Friday, February 8, 2008

I missed a week and a half of school. And.. midterm grades are being sent home today. I missed three tests. I have three F's in classes. I can only make up two of the tests today, which will leave me still with one C and one F. My mother is going to scalp me. This is my farewell message. Not even B's are acceptable with MY mother.
Goodbye, see you in the next life^^
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Saturday, February 2, 2008

I hate being sick..
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Sunday, January 27, 2008

He will always be my hero
Gordon B. Hinckley, prophet of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints died tonight at 6pm.

I love him so. He will be missed.


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Friday, January 25, 2008

Bird is sicky :(

*sigh* and with a headache that multiple doses of excedrin won't get rid of.

And my head feels like it's stuffed, packed tight with cotton.

Does anyone else's eyes get extra sensitive when they get sick??? My eyes are way sensitive anyways and I'm one of those people who CANNOT go outside without my sunglasses on, but when I get sick, I can't even walk outside. It blinds me. I'm not sure if that's normal..
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Monday, January 21, 2008

Wow.. today was really crumby. or is it crummy? I don't remember all of those little sayings fom "Arthur" the aardvark very well.
I'm getting better about not getting so depressed. Everyone was crazy and yelling and bawling today, but I just left them to it. I listened to music and read and made dinner and went on a walk (which I will tell you about momentaraly-sp? - because i see it as the climax in the story of my day.) and through it all I only let a couple sad thoughts bug me. So I'm getting better.

Okay, now for The Walk, as I will now call it. At three pm, I had a sudden urge to swing on swings. It overcame me. I grabbed my jacket and a bottle of water and set off on the 45 minute walk to the nearest swingset. It would not have been a bad walk, except I couldn't find any socks before I left and my feet were angry, and because I only had one hour before I had to start making dinner. I figured I would super-speed-walk to the park (I would have ran.. but.. dang this asthma. Asthma attack on the side of the road is NOT what I was aiming for) and then swing for twenty minutes and then dash home again. So, I take off. Nice cold day, rosy cheeks I'm sure, wrecks galore and then--- my park came into view. I braced myself for the thrill of SWINGS!!! But.. umm.. hey guys.. the playground changed colors. Hey.. erm, I'm really close now.. where's my swing set..? WHERE IS MY SWINGSET?!?!?! They. took. out. my. swings.
Oh whoa whoa.. you do not mess with bird when she has a craving for something. And I'll tell you, I had a major craving for the high I get off of swingin on a swing. And to make it worse, by the time I got over the shock of it being gone, I only had 15 minutes before I had to be back home. And I wasn't wearing socks.
Now, I plead my case. Mother, let me get my licence now so next time I can drive over to find out that the swingset is gone.

*sigh*

the only other thing I'm really sad about is kind of a good reason to be a little depressed I think. So, my mom needs surgery on her foot. really badly. But we need a 500$ payment before they can set up a date, and then $500 after the surgery and then payments from then on. but because of my japan trip payments that we had to make.. now mom can't have the surgery. And if she doesn't have it by march 1, she can't because that's when our health insurance is going to be cancelled. My dad used to pay it, and now he won't anymore. He was supposed to be paying for my japan trip too, but right after we had signed up he conveniently decided he needed to buy himself a tractor instead. So now, because of the japan trip I wanted to go on so bad and the payments we had to put on it, my mom can't have her foot surgery. But we can't get any of the money back on the japan payments even if I back out, so there's no point in letting it go to waste. I just feel bad about my mom. Maybe she wouldn't get so upset with us if she weren't in so much pain.

*sigh*

Sorry to unload all the troubles.. goodnight.
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Sunday, January 20, 2008

Barefoot
On quiet nights

I often go walking

Bare feet hitting the cold sidewalk

Without a sound.

The city lights are bright

And I can't see the stars

over the glow of the streetlamps

overhead.

But when my walk turns

to a run

I leave the lights behind me.

I'll run all night if I have to

just to feel the grass

beneath my feet.



-tell me what you think-

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Friday, January 18, 2008

la la la.. lalalala!
Hmm. Stupid day^^
Was all going good.. school was fine.. besides the fact I started talkin to this guy (age:13) because he looked sad. Now.. I can't get rid of him. I have a personal stalker, whoo hoo..

So.. yeah. After school.. nastiness. Yelling.. and lies (NoT made up by me) .. and now.. I'm in trouble. And I never even did anything.
*sigh*

Sometimes I really don't like being a teenager.

So.. how are you?
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Friday, January 11, 2008

Listening to the voices again.
Sad Bird,

People change

and you can't do anything about it.

Keep telling yourself it's not you baby,

you know it's not.

Nothing has changed

about you.

You are the same person

you always were.

Remember Bird?

Baby,

It's not your fault.

It never was.

Life goes on,

people change.

There's times I know

you're the only one

on your side.

Silly Bird,

you can't blame yourself

for something you never did.

Remember

how you laughed today?

You know that wasn't fake.

No, Bird.

You are alright.

You are the only one

you have to please.

Smile, Bird.

It'll be okay.

Like always.


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Wednesday, January 9, 2008

Ah, 2008 has been okay these nine days in I guess. I dunno, things seem different. People are different. As always of course.

Well, I have to perform at the end of this month and it's a really hard song, so I have to go practice my viola. Love ya, later.
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Tuesday, January 1, 2008

2007 has been crazy, hard, long, and still fun somehow. I've strengthened a ton of friendships and made a lot of new. I've become a more outgoing person compared to one year ago.

I'm glad though that I can say that of everything thats happened, I have not one regret.

Now, time to make resolutions.. gotta get rid of the FIVE POUNDS I gained over this stupid holiday lol.

LOVE YOU ALL!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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