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Friday, February 2, 2007
 Right, right at this moment, I feel so horrible. I can not describe just how horrible I feel, its uncanny, I don't understand it.
Yesterday I felt to free, so light, like I had wings. I hadn't been that happy in so long, it was because I felt like i cut those lingering attactments to the 'darkness' that bogged me down, that chained me to the earth. I felt good...
Even going into today, I was freakin happy man. Smiling like I've never smiled before, and now next thing I know with in seconds it all comes crashing down, and now I feel those chains around my wrist, holding me down, but this time they are tighter, now that I know the freedom, it has to keep me down hold me closer.
...I'm scared. I really am. I feel like I am losing everything, I feel like there is nothing left. But I know that there is something out there for me, I just can't see it.
I don't understand myself. I can't place where I am at. I don't understand why I am holding on to them, when all they case is alot of pain for me. W
I want to go, I can't wait until I leave, I like it when I move...alot. I never understood how hard it was to settle 'down'.
Its interesting, I never had to retain a relationship for this long, with anyone, I'm so confused...I don't know what to do...
I don't want to be that sad 'emo' person that I was, that I sometimes am...I want to see that I have a future, but its so hard when you feel like you have no one to support you. Its strange...I don't think I ever opened up so much on this site before...
I don't know what emotions are running through me besides fear...right now, and i have to sat its making me so sick right now.
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