Monday, July 24, 2006

  hello there.
As you can see, my otaku has been deleted but not by me. soo im hoping to get a new layout soon.

Life in the summer time has been ok yet boring. With my Mom out of work and with a broken ankle, im the only one that can drive. Yes yes i have a permit. :D

Now what happened that day in June was my mom was coming down the stairs to go to the bathroom at 4:30 AM. usual routine. and there was a ball on the stairs. she slipped, landed on the ball, and fell down 2 steps and broke the ankle inward. I woke up because i heard her yell in pain. She called the ambulance and i had to watch her be taken away as my brother sleeps away. AND i had school that same day! Grrrr... so stayed up, showered and continued on with the day. When i got home from school, i found my Aunt there from upstate New York. Apparently she drove 8 hours down here to New Jersey while i was at school to take care of me, my brother, and our cat. A few days later we went to see my mom and she had gotten surgery and she was released to go home. But had to wear a cast for 8 weeks. so basically Both of our summers were shot.

So now in July, ive been increasingly losing contact with Kate and Nikki. And Stef too. i rarely see her anymore and she lives 5 minutes away. go figure. anyways, Jen has been anti-social so i dont get to see her. And the only fun i get to have is the Mall on fridays.

Now its middle to end of July and things are not getting better or worse. so its all good for now. I've been talking to this girl called Katie for a while now. And she had to go to Colorado for 3 weeks or so for parents re-uniting. I miss her very so cuz shes one of the few that i talk to. everyone else is on vacation, dead(not literally), or sleeping.

AND now August was promised to be better. My dad is coming in august. *My mom and dad divorced when i was 5* but i was old enough to knew what that ment. I wont see him like i used to. Its like once a year he comes. Most in the Summer. few during spring break. Anyways He lives in California and like i said, we rarely see him. My brother and I always wait for him to come visit and we're always happy when he does. He gives us to around 20-50 dollars when he comes. But sadly ive lost almost everything for him. Expect my love will and always stay because he is my biological father. My mom never remarried. But as it seems... i dont call him 'Dad' or Gian - which is his first name, I call him Double D. For any of you that saw the cartoon Ed, Edd, and Eddy. Edd was christened Double D. and he was a smart one indeed. My dad has a PhD and so Double D is how he got his name.

I found out something very saddening today too. I found out he wont be coming afterall. That hes too busy or has to travel. I dont have much boyhood memories with him. Just a few Xmas's when he was here and that year in Florida when there was a thunderstorm. thats why i remember that night so well. Lightning and thunder and rain. That was out last time together as a family before he had his mental breakdown and broke into the house and tried to kill my grandmother. She never forgave him for that and she died never forgiving him.

*Sigh...* This was the longest rant i believe i've written. And it was because i read Chloe's otaku about how much fun she had with her dad. To those of you that made it this far in reading my evry word. congrats.

I'm not gonna sleep yet and its like 4:30 AM. Im just gonna roam around and think and yea...
Good day to the rest of you.


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