Wednesday, November 22, 2006

=( wahh!!!
Hey everybody =( i'm sad right now my boyfriend is in California and is coming back on the 28th >.< wahhhh thats too long!!He hasn't even called me yet but I keep leaving him A LOT of comments on myspace >.< and he's only left me like hmmm 4 or 5 comments total? but oh well today is his football game so i'm hoping that his team wins ^.^ but anyways right now it is 7:34AM i'm not going to school right now i'll be getting there during 3rd hour I think.Cuz I have my dentist appt. ahh I might get braces!!I'm so scared cuz what if ppl start makin fun of me?But I shouldn't care ya know I shouldn't make such a big deal about it.But what i'm really scared of is if I do get them my friend who has braces told me that it hurts when they're putting them on >.< but i'm not sure if she was lying to me or not but anyways I have to go now bye bye!!!

Deloris


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Wednesday, November 15, 2006

   Hi everybody!!its been a while AGAIN but yea now to catch up.I have a bf his name is Wesley we've been going out since the 26th of October today is his birthday and we also kissed for the first time today as well yes I know you must be thinking (your too young to be kissing!!)but yea hehe umm this Saturday he's leaving to California =( for football and is coming back on the 28th he's super tall and is Samoan and Hawaiian by the way if i've already said all this stuff in a pervious i'm sorry i kinda forget things easily hehe hmmm what else is new this Monday is my best friends birthday yay!i'm helping her get all the stuff for her party but anyways I need to finish my homework before my mom comes home so bye bye!!!
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Monday, October 30, 2006

   Poems By meh!!!
Hey everybody I decided that i'm gonna start putting up my poems so tell me what you think of them.And by the way none of my poems rhyme cuz not all have to =D and all my poems are based on my emotions I feel everyday. Now lets begin!!!!


Ever since that night we talked all i've been thinking about is you,
I thought I was over you already,
I guess I was wrong,
I can't keep you off my mind.
I wan't you back
I can't do this anymore.
I can't always say I hate you.
When I don't mean it,
I love you and always will.


All I want is to be with you again.
I don't know why I left you in the first place,
Your the only guy that can make me really smile.
I miss you so much
I want to tell you how I really feel.



I like you so much and I think i'm falling for you now.
Even though you said you don't like me,
I still want to try.
But whenever I go to talk to you I choke and forget.
So I just walk right past you,
I really want to talk to you.
But just not in front of all your friends.
I just wish you would feel the same way
I don't want to be just friends.
I want to tell you how much you mean to me.
I like you a lot.
I think i'm falling in love.


Letting you go was the hardest thing I ever had to do,
Thinking back to when it was just us.
I miss it all.
Having your arms around my waist,
Hearing you say I love you to me.
Talking about the future and having a family.
Even if we were still young,
It made me feel so happy just to know that I had someone to live for.


When I first met you I was so shy,
When we hung out together I was so happy.
I didn't want to leave even though I knew I would get in trouble later on,
That didn't matter to me,
I had so many butterflies in me.
I didn't know what to do,
Though when I was with you I felt to calm,
I could really be myself around you.
But the whole time I thought,
Even though you barely know me,
Do you like me back??


Why am I happy when i'm depressed?
Why do I hate life so much?
There's so many questions I have unanswered.
Why is it that some people love life while others hate it?
Why do I sometimes try to take my own life,
Instead of taking a step forward?
Why doesn't anything exciting happen to me?
All I want is answers.

All By.Deloris Galbadores


There is more to type up i'm just getting tired hah


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Sunday, October 29, 2006

   I hate life
Hey everybody wuts new?Well for me I have a boyfriend now his name is Wesley and he's in 7th grade.It's weird to be older than then guy ya know since i'm in 8th but he's really tall so yea.He's samoan and hawaiian.But it feels like he doens't know how to be in a real relationship cuz he doesn't even hug me and like I really want him to =( and I gave him my number so he could call me and he hasn't.Not once.Ugh I just hate life for some reason its just that nothing exciting ever happens to me when I want it too.Like in all those anime shows like "Air" or even "Fushigi Yuugi" by the way sorry I changed to subject to quickly its just that right now I feel like there's nothing important in life so why am I here?But then again everyone here has something important to fulfill but maybe not.I don't know sorry I just feel so depressed and i'm not sure but I feel like I hate people I don't want to talk to them or even see them I don't know why I feel this way I just do but whenever I feel depressed i'm kinda happy that I am cuz it makes me not care about anything in life. By the way if i'm not making sense sorry i'm just typing anything down on how I feel right now.Well anyways i'll go now bye bye.
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Thursday, October 19, 2006

   Hi!!
Hi everybody its been a while well yea i'm doing good now.Isaac is still talking to meh ^.^ he's my lil stalker hahah he said that in ccd to me at first is scared me but oh well.But with Lazaro well I hate his guts!He's dating my ex-bestfriend Erica I told her yesterday that our friendship is over because somebody "zapped" her so she has to give Lazaro a lap dance and on top of that she asked my other friend Joie to bring a skirt so she could do that. But I swear a lot of my friends have turned into SLUTS!I'm starting not to like them but anywho back to Isaac =D I still like him i'm not sure why but i'm falling for him and my friends keep telling me that I should tell him how I really feel because maybe he feels the same way now cuz he talks to me a lot and on myspace he's already moved me up some more ^.^ that made me so happy but i'm really scared to tell him what if he doesn't like me like I like him ya know. But its best if I do i'll feel better too ^.^ but OMG I almost forgot last week on Friday I commented him saying that I just got back from my school dance and all and he commented me back asking if our school lets other students from different schools come but I told him no and he told me that at his school they do and that for his next dance he wants me to come YAY!!!I'm so happy but then embarrassed because I don't know anybody at his school except for maybe 3 or 4 ppl and thats it heheh but I have to go now I have school tomarrow >.< bye bye!!! Things are finally turning around for me ^.^
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Saturday, October 7, 2006

.....
Hi everybody..Well hmm okay when I said that I was gonna forget about Isaac well I can't. Cuz on Sunday at church he came up to me and he said that he never asked Jonathan "how to get rid of me" he asked him if he sould but then he asked if I was like a trouble maker or sumthin like that then Jonathan said that I wasn't so yea.But I still tired to get him to like me and well yesterday I messaged Isaac saying "hey I was wondering if you wanted to go to hte movies with my friends and I on the 13th but if you don't then its okay" then he messaged me back saying "hey, listen. that soundz fun, but im acutally fixin 2 ask out this girl named hannah. im sry, your a great girl, guys will go crazy over u. im really sry, but i just cant make it. i hope u understand. but i really want 2 still be friends " and like when I started reading that I kinda started crying =( I like him A LOT! And well i'm kinda jealous. I bet that Hannah girl is really pretty.She's lucky. I bet she'll say yes.I don't know why but like I just want things to go my way since it hasn't been like that for a long time.I seriously want to die!But what would my family and friends think. They would miss me a lot. And I would have done that all because of a boy.But if I do well at least i'll be able to see my little brother and my nana for the first time. It'll be better if i'm gone and out of everybody's way.
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006

=(
Hey everybody well if you just read that other post well forget about it. I made the biggest mistake. I'm not gonna like anyone plus if I like sumone i'm not gonna tell anybody because well last week and the week before that all i've been doing is crying. And i'm getting tired of it. I cried today also. Because my friend Joie told me that she was talking to my ex that goes to Stellar and well Isaac goes to stellar too and I think yesterday he went up to Jonathan (my ex)and asked him if I was his ex and he said yes and then Isaac was all like oh well then how do I get rid of her because she likes me now. And like when Joie told me that right after class I started crying and like now i've been sad since I got home. So its like everytime I tell someone I like them a lot I always end up crying. and like Isaac and Lazaro are the only two guys that I like A LOT. But oh well i'm just gonna forget about them.i'm not gonna like anybody for the rest of the year. Well i'm gonna try not to.
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Sunday, September 24, 2006

   Hi everybody!!I just got back from church and CCD (its a church school thingy)but anyways I still like Lazaro a little but like there's this other guy that I like =D he's sooooooo freakin cute!!!!!hehe his name is Isaac and like today my mom told me to go over and ask him what the time was since he had a watch on and like when I asked him he was all like oh no I don't know and then after when I went to class my mom told me that when I walked off he got up and everything and felt his wrist and then noticed that he DID have a watch on hehehe she said that he was all like "oh crap!"so him and I are in the same class and he kept looking at me!! I couldn't stop smiling!!! heheh i like him A LOT!! he was in my class last year too ^.^ *drools SO CUTE!* well yea I found him on myspace and I just added him ^.^ I hope he accepts the thing so then I can tell him that he did have a watch on hehe I wonder if he got embarrassed but who cares he's cute heh and he's in 8th grade and goes to Stellar thats a smart school too!But the thing is how I found him was on my ex's myspace O.o
uh oh but I wonder if Isaac thinks i'm cute or something ^.^ I hope he does!!I don't think he has a girlfriend hehe I hope not!well anyways i'm going to end it here i'll post another time buh bye!!!!=D


I LOVE ISSAC!!!! heheh ^.^ *blushes*
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Tuesday, September 19, 2006

   I've noticed that i've been really depressed lately. Maybe its because of what Lazaro said i'm not sure.But yea he gave me another note saying that the first note he didn't write it but i'm still confused and then he said that he was really sorry because he doesn't have feelings for me like last year and that just maked me so sad =( and so Marie and Kriselle said that I should still try to make him like me but the thing is whenever I see him I get all these butterflies and then I forget what I was gonna say to him. Like today I was gonna talk to him and when I saw him in the hallway he looked at me and I just chocked and just looked away and walked off. I feel so stupid!!!!!=( I thought that he would like me but I was wrong =( I wish I could tell him how I feel but I get so scared. So this saturday i'm going to my friend Taylor's house and i'm gonna call him from there so if it goes wrong i'll have my friends to support me =) well anyways I guess i'm just gonna go write some poems so i'll see you all later bye bye!
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Thursday, September 14, 2006

   I was crying today
Hi everybody =( i'm really sad right now because of a boy. His name is Lazaro and I like him A LOT and like today I got all dressed up just to let him look and me or notice me and all and then during 4 hour I wrote him a note and I told him that I liked him since last year and its true and like yea and then I gave it to him after 6th hour and he said something really mean about me and then my supposidly best friend Brianna told me what he said and she was laughing and so when I went to 7th hour I was crying and then at the end of the day Lazaro's friend Victor came up to me and gave me a note that was crumpled up and I thought it was the one I gave him and I started crying again and like I went up to my best friend marie and I showed her the crumpled paper and just walked off and then like all my other friends saw me crying and like I told them and then I opened up the paper and it was a note from Lazaro saying that he doesn't like me and all and I started crying even more and so when I was about to get on the bus I felt so dizzy like I was gonna faint and I kinda wanted to cuz like when my friends were hugging me I was shaking so bad and it wasn't becuz of the rain and then my friend Nancy felt my cheek and told me that I was really really cold and usually i'm not like that i'm usually really warm but this time I wasn't but yea when I was walking from my bus stop I was still crying and so I just sat in the rain when I got to my stairs I was outside for like 10 minutes and yea so now I think i'm gonna get a cold. But later on my best friend Kriselle called me and like she said that Victor told her that Lazaro was gonna give me another note and i'm kinda scared becuz i'm afraid that it might be a bad note and like if it is and if it is a bad note and I read it before class starts than i'm gonna start crying and then people are gonna start asking me what's wrong and then my teacher is gonna make me go to the counselers office and I don't want to but yea so that's what happened today well I have to go now I need to finish studying bye bye!

~Deloris~
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