Birthday • 1994-04-03 Gender •
Female Location • hell Member Since • 2005-07-20 Occupation • Real Name • Keiti [aka Batman!]
Personal
Achievements • attemting suicide mulitple times Anime Fan Since • uhm Favorite Anime • Goals • Doesn't matter anymore... Hobbies • video games, tv, computer, 4wheeling, gambling (even tho im 12), SAVING GOOD FROM EVIL Talents • who gives a fuck. i suck at everything.
myOtaku.com: White Wolf82
Sunday, November 26, 2006
*begins to bawl in knees, arms wrapped around legs*
i just found out that 11-month-mark bf i had, the last bf i had, the one i thot was perfect.... was cheating on my for SIX fucking months!!! im sick of being toyed with, almost every boy i date treats me like SHIT! now i can remember this relationship as The First Online Date I Ever Had, the One With Ivan, the One Who Cheated For Six Months, the One I Fell For. right now, i can barely see what i'm typing ... i've been crying for so long ... these tears are blinding me, drowning me... Why didnt he ever stop me from saying "i love you?" why didnt he just break up with me if this other girl was so important? Why am i always treated like nothing!? i want to die, theres no reason to live anymore... if my boyfriend can't think of me as perfect, or someone to even care about, to even care about the feelings ... then who will? No one will ever know i was gone, i'd just be another possom laying dead aside the road, every person or living thing that passes can point and laugh at my misery, or say "ewww" and walk away. maybe the reason why i was born is to be torchered, to become nothing, then die lonely. there is no one to talk to anymore, all the boys that like me would forget about me in no time. my friends, they probobally think im crazy, fucked up, and only pretend to be my friend. I'm thinking about deleting my otaku site, deleting all my screen names, and go die somewhere. Relationships cant be without trust, and thats all i ever gave him, aside from love. everytime he told me "i love u" back, he just lied... why? why must i be here? why must u torcher me? I'll be gone from myotaku shortly... so let me just say goodbye now, and i'll miss all of you, though i know you'll just forget about me like the rest. I'll have the requests in, i promise u that, but ill find another way so u can keep it, if there is another way i can give it to u ill give it...
