Currently Feeling: Like blowing someone’s fucking head off and parading around their dead body
Currently Chopping People’s Heads off to the Tune: Toxcitity and Sweet Dreams(Manson version) It was all fine until some fucking bitch that was fucking my goddamn brother had to say something to her. Had to say something to everyone. Justin told me that he was going to bring her up to Bevill today and she was going to apologize to my face. By Ra, he better keep her within ten feet of me because I'm liable to jump and beat the living FUCK out of her. I'm a loose cannon right now and she just needs to stay the fuck away from me. She needs to apologize to Oreana and Jessie for what she said and caused. I'm in a true dark mode right now--no one wants to mess with me when I'm in this mood. NO one.
Apology or not, her ass is STILL mine. If Justin tries to get me off of her, then his ass is getting it to. Stupid ass, hormone controlled brother.
He called me when he was informed of what happened and he wasn't happy to say the least. He was damn furious with that bitch. He said and I quote, "I'm going to kill her." (And when Justin says that, he means it folks.) I heard him load his gun and screamed at him and Michael, who was beside him, to stop and deal with it rationally. He happened to call me this morning and told me to stay at Bevill for a couple of hours after my exam. It's almost 9:30 right now. He should be here soon.
Grrrrr, damn bitch.
My fiancée and I had everything worked out until that bitch had to step the fuck in and now it's making them think twice about us and twice as hard. *sighs* I should kill that--ugh, okay, happy thoughts. *starts her mantra* Dead puppies, dead puppies, dead Jews, dead Jews, dead bitch, dead bitch, dead BITCH! *growls and punches the wall, clearing her throat*
And now back to your regularly scheduled programming.
Aside from that, I wrote a poem for my fiancée last night and I was going to post it here buuuuut, I don't have it with me so there goes that idea; however, when I get home I'll update again and post it on here and MO along with some other things I've done in the past that I should've shown off. My angel said that trivial things don't matter to them yet they give and receive trivial things. Don't know what to say about that, but I think they liked the poem. ^^. I tried my goddamndest to make it work and to make them smile. Like I told them, it may not mean as much as the things Jessie does for them, but--mine came from the heart (as I'm sure Jessie's did as well) and I don't expect anything back. Well, at least I think I don't expect anything back. *laughs*
Aside from that, don't know why my mood is horny right now on my GJ/LJ. *whistles innocently* Hey--I have basic human needs as well...dammit, but it really shouldn't be just horny rather: "So fucking horny and pissed and running on blood lust that she could kill some random mother fucker and then go and find someone to fulfill her needs." There, I think that sounds better. ^^ Hmmm--sure I could modify it, but not right now. I'll try later.
The things I desperately want are seemingly unattainable and shall remain so until the end. I wish my hope would die away completely so that I wouldn't have to deal with it. I wish I could let go and not want anything at all. I want to be a shell of a human so that I don't have to hurt.
I just don’t know what to do with myself these days...
Okay, I posted this on my GJ and LJ this morning and things have changed. Things have changed in a good way.
I told you that bitch would be mine! HAHAHAHA! Justin brought her up to the college and I beat the living fucking dog shit out of her! EAT THAT, BITCH! That bitch was bleeding from her nose, her mouth, she had a black eye. She couldn’t move. I busted her ASS! I’m pretty damn sure I broke something. So she’ll no longer bother Oreana, Jessie, and myself. I’m surprised I didn’t kill that damn—arrgh! Justin KNEW I was going to beat the fuck out of her and he let me…for a while until he realized that if I didn’t stop I would kill her. Michael was in the back of Justin’s Eclipse screaming at me to keep going, “Go Wendi! Beat her ass! WooHoo! *silence* Damn! *silence again* Holy shit! *silence once again* I’m glad I never pissed you off!”
I feel a looooooot better now since that was done. That bitch fucked with the wrong person (me) and messed with the wrong people (Oreana and Jessie). She should’ve never opened her big fucking mouth and started on the people I care about. Oh hell to the no. Oreana was hurt because of her and I had to do something about it, not to mention Jessie was hurting as well due to Oreana hurting. I wasn’t going to let her get away with saying shit. I’m not like that. I got the revenge I swore I would get and the ass whooping I promised to give.
Okay, now I’m going to post the poem that I wrote for my fiancée. Since they don’t ever come by here or whatnot they won’t see it, but it’s okay. So, here it is:
Dry Your Tears
Don’t cry my angel dear,
I am here to wipe away all of your tears
Feel and see my light
As I take away your night
Pay no deed to the other talk
While you and I are on this walk
For it is us here and now
So let me take away that frown
Remember all the times that I stuck by your side
And took your hand so you could confide
I know I am not perfection
Let me be that light…that sun
I will always be there for you
My love will always stay true
Angels aren’t meant to cry
Dry your tears and stay by my side
We are one you and I
So come my love, let us fly
Now I will spread my wings and take you in my arms
Taking you away to paradise…my heart!
There it is. Like I said before, I tried my hardest on that poem. I poured my heart into the words and I can only help that it heals things.
NOW I’m going to post of some of the images and what not that I’ve done for Jessie and Oreana. I’ll just put up the link so it won’t take up like…a lot of room. ^^
Nayre
Osiris
Bakura and Raist
Oreana and Osiris
So that’s about it for this update. I hope you guys enjoyed the poem and images. I tell you one damn thing, Wendi feels better after what happened. *prances around like a proud peacock* I feel soooo daaaamn good.
Wendi out!
Until the next update!
~~Winter Yuy
Art © Meilin Wong
