Well, when I wrote that last entry, I had to keep minimizing the window... My teacher is scary... He might as well breathe fire... Do you know what I just realized? I usually start a lot of sentences with well and a comma... That's odd. Sorry, I can't stop the random-ness.
I just read Dagger's most recent entry, and I just wanted to say something because it's been on my mind a lot lately.
Okay, I'm not exactly the most mature person on the earth. I try to be most of the time, because it's just polite. When I have large amounts of pepsi, I can't guarentee anything though.
But the point is, I agree with her because most of the anime fans who are in the same grade as me (eighth or lower) usually don't type with proper grammar, spelling, punctuation and such. I do, because if I don't, I automatically start typing like that by instinct. And anyway, it seems idiotic to type like that... *shrugs* That's just how I feel...
I try to think of myself as more mature than others my age, but I realize it's most likely a lie. Well, not all of the time, but some at the least. You see, I've had to go through so much as a child... Trust me... I think it's made me grow up a little faster than most, because I was forced to become independent when it came to almost everything I did.
Truly, I still have more time to stay a child. I want to enjoy it, but I just find it hard... *shakes head* No time for sob stories about when I was younger...
I know I can have a civilized conversation with someone on the economy and politics because I have. I don't want to go in another room with everyone with everyone younger than me! I don't want to talk about boys... I want to discuss things that I have an opinion about, not just fall asleep on pink carpet and wake up with makeup smeared across my face.
And another thing, I have a friend who's seventeen, and I could have the same conversation with her as I could with one of my twelve year-old friends. It really doesn't matter when it comes to age, just maturity.
But what I truly hate the most is when my family hides things from me. You think they'd know that I'm not deaf! I'm serious, I have my ways of finding out what's going on. I can handle whatever they have to tell me... I've had to deal with so much, nothing has surprised me in a long time... And I doubt something miniscule like what they hide from me will. I just want them to tell me... I'm not asking them to bare their soul, I just want to know what they're talking about behind my back!
*wipes off sweat* So the entire point of this is: Maturity is a state of mind.
Er... Did that actually go with the entire rambling thing?
Sorry if I sounded weird with this entire entry. If you've even read this far, I really appreciate it.
I love you guys!
Nikki-chan
