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myOtaku.com: wolf of sorrow


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Sorry if you caught my last post. Depression can be quite maddening and make you say and do out of character and exaggerated things. My depression has cooled down to more of the cautious, distant attitude for now.

You may ask, "What the heck is going on?" Well, I worked eight hours yesterday and came home to no dinner. Of course, Dad was expecting me to make dinner, so I did to my dismay. Then I could never just sit down and relax, I kept having to clean and do other things for the people around here. My dad even made me wash the dog at 10 at night! It infuriated me. I come home from an eight hour shift, no one has done anything, they just sit around and have fun, and I have to come home and do more cleaning. Know how fucking depressing and annoying that is?! Dad told me he tried to talk my brothers into helping me, saying how I work long hours just to clean and cook for them, and they do nothing to help. Sadly, they both got pissed off. One stormed to his room and the other defended himself by saying he takes out the trash and does his laundry. Whatever.

Then today, I was hoping to get on Xbox Live. I forgot that the router is broken and that my older brother has his internet connected straight to modem, so I can't play Live. So, I just got depressed and went to clean. Surprisingly enough, my brothers helped me clean the table. That was cool, no matter how much I hate to admit it. Awkward too. . .

I dunno. I feel hopeless sometimes, like I have no right to enjoy myself. It's painful to see others enjoy themselves while you work your butt off to at least enjoy some of that too.

I'll be super happy if I get the chance to go to the theaters and watch Ninja Assassin this weekend, but I doubt it. . .
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