Monday, March 28, 2005

Hmm...uh...umm...*sigh*...
So, I think I had something planned out to say, but after four posts, you can probably guess that now I draw a blank. Yeah, went back to school, did some... stuff, I guess. My teachers gradually become even weirder than they already are, their demands more anoying, and my friends... well, of course they're just going downright insane, if not already hitting the standard level of acceptance into an asylum. Not that I've got a problem with that, seeing as I should've been wrapped up years ago. Yay, dry humor. Ha. Haha. Somebody shoot me. Or at least stab me with a spork... repeatedly...

Pardon my sudden run with angst, or what I've dubbed "Senseless B****ing Syndrome". Really, I've no right to feel bad, even if I am the quote unquote epitome of dumbass. *pushes up glasses* Anyway, they renamed the show "the Screen Savers", changing it to "Attack of the Show". Yeah, the new title is lame as hell, but at least they are no longer butchering the classic show. Once G4 came in and Leo & Patrick left, it just wasn't the Screen Savers anymore. Now we anti-G4 guys no longer have a reason to badmouth the show, it now being just another lame show on a hellish channel that we all remember was once the greatest channel to grace cable television. I salute you, guys at G4, for finally making a half-decent decision.

In other news, I'm going up to see my brother in Gainesville this weekend. Yay, even though I was planning to start work on PFHQ, the official home of Phoenix Flame Productions, this weekend. Not that it would've happened, seeing how Sunday's my birthday. That's about it. Yup. To a happier tomorrow (literally). *toasts with computer monitor for no appearant reason*
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Sunday, March 27, 2005

I think this one's more deserving of the OMGWTFBBQ title...
WTF happened yesterday? It was like... "trippy to the max", but not in the literal context. I arrived at Kellie's house thirty minutes late (for me it's late or never). The first thing we did - watched Monty Python & the Holy Grail on her computer *hugs Special Edition DVD case*. After a lot of laughs, I watched her guitar practice from the cramped corner of the practice room, nothing too bad, seeing as how I live in a cramped corner. From there, we got dropped off at the theaters, where I pwned [big announcer voice] Time Crisis II [/big announcer voice]... well, at least as much as I could with only one credit and being months outta practice. At least I didn't die in the first area *cough Kellie cough*. That's when Daniel came, so we headed into the movie. Which movie? The Ring 2, of course! I was in the fetal position while the previews were still rolling, as Kellie explained to me what happened in the first book. As you can tell, I was too much of a pansy to catch the first. An hour passed. My super lightning-sense activated as I heared thunder slowly come in through the dense ceiling. "Perfect." I thought to myself, knowing what that would mean. Kellie got cold, so I lended her my trademark gray flannel shirt. Another hour passed, 90% of it in the fetal position. We continued out of the theater and briskly walked through the rain, only a slight drizzle. Of course, I was there, master of the almighty lightning, meaning only one thing - we came in through Kellie's front door dripping wet. From there, I made the decision to accompany Kellie to the dread of Alex & Adam's Easter thing, Daniel tagging along as well. It was hell, but hey, I would've hated myself if I had let her go to it alone. Adam is... well, Adam. And the tiny children there... they were hellspawn. Like the kind of hellspawn you face on the "Hell" dificulty level in Diablo II. Oh, I thought I was wet when we went into the house after the movie. I was soooo wrong. *shiver* See, I was even more the master of the storm now, since whenever I walked outside, it started to rain. I was like the Sorrow (MGS'd). So I got water balloons chucked at me, buckets of water dunked over my head, and orange soda spilled into my pants. w007! But I didn't care. I was with Kellie, and the full moon was beaming. I spent an hour just gazing at it, thinking of everything and nothing at the same time. It was truely a moving experience, especially since I was shirtless. Yes, I couldn't stand the cold of the wet Gundam Wing shirt on my body, so I was shirtless in front of the woman of my dreams. Definitely an interesting three hours. And so we left that hellhole and retreated back to HQ, where Kellie kindly picked my things up for me and let me borrow the original Ring. She forgot my flannel shirt, though, which is in her room as we speak. Whatever, I have countless copies of it. Daniel and I got dropped off, and she gave us both hugs as usual (note that I was still shirtless and feeling mighty uncomfortable). I cleansed off the evil from the party, and went to sleep. I dreamt of myself talking to Reid, saying "Remember that first bathroom scene [in the Ring II]? Man, I would've so handled that diferently." So then I see myself in front of the mirror. Instead of a camera, I have a Single Action Army revolver, and I proceed to fire at the mirror. It ricochets and hits the wall behind me. As I walk off, I hear the loud thump of a body hiting the ground, dead. Yup, 'twas the first good dream I've had in a bit. I guess it was to represent me facing my fear of horror films. Nonetheless, it was a good day. Now, today, I just finished my music video and waited to talk to Kellie on AIM. She still hasn't come on, and I doubt she will, seeing how early she's gotta wake up tomorrow. Overall, this has been the greatest and most spontaneous Spring Break ever, and I'm happy to have shared it all with you. 'Til next post.
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Friday, March 25, 2005

OMGWTFBBQ!
Okay... most interesting Spring Break to date... wait, that isn't too hard, seeing how I never do anything for Spring Break... Nonetheless, I spent the day working on my music video (which I'm gonna finish tonight, w007!) and developing a plan with Kellie to steal Kat just in time so she doesn't have to go to the beach tomorrow. However, just as we had everything cleared up, Melissa, Kat's twin sister, squeeled on our BS excuse about Kellie having a birthday celebration for me at her place (sadly, they would've bought that, seeing as I'm too much of a... Lance, I guess, to plan anything for myself). That's another thing - I am no longer a geek and/or nerd - I am a Lance Robert Walker, and nothing can contradict that (thanks girls, for raising my self-esteem). And as though things couldn't be rushing faster than a greased monkey on a water slide already, I'm spending tomorrow at Kellie's place. *gulp* I get to meet her mom, go to her guitar practice with her, and go see a movie with her all in the same week I expressed my feelings to her. o.o; What the crap is goin' on!? Well, all you people in the magical computer box, pray that I don't screw this up!
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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

Epitome of Dumbass
*sigh* I called Kellie's cell today in hopes of talkin' to her (something I'm usually not successful at), only to remember two hours after leaving a message that she accidently left it in her hotel room. Arrgh! And I'm sure as hell not going to call her house phone. The last time that happened, it went kinda like this..
Me: "Hello, I'm Kellie's friend Lance. May I speak to her?"
???: "Who're you?"
Me: "I'm Kellie's friend Lance. Could I-..."
???: "What?"
Me: "Can I talk to Kellie!?"
???: *hangs up*

So, in other news, I just realized my 14th birthday is only eleven days away. I must've completely forgotten about it in the middle of my hype and angst. :P

UPDATE: Well, I finally got a hold of her, and after a nice AIM conversation, I'm back to how I was Sunday. To celebrate my lack of angst, I think I'm gonna do a jig... or maybe just get those trip pictures developed.
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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

All's Not Fair in Love & War
And so I return from Washington D.C. with greater wisdom and a full heart. Yes, back in December, a woman by the name of Kellie made a sudden impact in my life. I had known her briefly for the passed year and a half, but something finally clicked in my mind. I felt deep warmth, an inner peace even greater than that of when I climb into a cardboard box (MGS reference, for those that don’t get it). In her presence, I feel alive, as though I’m walking into the coldest of weather in my casual attire. Of course, I’ve always been too much of a pansy to do anything near her, let alone any other girls. Now that I think about it, never in my memory have I stared her directly in the eyes, always pathetically looking downward or to the side. Hell, I did not find out her eye color until she brought it up in a conversation on the bus ride up. But every quote unquote love story has its difficulties. This is where the Nerd Herd comes into play – a group of seven social inepts that have dedicated their existences (or at least their eighth-grade lives) to following the girl in question everywhere she goes. That’s the main reason I gave up before ever trying – I didn’t want to make her life any more complicated than it already was, and the last thing I wanted was to have such a label. However, I did a horrible job ignoring my feelings. On the bus ride up, I couldn’t help but smile whenever I looked back and saw her peacefully sleeping. That’s when I found myself asking her to listen to Billy Joel’s “She Got a Way” in the middle of Union Station, explaining everything I feel in her presence. She replied that it was the greatest thing anyone had ever done for her, but she just wasn’t ready (she had strong feelings for my best friend, Reid, but he didn’t feel the same way for her). All that mattered, though, was that I got the message through, that she knows I care. She also spoke of something that I completely agree with – any form of relationship is impossible with the constant gossiping of the likes of Jennifer and company. Nonetheless, I spent the rest of my day the happiest man on the world. Sadly, that is only the beginning. The females in our class are beginning to make a game out of our lives, picking sides on whom Kellie will choose in the end. There’s Giovanno, a really nice guy that is rarely seen anywhere other than Kellie’s side; Adam, a “unique” guy of sorts, who I’ve never been able to hold out an intelligent conversation with; and, well, myself. Jennifer reassures me that she’s on my side and I should have no problems once Gio goes back to Europe in a few months, but to me it’s not about rivalry. We are all good friends, and the girls haven’t the right to be playing with our lives like some sadistic cockfight mixed with a shoujo manga. I definitely don’t want any broken hearts to come forth from this, but sadly, I can’t fight that. It has always been my cruel curse to bring pain and confusion to the ones I love, I suppose. If anything happens, I don’t want Kellie’s heart to be broken, let it be by the girls, the guys, or just my inability to back down. I’ve always been very pacifistic, but I know that mental pain can be worse than burning in a limitless flame for all eternity. Kellie, if you are by any chance reading this, I want to tell you that I’m sorry for everything. My feelings for you go far beyond those any man I know can feel… you mean everything to me, from my talents to my spirit… but I just can’t let myself break your heart…

- Lance
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