Wednesday, January 2, 2008

THE NEW YEAR
The new year began, and everything just seemed to roll in to place, JK. but the newyears weekend was freakin' amazing, i wish i could have a weekend like that every time. Too bad i have a job, keeps the weekend short and my hair even shorter.

"something snapped today, and life seemed to stop. I had never seen a true wonder until now, the light of that new dawn crashing over the snowy mountain tops. Yes the fire that burned the sky and ushered in my new age."
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Tuesday, December 25, 2007

   wow...
hey its x-mas today, that means yesterday was my b-day and i just got home a few min. ago, that was one crazy night, or was it... My home is filled with the christmas spirit now though so its all good. Lots of nothings are happening and everything just seems to slow down.

Soon i'll be leaving though, i can thank god for that. This house is like the land of the liveing dead, everyone just walks around doing nothing. (yeah i got on my labtop much better then nothing.)

Well every one have a merry freakin' X-mas!
Or not either way i'm happy/
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Saturday, December 22, 2007

   Wandering
Well i went out for a while, was hanging out with some friends for the longest time. Then in the middle of talking to them, i realized i'm really going to regret everything i've done, to every one i know. When i thought of that i just stopped talking and left without saying another word. I wandered around mountvernon for about three hours last night(there are some wierd people that come out at night). I just drifted around all over the place and before i knew it i had no idea where the hell i was.

That was the first time that had ever happened to me, i was freakin' lost. I found my way out, turns out i just wandered along the highway until i was up in the far end of mountvernon. It took me forever to walk all the way back in to burlington, i was just lucky i had my CD player to keep me company. I was tempted to take the bus once i crossed the bridge in to burlington but i didn't i still dont know why. I just kept walking, right through sedro and down the old train tracks all the way in to lyman. The moon helped but the trees kinda blacked out the path until really early in the morning.

I felt great once i got back home, tired as hell but great. Still didn't sleep and finally started writeing on my newest chapter. I think its going to be the last one of the book i'm on. Its turning out fine. And i'm never going to go that far with out some sort of transpo again. too long for a walk or a jog.
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Monday, December 17, 2007

   here's one for the bucket

the christmas season is here, but dont feel bad, cause i'm gonna tell you all a secret. Christmas sucks, but contrary to that i'm buying gifts randomly for every one i know, but since i hate holidays i'm just going to give em' out when i see the person.

Oh yeah, and for that girly girl who i never see, i got your adress and i'm going to get you a gift, not a christmas present but a gift. OH yes, you'll like it, you'll like it alot.


And another thing, i realize i dont care about money, holy crap i know its a shocker, money the thing that makes the earth spin isn't important to me. i mean i have money and i use it, but i've got so much left over it just sits there and piles up every where. So i'm going to start a "fundraiser". I'll call it get outta my freakin way or get on that plane cause i'm going to japan with or with out you fund. i know its a long name but at least its straight forward.
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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Feel the ice.
Oh some comfort in this wonderfull world, the icey heart of winter and its chilling breathe. I walked, fron 8 untill midnight last night, and it felt great, just walking out in the dark cold air. The train tracks were a nice vacation from the life at home, although it would have been even better with some company. *wink wink*

Aaahhhhhh, but the ice cold air did me some good, i went home, stayed up all night just listening to music in my room. I was actually trying to sleep it just wouldn't let me go. I just had felt trapped for so long, by everything, i think talking to some friends really helped loosen those chains. But the walk really topped it all off, just shattered the locks, and opened the doors.

It was great like a massive weight lifted off my heart, and it made me feel truly alive, for the first time in a long while.
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Wednesday, November 7, 2007

   To Far
well maybe i went a little to far on the last post. i was angry but i wont say i was totally wrong. I guess there might be some real love out some where. But i'm not going to bleed my self dry over this other crap. I find it far more satisfying to just let loose the chains that bind us and breathe in freedom.

"Free me of my curse, this binding chain of eternal pain. Set aside my beating heart and reclaim my mind, to drift away in the sea of 'what ifs'. To flow in my imagination and let reality pass me by" D.G. , the bound immortal
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Sunday, October 14, 2007

   !!!
What the hell is wrong with this place, its like a big joke that every one is in on. God well its not freakin funny, why dont you all go kill your selves. Every one is just messing with every one else, life on this stinking planet is like a big bag of crap, it stinks and nobody loves it. Speaking of love, what the hell happened to that, it just up and walked away. Probably tired of all the shit you people put it through, picking it up and throwing it around like nothing. Well screw that, screw it all. Love is the thing that nobody has, and every one wants, well what you have isn't love its just a joke, and every one is laughing at you from the out side.

Hahahahahaha!!!


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Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Lets Reconnect
wow i finally talked to my best friend, its been months since we spoke, i guess i've been kind of busy with work and alex but i tried to talk to him. this is the first time he has actually picked up his phone, since thats the only way to get a hold of him any more. I ended up finding out that his life is at a stand still, he just sits there and plays games all day and nothing else. The worst part is his grandpa died and i knew before him, thats how distant he is from the world. I didn't have the heart to tell him about it though, cause i have no heart, no really as much as i would still like one i dont. never once have i cried when some one dies, or gets hurt, now angry i got that, beating things and people i can do it, some one hurts a friends i do something about it. but when one of them is crying i dont know what to say, some of them i just want to hold a few of them i want to try and comfort but what good is it coming from me. The only person who ever really understood me hasen't spoken to me in the longest time, i hope she will one day though it would be great to stay friends.
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Tuesday, September 11, 2007

   WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
work is freakin' awsome, if you can call it work. its great i'm managment, i mean sure i get to pay the bills and tell every one what to do. Plus i get to speak with nearly every customer, well some of the time its a plus. but the the best part of the job is the freedom, i mean really in my ten to tweleve hour day i type up some customer info, hand out work orders and rearange a few files and pay some bills, the rest of the time i sit on a computer and my huge desk and surf the net, or draw the occasional pic. its great to be a member of managment, plus my employees are freakin awsome, they kick ass at what they do, and hang out in the office chatting about video games and anime in thier spare time.
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Friday, August 24, 2007

   Looking good.
man things are looking good, kinda wierd but good. I've got an amazing thing going with the most amazing person alex. I'm hopeing i can keep all of me friends close to me but latley they have been starting to drift apart. My best friend, wont even take my calls latley, i dont know if its cause of me or maybe he's just laying around playing his video games, who really knows. but i'm getting to know alot of knew people, i just came out of my shell you could say, and i've been doing a hell of a lot wilder stuff then i used to, i kind of owe alot of it to a friend who broke my shell, so thank you and i hope we can hang out soon.
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