Saturday, September 11, 2010

I'm so sick of the rut I'm stuck in. Everyday I go to go classes, work, and home to cook/clean/chill. Sad I never do anything out of the norm. I found out Friday that Louisianime was this weekend. I've never been to an anime con YET. I think the closest ones are in Louisiana: MechaCon in August and Louisianime this weekend. ;0; I am pleased to know that Memphis, TN will only be an hour away when I move to Oxford, but there's only one convention in Memphis. What to do, what to do. I was jealous because some people I know went all the way to Atlanta for the DragonCon. >o< I miss out on everything. The town's annual flea market is coming up in October. I hope it's on my birthday so I can take off! <3 I just want a weekend off to do something spontaneous and unexpected! But alas, I'm stuck at work, working 8 hours on both Saturday and Sunday, oh yeah, and Friday. -___- It sucks more that there's never someone to fill in for you. We're lucky if we actually get all the shifts filled. There's always someone who has to do something. *sighs*

Can I rant about something else? Money. I hate it. Actually, I hate people who have horrible money management. This family probably spends about 800 dollars, excluding bills, per month. Know what most of that is? 400 in groceries, 400 for Dad's cigarettes and beer. Did you know an average smoker will spend 300 dollars on cigs a month? Thank MY AWESOMENESS NOT TO CAVE IN TO PEER PRESSURE. Who in the world would waste money on something so pointless like beer and cigarettes? I can have JUST as much fun drinking soda than I can beer. Gah. It's so hard to support this family. I'm busting my ass to make 800 a month, my brother makes 300 a month. Sucks so badly because I want to save money for myself in the future, like when I go study abroad! I want to establish a credit. I want to fix my car. I want to live life in ease without financial stress. I should make a recipe book and leave it when I move out. . . .

Anywho. I did a scholarship contest yesterday. I want to do more, but you know what's a turnoff? The fact that you have to provide a phone number and all these education companies call you like 5 times a day!! I tried using a 555 number but it doesn't work. I want scholarships, free money. I had a nightmare the other night that I owed a million dollars from student loans. IT WAS HORRIBLE. T____T
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Tuesday, September 7, 2010

WORD. IT TOOK A WHOLE WEEK TO FIND A FITTING BACKGROUND FOR THE AWESOME MUSIC VIDEO. I'm happy I found one now. :)

Something is up with me lately. I'm always tired. I feel out of place with everyone at classes. Makes me sad. ]: I think I've been lacking on my Home Made Kazoku music.

I sent in my Ole Miss application with 35 bucks. <3 Now I have to wait for it to get accepted then fill out my housing application with 75 bucks. I think I'm going to go for the small dorm that actually have a toilet in each room. I don't know how I'm going to survive with communal showers, ugh. I'm scared of the dorms. I want a room to myself! ;__; Or at least an awesome roommate! What sucks badly is that today in Karate I learned how TONS of my friends are transferring to Southern Miss. Ironic because Southern Miss was my first college choice and Ole Miss was my last resort, but then I saw how Ole Miss has the perfect major for my career and a HUGE study abroad program! Southern does not have Linguistics; they do have Foreign Language degrees but it's only for French, Spanish, Arabic, German, Portuguese, Latin, and Greek. No Japanese, Korean, or Italian!! Sadness. My Karate friend could have been my perfect roommate. *cries* Now I have to do potluck! I have horrible luck.

Also, I'm starting to regret eHarmony. I made my account, and I have over 60 matches, but the more I look at my matches, the more sad I get. I thought about futile it is. Even if I do find a great guy on there, there is absolutely no way I would EVER move and sacrifice my goals for a relationship, and I would feel horrible if a guy did that for me. Know what I'm saying?
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Thursday, September 2, 2010

Listening To: "Shawty" by Chemistry
Mood: Annoyed!

Lately my computer has been on the fritz. iTunes is proving to be the main problem since it won't respond to me after awhile. Then I found out I can't reboot or shut off from my control panel when I tried to reboot to make iTunes work again. I just shut it off manually instead, but of course, I couldn't get back to my desktop, so I had to do a system restore. When I got back my toolbar had changed to this horrible thing where it shows icons only and has a scroll bar on it! It's still acting funny too. I want to completely restore my computer, but I haven't backed my files at all and that means I'll lose my 350 songs and my pictures. ~___~ If I do manage to get my files on a disk, I'll do a restore. Don't want my Dad to know. He thinks all the programs we have are junk that shouldn't be on there. I keep running scans but they can't find anything wrong. =|

Anywho, I was very sad yesterday because the girl who just started there a couple of months ago put her two week notice in. We just became super awesome friends too! ]': Funny thing is that day my friend who hasn't seen me in ages may come back to work! He also told me that he's going to enroll back into college and plans on *drum rolls* Teach English as a Foreign Language! I told him about it a month ago and I guess he's been looking into it. I'm so happppy! The only problem is that there's a two year gap between our studies, so it's going to be awhile til he can teach with me. :3 That is if he keeps going with it. Knowing him and his spontaneous ideas, he's not going to stick with it. . . guess we'll see. :)

Oh yeah! I've been getting so many matches on eHarmony now! xD One actually wants to communicate with me. I can't though since I'm on the free trial. Can't look at pictures either, but I can facebook. Hehe.

Oh snap, so close to Karate class time. >o< Toodles!


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Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Listening to: "Wondeful" -- Big Bang
Mood: depressed

Gah, lately I've been so.. isolated. You know that feeling where you're surrounded by people yet you still feel lonely as hell. I don't really feel like that classes, just at home is where it hits me. Ever since I've been dealing with this crush too! I can't stand it!

Also, I have been wanting to move out sooo much. I'm tired of cooking dinner every night. Tired of worrying about bills. Tired of babying this family. Tired of stepping out of the way for people to make them happy. No one ever does anything for me. I'm devastated. I just want to go forward 4 months to senior college and living in the dorms with a new xbox... all by myself.

Ranting. -__- Sorry.
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Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Listening To: Big Bang -- "Somebody To Luv"
Mood: Neutral

I can not get back into classes to save my life. I just don't feel like studying or anything. ~0~ The only thing I look forward to right now is Karate on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and Human Growth on Mondays and Wednesdays since I get to work on my Korean in there. Hm.. I went back on my vitamins after I got fed up being exhausted all the time. I hope it gives me some energy. I need it so badly. >O<

I've also been working on my Ole Miss application for the Spring semester. All I need is the money for the application fee. Working on my December graduation application, but I have to meet with my advisor before I turn it in. I've been scholarship and grant hunting too. I found a great scholarship contest I want to try my hand at. Still looking for this site/foundation that gave out TONS of grants for people who are need-based that want to study abroad. I freakin lost the site though. -__- I HAVE to find it again!!! Anyone got any good scholarship/grant sources, contests?

Finances have been rough around here. Don't have enough to pay the cable bill this month. ]: I was looking forward to fixing my sweet mustang but that's going to have to wait longer. My brother has an important appointment tomorrow with the oral surgeon. (Yeah, more bills.) Just looking towards November when we get refund checks. >__< Then December with graduation, and January I go BYE BYEEEEE from this house and out on my own. I can't wait to get out on my own.

On a side note, LOVE SUUUCKS. I was experiencing unrequited love for a couple of weeks. Kind of made me depressed... but I ended up losing sight of my life goals, and it also made me sick to my stomach cause of anxiety. I haven't crushed that hard in ages. Think I'm over it though. I just go through the whole, "He's out of your league, not for you, he's not worth it, he's a party animal," ya know, stuff like that. At least I did talk to him, unlike avoid him at all costs. I use to avoid people I liked at all costs so I wouldn't make an idiot out of myself somehow.

Anywho, I'm off to find lunch. Have a great day, week you guys! :)
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Thursday, August 19, 2010

Listening to: "Addicted to Love" by w-inds
Mood: Tired, hungry

Hello! I really meant to update here earlier but ya know how life likes to throw hammers into your plans. ;) Don't you love the new background? It matches so well with the video. xD

So classes started back up Monday. I was very excited~ (was being the keyword). I got an easy semester I think, but it's also so.dang.boring. Let's see, Microcomputer Applications, Intro to Marine Science and Lab, Human Growth and Development, Spanish 3, and Karate. Computer and Intro is no problem. Human Growth and Development is torture because the teacher talks soooooooooo sloooooooow. Well, it's not that he really talks slow, it's just that he has these LONG pauses between his sentences. Torture. Luckily I get to work on my Korean in there. <3 It keeps me alive! Also, I can't stand Spanish anymore. I absolutely dread the class. I feel lost in there too, mainly because I don't care and I can't remember it that well.

Karate is awesome like usual. <3 I want to say there's about... 8-10 of old students and tons of new students. I'm very sad that it's going to be my last semester; I hope I can at least get to red or brown before Christmas. My oldest brother also enrolled this year. He's one belt lower than us. <.< The only thing I don't like is that if my brothers do get into a fight with each other, it's going to get nasty. I'm worried that Karate is only going to fuel my brother's temperament. =__=

Anywho. Lately I'm been experiencing insomnia, stomachaches, low-grade fever, and nausea. I want it to go away. ;__; I feel like going to the doctor an getting a shot. I'm scared it's that egg salmonella that's in the nation right now. Won't eat eggs until they say it's safe either. (Although I don't know how I'll stay away from them..)

Anyway, I'll try to get around and comment~ Other than that I need to go search for something to eat. I'm starved.
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Hello again! Thanks for the comments GoodMonkey and DarkWolfDemon. ^0^ Good to know people are sticking around MyO.

I wasn't go to post today but I found some interesting things, just a few.

Lately I've been going through financial troubles: bills, debts, and unexpected incidents. Took my brother to the dentist cause he was having toothaches. Cost me a hundred bucks and turns out he has to have oral surgery. I went to work to tell my boss that I couldn't take my 3 day vacation because I just can't afford to take 24 hours off. She told me that since I've been working there for 2 years, she's going to give me a 3 day paid vacation. Very relieving~

In other different... findings. Have you seen the commercials for this the show called "The Colony" which is suppose to air on the Discovery channel. Turns out they took a bunch of people and dumped them in an abandoned town and told them they're "trying to survive a post-apocalyptic world." Know where the abandoned town is? Chalmette, Louisiana. I USE TO LIVE THERE BEFORE THE HURRICANE. I lived across the highway from where they're filming. I think that whole neighborhood as been abandoned though, makes me sad. Sounds like an embarrassing, seriously scripted show to me.
Anywho. I'm off to find lunch and go to work. Bye bye!
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Sunday, August 8, 2010

I want to start updating here more often~ so here am I! x3

Even though I have moved to TheO (Yes, I'm a traitor) I don't usually post on my world there. I post weekly on the Love[Asia]Music world Jae and I created. Otherwise, I don't update on my life like how I use to. I got sad with MyO long ago because it felt deserted and lonely. Then Adam went and did a server change and MyO wouldn't cooperate with me, but then I switched browsers, so now it's okay. I still see about 3 people updating here, lol.

Err so my life? I've been balancing between work and household chores lately, like usual, like I have been for the past years now. I've been plenty of hours at work, so it's good.

The household is okay. Dad's trying to get a BP related job through his brother-in-law. He got an expensive phone for it, but he's still on standby. I have a feeling he got his hopes high once again. My brother is getting his temper back. My twin brother is as addicted to WoW as my other brother. I have two adult cats, two teenage cats/kittens, and two teeny, cute kittens. I think we may get rid of the two adults and teenages, and one kitten; keep one kitten. We have a problem because some of the cats are getting up on the kitchen counters and eating our food. My stupid brother keeps getting violent with one in particular. Anywho.

College has been AWESOME. I just got done with 4 summer classes a couple of weeks ago. All I have left at my community college is 7 credit hours until I get to graduate; sadly I need 12 hours to get financial aid, so I had to register for more classes. I plan on going to Ole Miss for Spring semester, which means I move out in December~~ Also, I HOPE SO MUCH to get into and afford the study abroad program so I can go to South Korea next summer for a month. <3 I plan on majoring in Linguistics when I transfer. It's a good shortcut to teaching English with a degree, means I don't have to take the PRAXIS exam. After I graduate I plan on going abroad to South Korea and Japan to teach English as a second language. ^o^ I soooo can't wait!

Annnd what else? I can't think of anything else. >O< Until next time? :P
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Oooooh. Now my introduction let's me write in it. Maybe it wasn't getting along with Firefox? (I switched to Google Chrome.)

So who still uses MyO?
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Friday, June 18, 2010

Gah! My myotaku is practically broken. ]< It really really, really limits my introduction. Don't think it takes codes anymore. I can't put a video in it anymore nor my chat. Bet it won't get fixed either.
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