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• Being very tall
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• FullMetal Alchemist
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• Being taller then all of my friends
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Saturday, October 21, 2006
Hesistant
I do realize i dont update much often. :/ perhaps its because of school or laziness. Whatever the reason, its like once a month or not at all.
Schools great. I'm a Junior in high school and my grades are surprisingly good... for now. A's and B's.
How are all you doing? Ever since my otaku account was hacked and it got deleted, i've slowly stopped paying attention. but i'm trying to keep everyone happy by at least updating once or twice now and then.
"Keeping everyone happy" pshh its a thing i cant ever acclomplish.. ever. so why do i bother, why do i care so much? i can't find the reason(s).
*sigh*
random rant i know but. i cant find the courage to go talk to some people. I'm afraid of getting beat up or yelled/screamed at. Tho i probably deserve it. No, I know i deserve it. I see them during school and cant shake the feeling that they're mad everytime they see my face. Even after school as well. Some nights before going to sleep i try to think of what i will do the next day. One thought occured where i would go up to this person and apologize. but as my mind took it, the person listened and then punched me so hard. now i'm thinking now it would be a bit extreme, but i was seriously scared of anything like that happening. so i let my mind get the best of me again and ended up wishing i can do it from afar. everyday. Its been months now. Im driving myself crazy with the reoccuring thoughts.
*shakes head in frustration*
Another holiday is coming up, as many of you know its halloween. MY dad is coming the weekend before halloween. (As some of you may know, my parents are divorced so i only see him once or twice a year) And he'll be staying for less then a week. so i happy and sad about that.
And here is a video that i hope is nice. it may sound like no sound will be at first but dont be fooled.
*waves slowly* bye.
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