Sunday, November 1, 2009

Raaawr. Time of the month sucks. I lost three hours today because I just knew I wasn't going to be able to make it to the end of my shift. Dang cramps were slaughtering my stomach. Also I didn't get a chance to eat this delicious looking hamburger. . . Thank goodness I've been picking up extra hours.

Last night I worked the double shift. 9Am to 10pm. I shall say now, I ain't doing that again for another couple of months. Thank timing for the extra hour of sleep.

No chance of going to Baton Rouge for the seminar. I'm down to 80 bucks which needs to last for 2 weeks. Don't think we'll need to worry about food for awhile since my brother and I did some very good grocery shopping. I was amazed to only 180 dollars on groceries, we usually spend about 250. I certainly hope we're coming out of the recession like it was said. As for the seminar, we're gonna wait til next year. It breaks my heart but priorities come first. . . like new shoes.

I need to eat super badly. It's been 24 hours since I've eaten. I want to eat now but my stomach hurts so badly that I lose my appetite. ;___; Such cruelty.

Oh yes, Happy late Birthday to Roxas. I forgot to get minutes the other day so still no texty for me.
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Thursday, October 29, 2009

Okay so hopefully this MV stays up longer. I forgot that youtube was going to be using their evil ban hammer with copyrights and delete a bunch of videos.

Today is hot and windy. TONS of leaves are falling everywhere. It's really pretty. :] I love Fall.

Sadly I don't have time to appreciate nature much cause I have to call the IRS today. DUN DUN DUN. I need to get a statement from them for my student loan stuff. I'm kinda scared. They're intimidating. <__< Fraid they may send their minions after me. . . really I'm worried that the stuff won't get there by Friday, and we'll be screwed. Then Dad won't ever let it go. Can't wait til I'm an independent. Rawr.

I have to wait til tomorrow's check to see if I can go to Baton Rouge or not. Depends on the bills and stuff, ya know.

Also, I'm working a double on Halloween. 12 hours. Eck. Least I'm not doing pizza that night.
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Wednesday, October 28, 2009

So bad of me to update just to show off my new intro video. It's a brand spanking new MV released just hours ago. They are so fine in this video!

*ahem*

In other news, my brother and I started discussing that 3 day Martial Arts Seminar with Dad. He's considering letting us go, but he needs to think about it first. It all depends. Oooo I want to go SO badly.

Roxas, I'll get the number, but for right now my phone is off til I get more minutes this Friday hopefully. And how exactly to you think I'll get to Denver to play with you?! x]
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Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Well I think I'm back to normal. It's getting rough and sketchy because now my brother is running out of savings. We were planning on using some of it for a 3 day seminar in Baton Rouge, about 200 exactly, but that's how much he has left. We need that for backup money for food, bills, and other damn expenses. It seriously kills me because I wanted to use the trip as a getaway from this cursed place. Seriously, fuck this place. Hate it so fucking much. Know what, we're totally using that money. Maybe when they discover that we actually don't have money, they'll pull themselves together and actually do some hardcore job hunting. Right now they're pretty much just waiting for a job to land in their laps. When I think about it, this is our last chance to actually do something adventurous and fun before doing a head dive back into stressville.

Gotta go do laundry.

**EDIT**
Okay, so I need to think on it way more carefully. I try so hard to have fun but it's so hard down here. Nothing to do really. =\ Guess I'll have to wait til next year for the seminar.

Oh yeah, Dad is still being freakin stubborn over my FAFSA. ITS DUE THIS FRIDAY! THATS THE LAST DAY! I submitted my FAFSA, as a dependent, regardless of what he believes I am. Now he's gonna have to get a statement from the IRS. I know he's gonna give me Hell on Earth when he finds out the deadline is this Friday.
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Friday, October 23, 2009

I give up. I was happy for a little while but then when I go to have fun, someone always fucking ruins it for me. I get yelled at over nothing or for not doing enough. Think I'm just gonna become this damn household's maid and do every cleaning job that keeps me occupied and keep this people out of my face. Plus I'll pick up more hours so I can stay from this hellhole, which may not help cause work had become a hellhole in itself.

Seems like I can never be happy.
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Monday, October 19, 2009

Argh.


Listening To: "Love Like This" by SS501

Time Start: 3:55 PM

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Lately I've been quite. . . sad. Dad's been dissing on us the past days cause we don't hold conversations with him every waking moment. It gets very annoying and frustrating. The last night my dad and I got home from grocery shopping, I looked around and saw everyone playing on computers and video games while I cooked and clean. Plus I had to spend ALL my money on groceries when I seriously need shoes before the actual cold weather hits us. We also haven't paid any bills yet, so that means my brother is gonna have to dig into his savings to pay, the savings we're gonna use for the Martial Arts trip.

We're about to hit a serious financial pit hole. My brother's girlfriend filed a application at a temp job association, but I doubt she'll get any good hits in the next month or so. Food stamps would greatly, but Dad really can't file because if he processes the deed on the house then the IRS is gonna put a lean on it, and he can't put it in our name cause then we lose financial aid. Yeah, real freakin rut. If everyone in the house had jobs, we wouldn't be having these problems.

As for me, I know I'm surrounded by people who love me, but I still feel so lonely. I have no one I can just share myself with personally.

FML. I have to go peel shrimp which takes forever. Plus I need to do laundry.

For you people's info, I will be around a whole lot less. I need to start picking up more hours at work to cover for household things.

Til next time. :|
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Saturday, October 17, 2009

Argh.


Listening To: ---

Time Start: 8:42 PM

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Sorry I haven't been on in awhile. Just too tired, lazy, and busy to do anything free these days. Usually I try to spend most of my free time playing FFX-2, but that's still rare considering how much Dad watches TV.

So how's the weather on your side? It's been super cold here. It dropped to high 50's today, right now it's 48 degrees. What happened to Fall weather? It was only here for a week. ]:

My brother started Kingdom Hearts 2 yesterday. For some odd reason I always thought Roxas was from a Final Fantasy, but I guess not. Also, Axel is a cool smexy beast. Hehe.

As for now, I'm working on a couple of drawings for a contest. Then there's a huge International HanMuDo Training Seminar in Baton Rouge on the 6th, 7th, and 8th of November, hundred bucks for one day of training. The other days we help the founder's wife clean up. I'm hoping I can get off by taking pictures of the seminar, or else I'll bug her to teach me Korean. The only problem I see is that I work a total of 15 hours on that weekend, so that means I have to tell my boss to find me a replacement, plus find a way to make up the 15 hours. Rawr. I'm so lazy.

Anywho, I'm off. Maybe to sleep. It's been an exhausting day.

I don't know about commenting. Sorry if I don't. Too tired. T^T

Time End -- 9:06 PM


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Wednesday, October 14, 2009

The Rain Brings Many Bad Things


Listening To: Loves comes and goes -- M-Flo loves Emily, Ryohei, Yoshika, and Lisa

Time Start: 10:08 AM

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GAAAAAH! I wasn't even awake when bad things started happening.

I overslept my Spanish class. Then I woke up at 10, which is when my Psychology class starts. I didn't wake on my own though. The damn closet is not leaking, it's practically a waterfall in there. Half of Dad's clothes got wet. The huge box where I keep all my winter clothes got wet. Dad saw though and he said he's gonna fix it when it stops raining. which will be Friday. Ugh.

So I got dressed anyway for Psychology class. Better late than never. Sadly when I went to go find one of the two umbrellas, I could find neither of them. Freakin pouring down raining and it's like a mile between my car and the building. I just gave up, and here I am now.

I'm hoping the rain lets up before 12, I do need to go Biology class for a test.

Rain needs to go away. I don't like rain anymore. Bad things always happen to me when it rains!

Time End -- 10:17


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Tuesday, October 13, 2009

I Need A Stress Ball and a Pillow


Listening To: Totoro's Theme (My Neighbor Totoro)

Time Start: 5:35 PM

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Ugh. Well today had its full of ups and downs.

This morning I had to take my brother's Chevy Blazer to school. Thing is my damn foot barely reaches the peddle and I had no clue had to scoot the seat up, then the seat was made of leather so I had to hold on to the steering wheel for life while trying to drive. I figured it out though on the way back home.

When I got to school I went straight to the library to print out my essay but there was no computers open. After waiting 5 minutes someone left, but I was nearly late for class. Turned out only 3 people out of 20 had their rough drafts ready, so we exchanged papers and peer edited. Then I had the teacher recheck mine, and she said it was probably one of the best papers in the class. Win there, Win.

Went to the library and did my Biology reading for extra credit. Headed to boring World Civ. Went home for lunch. I barely saw police lights over the hill on the way home but turned the hill away from it thinking nothing of it. When I was going back to class for Karate, turns out those lights were a checkpoint, and I was heading straight into it. I had my license and everything, but the damn cop gave me a nasty attitude about me driving my brother's truck that had a Wyoming tag on it. Dad had already given me trouble before class and my lack of sleep was hanging on me, so I was pretty upset. I finally broke when I got to class and realized I left my money to take the rank test at home.

I went home, switched vehicles, made sure to stay away from the checkpoint, and went back to class. I did get promoted to yellow belt, so yaaay. Now I'm really aiming for the red belt, it's soooo pretty. It's a dark dark red. I really like the red belt.

Anywho. I'm still in the slumps a little. I need to vent somehow and do something fun. =\

Time End -- 5:56 PM


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Monday, October 12, 2009

What to Do. . .


Listening To: Dress -- Abingdon Boys School

Time Start: 10:13 PM

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Why is it that when I come home from a fun day of work with the coworkers, Dad ruins it by being a pms'ing mother? I came home and he went all. . . grrrr because I walked to work and didn't tell him plus I bailed on dinner to work on my essay that's due tomorrow. Now he's being super depressed because he has a feeling that the kid with cancer on my half cousin's side has died, it's sad but it's only a feeling. I'd be worried, not depressed. Oh gawd, he's crying.

Anywho, I finished my essay today. I was having such a baaad time with it yesterday, but then I tried again during classes and wrote the whole thing. I couldn't believe how easily my thoughts flowed when I did my essay during classes compared to how it goes when I try at home. I nearly pull my hair out at home. O:

Gah, dad's going off again. Me gone to play Dirge of Cerberus. :D

I gots a Karate rank test tomorrow. . . and I need to do a Biology reading for extra credit. . . rawr. I gots bad feeling.

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