo, and extended a hoof-like appendage. Laying sideways on his "hand" was a long-stemmed rose. He offered it to me. I was unable to tell what colour it was, because, it too, was in black and white. I don't remember whether or not I accepted the rose, because I was rudely awakened by my little dachshund falling off of the bed and crashing to the floor.
Isn't that really odd?
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