Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Complaintative ramblings
Time: 4:13
mood: tired
song: a home - dixie chicks
Something I learned today: *sigh* I dunno.

So for a couple days of each week I get to stay with my best buddy Leah because she lives so much closer to my school now. I've had lots of fun there these last few days. They don't have a computer though, so that's like the only downfall. I can't say I'm too happy to be home, I've got a butload of physics homework, practicing, laundry to do and not enough time to do it in. Being home also means that I have to get up at 4 tomorrow to make it to school on time.
And here I go complaining, I'm sorry. I really do love school.
But my mom seems to be trying to bribe me to stay home more. With fruit. Yes, fruit. I love fruit to the very core of my being, I live for it. But I live to sleep even more and if she thinks I'm gonna get up at 4 every morning instead of 6 just because I want to be here to eat fruit, she's crazy. I love her though and can understand why she wants me home more.

It's just like I have two worlds and they are just slightly too far apart for a compromise.
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Sunday, August 19, 2007

..I feel very unloved..
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Sunday, August 12, 2007

white nail polish

Time: 7:45
Mood: tired and happy
Song: Romanze Op 85
Something I learned today: Don't write talks for sacrament at 11 at night. They don't turn out so good.

I had to throw a post in today because school starts tomorrow! I'm really excited, I'm so happy that summer is finally over. I get to get out of this house. I get to see my friends. I get to go to English! *dances like a cockatoo*

Anyhow, I had this dream last night. I had fallen in the middle of the road. A black, black road. It was near a crossroads, sort of. The surroundings were blurry, just gray buildings I think. Maybe they weren't there at all. But anyways, I was trying to get out of the road, but I couldn't. I couldn't get up off the ground. Suddenly there was a huge cement truck coming and I couldn't move. I tried to roll out of the way but I couldn't. Not fast enough anyway. Right when it should have hit me, I was there, holding a mini bottle of white nail polish. Then I woke up.
^^
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Saturday, August 11, 2007

Eh.. guess what? My comp crashed. My lovely little ancient computer.. dead. So I am at Cyn's house. My little brother, my older sister, and my mom all have their own laptops. But me? no. They hate me I swear lol. Oh well. It's just my family won't let me on their computers or anything. I have this problem with electronical devices. I'm good and know a lot about them, but.. whenever I'm around they seem to malfunction. I don't know why but I'm really good at screwing stuff up..
anyhow, I don't know when I can get to a computer next, plus school starts monday so even if I did, I wouldn't have too much time.
Be on as soon as I can.
~bird
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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

No, I'll always love you, right now I just don't like you
Time: 3:30

Mood: Eh, a little cranky

Song: Which to bury, us or the hatchet - Relient K

Something I learned today: Don't eat over eight ears of corn at once, no matter how good it tastes.

I just got back from Salt Lake last night. I'm so happy to be home, my dad was driving me insane. I don't want to go into details, but I'm just so estatic about being back *kisses ground* *spits out a mouthful of birdseed* Gosh I missed my birds lol.

Well, school starts next Monday. I can't wait to go back, I've missed everyone so much. I can't wait to get back to Tuacahn.. gosh I've missed it. Maybe I'm crazy, but I'm really longing for a research paper.

Well, I'm thinking I had better go practice. I missed the last four days and I have lessons Friday. Oh wow.. and I think the recital is either at the end of this month or the next one and my piece isn't ready.. Oh well. I'll just have to work harder, or else I'm gonna be sorry lol.

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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

problematic child

Time: 2:13 pm
Mood: tired
Song: Lunacy fringe - The Used
Something I learned today: You never need it when you pack a lot but if you don't you never have what you need.

Well, I went to Zion today with my two best buddies and my sister and brother and we hiked up the Narrows. Not all the way because there was all the flash flood warnings and it was deep by the time we got there. But we had a water/mud fight and had a blast. We got home tired, wet, and dirty though so we were a little grumpy and just layed back and listened to music on the way home. I just got out of the shower and into my pajamas a little while ago. It's nice to be clean and not smelling like river mud. *scrinches nose*

So Leah gave me about 9 cd's today to borrow. Restocking on music^^ Just getting it onto the comp now so I can get it on my ipod. Maybe I'll sleep better now that I'm not having the same old songs playing over and over.

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Sunday, July 29, 2007

alive again
4:21pm
mood: somewhere between disgruntled and sugar-happy
song: I Don't Remember the Name But It's the Fourth Song on the cd - Good Charlotte
something I learned today: Old people will always think you are perfect as long as you give them lots of hugs

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Now that I have obtained an efficient amount of sleep, I am out of my oh-my-gosh-I-completely-suck-at-life moment. Yesterday I was running on four hours, which usually isn't bad for me. But lately I have been used to getting 10-14 hours of sleep a night, so 4 really hit me hard. I guess it inspired a nice poem^^
I wrote it because I had to play in sacrament today. But Mindy played the song with me and we did pretty good so I'm relieved and satisfied. It's just everyone at church and my old friends and everyone thinks that I am so good with the viola, only because I got accepted into a performing arts school. I mean it's not that hard to get into Tuacahn and I'm really not that great of a musician. I really try though. But now that I have gotten the reputation of seemingly being a good violist I didn't really want to crush their image they had of me. But, thankfully, my part was the harmony and it was easy so they still have until next time to really see the truth:P

I really can't wait until school starts, but I'm really worried about my schedule. I'm still having to commute because we haven't moved yet. I'll still have to get up at four in the morning. On Tuesdays and Thursdays I have evening classes at the college, meaning I won't get home until 8:30. I'll have viola lessons (in St George) Friday's after school, getting me home later too. I mean just the time lost driving back and forth kills me, let alone getting home so late most days. I know things will work out but I'm wondering how much time I will actually get for practicing and just time for me. If I really apply myself, homework won't be a problem, it never is, but things are still going to be hectic. I just want to move so badly. It's like all my life is being lived 60 miles away. I'm just forced to come back here to sleep. Kind of aggravating. I'm really bugging my mom every chance I get, telling her over and over how much I want to move. I'm actually really baing annoying for the first time in my life. It's kinda fun^^

Well, I'm online looking for pictures and info on houses that are in our price range and I've got a stack of what I've printed out I've gotta go stick in my mommy's face:) so later.


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Saturday, July 28, 2007

The trembling of my fingers
the notes across the page
the sweetness of a melody
my mind holds in its gaze

The song that plays so softly
in haste across the strings
vicariously performed
but only sadness does it bring

The nauseous imperfections.
Disappointment holds my heart
muffles all I feel inside
and makes it fall apart.

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Thursday, July 26, 2007

Time: 7:30

Mood: Tired and hungry

Song: always winter - Relient K

Something I learned today: .. I'm thinkin and I just can't come up with anything


I'm really tired and starving and I'm just posting for the sake of posting. I went to St George today with Mom, Patsy, and Tim. We were all sorta really angry with each other the whole time. Sparks flew.. some people are just so stupid. Anyhow, we did get to eat at Olive Garden and I got a Chicken Scampi and it was amazing. It was my first time ever going there. So then I wandered around Michael's for like two hours while everyone went to Lowes. While wandering aimlessly, who did I run into on the sticker ailse but Monica! So we're gonna hang out tomorrow before we head off to Leah's party. Tomorrow is gonna be a fun one.

So I spent the night at Cyndy's last night. I took my kitty Sparticus so her and Blossom, Cyndy's kitty, could play and all.

So I'm gonna go make something to eat.
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Monday, July 23, 2007

Here I sit to finish writing out my 6-day excursion. Not just because it was asked for by popular demand X) but because I will manage to somehow forget it if I don't finish.

So where was I? Maybe I'll just start from after we evacuated. So.. we're up Parowan mountain. It's pitch black. We try and set up some tents, but finding the tents seemed to be the problem. Most of us curled up on the lil ole cow-pie ridden ground with our sleeping bags (which were equally difficult to locate).

Anyhow, yada yada, we got through that first night up there. I spent most of it staring up at the stars (they seemed to multiply up there. due to city lights, you can barely see even orion from here) and freezing my butt off because I forgot to take an extra blanket.

We all finally wake up and start putting up tents and my little sister runs up to me out of nowhere and gives me a big hug. This will need some explaining, seeing as I do not really have a little sister. They decided it would be fun to issue us older people little first years to watch. Or moreof just to check on them from time to time to make sure everything was okay with them. My little sister happened to be a little angel. Every time I turned around, there she was. Giving me hugs, bubble gum, and asking me how I was doing. She totally turned the tables on me. But at least I never had to spend any time looking for her, now did I?
So anyway, we get our tents up and my friend Cyndy and ex friend Emily are getting ready to head down to the lake/swamp. You could see it down in the valley from where we were at and it looked really pretty. So we headed on down. I have to tell you, it looked a lot closer than it really was. I bet it was at least two miles down there. But we survived, came back all tired. They still didn't have the portapotties yet but I talked one of the head guys with a camper into letting me use his bathroom so I didn't have to go outside.
I don't wanna talk about the rest of that day. All I did was hike, walk, get tired and sunburned due to numerous trips to the swamp and due to the fact that my best friend Leah's camp was way out in the boondocks and you had to walk like a mile just to get there.
The next two days I practically lived at Leah's camp. Firstly, because they didn't mind that I was there. Secondly, my ward didn't even notice I was gone. So it was good, we had fun. My time with Leah was composed of more trips to the swamp, trips to the cows (amazingly hillarious), and sitting idly on fallen trees talking for hours. Yay for best friends who actually listen to you when you talk!
So yup.. now.. I need to talk about the cows. And then I will spare you the misery of listening to my camp experience. I'd keep going, but my fingers are tired and it wouldn't be too interesting to those of you who aren't mormon..

But the cows!!!
Emily, Cyndy and I set off one fine second day of being at Parowan. We could see the cows wayy off in the distance. They had fenced it off so that they couldn't come up and bother us. So we walked way down there. It took us a while because Emily has a cast on her leg. We finally reached them, and Emily jumps the fence. She goes right out in the middle, lays down, and starts whistling like a cricket. All the cows came and circled, licking and sniffing her. Then she sat up really quick and scared them to death and they all ran away. So she comes back out and tells me it's my turn. I'm like okay, whatev. So I jump in there (the cows are closer now from the Emily escapade) and I lay down. I can't whistle with my retainers in, so I just sang. It did the trick. Soon I was surrounded in all these cows. One named 64 licked my foot. I got up really slowly so as not to scare them and they didn't run away. I was able to pet 64 and walk quietly away. I still feel proud for petting a schizophrenic cow.

Well.. now I've talked about four of the six days. That better?

Well, it's early and I'm really tired, so I'm heading off to bed.
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