Currently Feeling: Longing for someone—anyone to hold me…
Currently Crying to the Tune of: Always by Saliva (Go look up the lyrics!)Welp, there it went. Thank you, Justin for fucking up my life. You asshole, I cannot believe you did that to me! Especially when you knew how much this meant to me…
She loved me…she did, but then everyone kept having to but into our relationship and it made it worse. I’m mad at everyone, but I’m especially mad at…her…
When I needed her the most she leaves me…alone. I was use to being alone until she showed me how to love again and now it’s over. It’s all over. She cannot be with anyone her heart cannot be into. *curls up in a ball* Why now of all times when my life is the hardest? I needed someone and she…she left…
I went into a psychological mood last night and went to ask someone for help. I asked Mr. Mayhall about something’s and he reminded me about some definitions that I had a long time ago in his class.
Do you people know the difference between being jealous and being envious? Most people don’t so I’m going to clarify exactly what they are.
Jealously: Fear of losing something that you have
Evny: Wanting something someone else has
Now that you people have a clear insight on those two definitions now, let’s hope you won’t get them mixed up anymore because people do mix them up all the time.
Just to let you all know, jealousy isn’t a bad things; yet, I’m being punished for it. The only thing I didn’t want was to lose the person that I loved and because she thought jealousy was a bad things, I did end up losing it all in the end. *sighs* Everyone has jealous tendencies and everyone gets jealous and it’s not bad, people! It’s human nature to be jealous! If I didn’t get jealous, that would prove that I didn’t value the relationship and I did, more than anything on this Earth. *sighs* But…there is nothing I can do now. We’re on a break—maybe that’s how things should be.
One of my only best friends is leaving tomorrow and I don’t know what I’m gonna do without her. Charity—you always knew how to make me smile and I’ll never forget you. I don’t know when we’ll see one another, but fly on your wings and be free. Get out of here and be all that you can be. (The last part is irony and should be funny because Charity is in the army). I will shed many tears for you, my dear friend. Never forget me, we’ll always have our cell phones and our stories!
I’m not kidding when I say I will cry tomorrow because I will. I wanted someone to be there for me when she goes and the one person I had is no longer with me now…I have no friend who will let me cry on their shoulders. You’re lucky, angel…at least you have some one…
Wendi out…
Until the next update!
~~Winter Yuy
Art © Meilin Wong
[I don't stop breathing everytime the phone rings,
My heart don't race when someone's at my door,
I've almost given up thinking you're ever gonna call,
I don't believe in magic anymore,
I just don't lie awake at night,
Asking God to get you off my mind.]
I love you, my angel of the light…
