Monday, January 10, 2005

Waiting for u
The water washes away the years
the waves wash away my tears
ive cried for years
sitting on this foggy pier
waiting for u to come back to me
u promised we would be wed
but u deserted me instead
i no u did not mean to
for the other members of the crew
are still somewhere out there with u
i never thought id have to say this
but i think the sandy floor
which i used to adore
is where u lay
tonight ill send out a candle
to pay my last respects to the one i did and always will love
i no ur up in the heavens above
never will i forget u
and soon ill join u there
but i no u would want me to live for both of us
I will try with all my heart
ill stick to my books and art
but there are two things i i refuse to do
even for u
I refuse to find another man
I won't move to a different land
for this is the only soil i know
but i do know
that i will never let u go
and i will be there after a million tomorows
ill be counting...

yes, yet again i am writing of something i have never experiened
:) i started out going to write about the ocean but...my mind wandered, my next one will be ocean though!! (im at least doing one poem a day and/ or song
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ideas!
could u guys give me ideas on what my next poem souild be about (yes, ill make more on topics i piuc, but i want to make sur everyone likes at least SOME of the topics i write about!!!)
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Sunday, January 9, 2005

the beginnings of my first song worth posting...
as im in this black sea
i realize this will be the end of me
a foot away lies the key to set me free, but just like everything, it's out of reach

it's almost as if, u dont expect me to try!!!!!
do u just expect me to sit here and die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i refuse to just die
i refuse to cryyyy
and if i die
at least i tried

as im in this sea of black
my hands are tied behind my back
just like all other times, i must work with no good luck
because the way to get away is what i lack

its almost as if u dont want me to try!!!!!!!
do u anticipate me to sit here and die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i refuse to just die
and i refuse to cryyy
and if i die
at least i tried!!!

i am still working on it so that isn't the end, but plz tell me what u think and what i should change around!!!
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pictures
if u want to see some of my pictures, just request it, cuz as soon as my scanner is hooked up, ill be able to put them on :) (then ill have a picture for my coments too)
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A fire burning in my heart
The embers soar and spark
filling my heart that was
once empty and dark
I felt depressed and deflated
but now i am filled
with a flaming hatred
every word u try to say
to make up for what u did
doesn't mean a thing
because of what u previously hid
u filled my head
with foggy dreamy thoughts
said u loved me
but now i have been taught
the lesson i have learned
is not to hear ur snikkering lies
how could i have let u
pull a sheet over my eyes
now u try to tell me
that uve just made a big mistake
that now im the only one
that u do and always will love me a ton
but its over, its ended
clearness and truth fills my head
if u persist, it will just make me
want u dead
leave me alone
go out on ur own
start a new life
find urself a wife
i dont care what u do
just make sure watever path u choose
does NOT include me

i have actually nvr been in a relationship, but when i think of how i WOULD feel if someone did this kind of thing to me, words fill my brain, and i become able to write it down
*creative minds, uve gotta love um* :)
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   quizilla
i have been doing various quizzes on quizila, and the funy part is, i am various things (only a select few quizzes only had one answer that suited me) for ex: hair color, blue, green, white
eye color:blue, purple, green, grey....many more im just such a contridicting person, i like all kinds of music, colors, elements, everything, but im depressed, hyper, brave, shy, ignorant, wise, and all this other shit in one, one thing is for sur though im me!!...
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   Chapter one, this book isn't named yet, i no theyre are grammar mistakes, going to correct them when i done with book how do u like it?

the night is young, but thesky is an endless pit of black. The frosty bite of cold has already crept into ther air; it feels like a warm summer day to me. My name is Brea, and i am a vampire.

My name was not always Brea, but how i recieved that name i do not wish to speak of. Maybe one day someone will find out, but that will not be ne time soon, and not from my fanged jaw. I will tell you this though, the things humans think about vampires are not exactly correct. Vampires can walk in the sun if they relly want to. It will not burn them, it only gives tem a bad head ache. so most prefer not to.If your eyesight was five million times as good as it is right now, the light from the sun would give you a head ache also. A stake throught the heart will not kill us, garlic and crosses will not keep us away, and our souls still remain the same as when we walked the earth as mortals.

We do stay away from garlic, but not because it hurts us, only because our sense of smell is much more acute than human's, so it smells about 250 million times as strong. We stay away from crosses and churches because it reminds us religious ones, or ones who believed in god as mortals, that we have sinned by killing people many times, for our survival, but done it just the same.

I must admit that I have killed many a human, and regretted it, yet every night i stalk a new prey, and add a person to that long list. Vampires are not the only "myths, fairytales" that huma nsare correct about, but do not know very well. There are werewolves, dragons, whitches and wizards. I have met many, and am friends with a small few, but like most vampoires, i like to keep to myself.Vampires wear black only for the first hundred years of there almost immortal lives. They do this because they are mourning for all of the people they knew, before they changed, for those people do die within those one-hundred years. I finished wearing black one-hundred years ago, for I am exactly two hundred years old today, Friday, November 1, 2004. Two hundred years, a long time in human lives, but still considered young for my kind.
I am considered very powerful, though young, and eat whomever I want. I do not fear anyone, for to fear the ones stronger then I would be to stop living. If I yield to them, I will have lost, and I learned long ago not to loose.
As I walk down the street I see a stupid scatterbrained human reading, walking, and getting lost all at the same time. I wait for her to turn into a dead end, and then I walk silently, always silently, toward her. I draw out my fangs and its over within seconds, I am not crewel, I do not rip at her, and she doesn’t feel a thing.
After feeding, I slip away, unnoticed, back to my house. When light comes, I put on a blood red tank top and midnight black jeans, not one thread or white. I slip a see through long sleeve black shirt over top of the tank top, and look in the mirror, unlike what people think, we can see our reflections perfectly well, they think we can not because we “don’t have souls” or “have evil souls” but since that isn’t true… I look at my long brown hair, chalk white skin, which used to be light brown, and greenish hazel eyes.
I could change how I look with just a thought, if I wanted I could make myself have the darkest skin on the planet and inhuman- which I am- red eyes. When I go out in the day, I usually change my skin back to what it was, so, with a thought, it is done.


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Saturday, January 8, 2005

my first posted poem!
so majesticly they bound
over rough and jagged terrain
so intricate their features
that we see as so plain
They rule the woods
with an iron fist
ending foods' lives
with a painful, wreching twist
When we hear the word "wolf"
we think of violence and murder
but relly they are just like us
killing for nurishment just like us
caring for others just like us
intelligent just like us
taking in infants just like us
why do we hate and fear them so much?
killing them and sending them away and such?
What have they done to us
that we would not have done
in the same situation?
ask urself, who makes the most destruction? us
Wolves; never taking more than they need, ruling the forests with no greed
never underestimate a wolf
never belief those tales of their having greedy, bloody jaws
never believe those stories of their having huge blood-stained claws
eyes hazel and honey, lustrious fur of black, slilver, grey, gold and white
why would ne one want to destroy this precious sight?

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   hey, im new
hi, i like wolves, am a wolf, black wolf serena is my friend so plz visit her site too...eventually i hope to have a relly cool site, but for now... just keep comming... im writing a book so if u request it ill put it on (chapter by chapter) have fun!
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