Monday, January 2, 2006

Drunken fun
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Heh, well last night was new years. YEAR OF THE DOG!!! -howls- Yeah, I know it is still year of the Cock cause it hasn't been the Chinese new year yet but. DOGGY XD hehe Well hung out at marks all night. -see other MyOtaku for post- heh ^^;; PM me if you don't have it. Now onto my pets heh boredom I got bored for this icon. The bottom used to say DAMN that boy was hott!! XD so I changed it, due to friends request.

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Saturday, December 31, 2005

Commisons
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I bet I misspelled that but oh well. RSB- Working on LBR- DONE (PM ME) Zappa- DONE NBM- DONE (PM ME) If anyone else wants one let me know. ^^ I will be glad to make them one. It helps keep my mind off of things. Okay I get a bit Carried away now XD SEE XD

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Friday, December 30, 2005

I'm getting bored
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I have an open art thingy. So if anyone wants a little pet like the ones Seth made. I can help out and make 'em too. A friend is letting me use their templates so if you want one. I can do, wolves, Foxes, horses, Sabers, lions, and a bear. Examples OPEN Rain Storm Blood -Working on LBR- FINISHED (PM ME) Zappa- FINISHED NBM- Working on

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Thursday, December 29, 2005

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-really emo post- I've hurt and ruined two people's lives yesterday... new record for me... I knew something bad would happen... I guess this is it... just make a mark on the board of bad christmas seasons. Namid: -comes over and nuzzles tala- Alright, thank you for pointing it out namid.. I've hurt and ruined three peoples lives... and killed one of those peoples spirit to love again... namely me. namid: -looks down shaking head- What? I donno, I love one other person that isn't family and that I know personally. But that'll never happen she even has a B/f so why try. My mind is telling me to give up, and just lay down and sleep... but my body won't let that happen.. my heart won't let it happen... because it's been tourn open and salt has spilled into it. I tried to love again... while I was still healing from what I did in september... -shakes head- I ended up causing more hurt to myself and the person I tried to love. I felt I had to end it... now I'm hurting more than ever cause I am just wanting to run off and never come back. I know I could do it... I eat raw meat so -shrugs- i can live in the wild. Let a hunter kill me like the animal I am. Namid: -licks cheek and nuzzles lightly- I... nevermind... I just want to lay down and sleep. I can't... I can't allow myself to. I can't sleep even know I want to. My heart, mind, and body has many things to fight over right now. I don't know if this will be my last for a while... all I can promise is that if you wish to hear from me... calling would be the best way to contact me... cause I don't really want contact with anyone else, unless I am at work. So I'll be in my room until I've recovered from my heart. Ushicon might be a no go for me now... -just lays in a huddled ball on the floor- Namid: Forgive Tala... she's going through times... I just hope this lesson has taught her to look before she leaps. Namid -growls- shut up -throws rock at him- Namid: -darts off- -TK

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Wednesday, December 28, 2005

One year memory
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Like I said, I will be a bit emo, angry and confuised in this post. One year ago today, my father passed on, in memory I found this flash that I love. It was made for people who lost fathers in 9/11 but it fits me. Miss You. I don't know why I miss him to be honest with everyone. I have very few memories that are good of him. Also everytime I think of him, the first thing my mind thinks of is one that I still have yet to forgive him for. It was the day I had him arrested. If you want details PM me. Well, one with it. One year ago, today. I woke up, started watching T.V.. What caused me to look in on him, I have no idea, I just did. I wish I hadn't. Cause in doing that I was the one that found him, i guess that is a reason I miss him. -shrugs- well, the worst hit me and ran to call my mom. My grandma told me something that hit me worse. About 20minutes eariler she had looked in on him... and he was fine... Why I had to be the one? I'll never know. I just wish I could figure out why I was complaled to look in on him. Well, I donno. I have a feeling my dog is gonna start feeling what today is. I think it hit him and my mom the hardest, cause they were the ones closest to him. I have a feeling if he does figure out what day it is, he might fallow my dad, he already is close to it. Maybe he never got over it, but if Doc (my dog) goes then I honesty donno why I'll go on. Some people have even said, they didn't want me to hear but I did, that my dog was the only thing keeping me on this earth. In many ways I find that to be true. Cause I couldn't take losing him. He's the only one, that lives near me, who loves me for who I am. I have people who like me. But he's been with me through all the bad times. I just wish I could cuddle up with someone today and forget what has happend. -TK

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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

stolen
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Merg I donno if I could find it again so I am posting it now. ANSWER!! Name: Age: Location: Height: Hair (color and style): Eyes: Piercings/tattoos: OTHER: 1. Where would we go on dates? 2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists? 3. Do you drink/smoke?? 4. Do you like the beach? 5. If so...would you go with me late at night? 6. Do you like movies? 7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night? 8. If you were to take me out to a movie would we watch the movie? 9. If not what would we be doing? 10. Do you play an instrument? 11. If so...what? 12. Would you call me right after we saw each other to make sure I made it home alright? 13. How would you rate your hugs from 1-10, 10 being the best? 14. Favorite body part on a gurl/guy? 15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself? 16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, player, slut)? 17. Would you give me kisses just because? What Would You do if... I cried: I said I liked you: I kissed you: I touched your ass: I was hospitalized: I ran away from home: I got in a fight and you were there: I got dumped: I pissed you off: What Do You Think Of My... Personality: Eyes: Face: Hair: Clothes: Voice: Humor: Choice of music: Manners: Friends: Decisions: Would You... Be my friend: Tell me the truth no matter what: Buy me a birthday gift: Lie to make to me feel better: Spread rumors about me: Go out at 4am to get me chocolate: Come over at 1am if i asked u to: Keep a secret if I told you one: Loan me some cash: Hold my hand: Keep in touch: Make me a snack: Try and solve my problems: Love me: Makeout with me: Hold me in times of need: Ditch me: Use me: Ask me out: Date me: Makeout with me whenever you had the chance: Hold me and make my problems go away: W0ULD Y0U... [] go out with me? [] give me your number?____________ [] kiss me? [] let me kiss you? [] watch a movie with me? [] take me out to dinner? [] drive me somewhere [] take a shower with me? [] be my bf/gf? [] hug me? [] buy me food? [] take me home to meet your family? [] would you let me sleep in your bed if i didn't have one? [] sing car karaoke w/ me? [] sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone? [] re-post this for me to answer your questions? [] give me a piggyback ride? [] come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere D0 Y0U... [] think im cute? [] want to kiss me? [] want to cuddle wit me? [] want to hook up with me? ARE WE... [] aquintences? [] friends? [] in a relationship? [] gonna have kids? AM i... [] smart? [] cute? [] funny? [] cool? [] intersting to talk to? HAVE Y0U EVER... [] thought about me? [] thought there might be an "US"? [] thought about hookin up with me? [] found yourself wanting to kiss me? [] wished i were there? ARE Y0U... [] happy you know me? [] mad at me? [] thinkin bout me? [] going to repost this so that I will return the favor?

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Sunday, December 25, 2005

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Okay... Okay.. I know I said I wouldn't post until the 28th... but I have something I really need to get off my chest... Tabby feel free to hit me monday or whenever we work together again... I know I have been acting like mine are the only problems out there... I know that is a lie. Everyone has problems. My friend is spending the night... yes on christmas... and she is on the couch.. crying cause someone who says he is her FRIEND is making her... Whenever I see that kind of stuff, I feel bad that I couldn't help them out. I'm not to be on much after tuesday... for some reasons I'll go into then... but on the 28th.. will be my emo rant.. I know that christmas is supposed to be happy... but so far every christmas I've had since I was 13 has been nothing but problems. I like christmas but I can honsetly live without it... when I was 13 the day right after I found out I had high blood pressure... when I was 14 my tonsals(sp) came out, it was kinda good.. my dad was nice for once... 15... I called the cops on my dad and he got arrested... 16.. my dad passed away... and now I'm 17... I already know what is going to happen, I have lost some of my friends already... and a bit other stuff... Really... the only present I want... is to find my first friend I ever had... All that I have left of my childhood are memories... almost all of them are ones that make me cry... If I could find Melssia again... I'd be happy. The fact I remember her name, First and last (before and after her mom got remarried) just shows how good friends we were... She became my friend after finding me cring... she had been the one who helped make me cry... and we became friends, she stood up for me when I wouldn't do it myself... we shared everything with each other... not having her to lean on when my dad was arrested and when he passed on.. I donno... Well okay.. what I want is a friend like her, one who I can trust... give all my trust to... or to find her again... I wish both would happen... but I donno if ether will happen.. I think I have one friend who might take her place... but I hardly see her.. last time I did was oni-con. I have one friend currently who is like a sister to me... but as of late I've felt distent from her... I also have an ex, I still don't like to think of her like that..., but she is my closest friend that I acctually talk to and share stuff with... I'm ranting and I'll stop cause it is christmas after all... so g'night everyone... and sorry again... Merry Christmas all.. -TK PS: please I did not post this so you'll feel sorry for me...

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Thursday, December 22, 2005

okay
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This is gonna be my last post until after christmas... be warned that my next post will be very emotional and have hints of anger and depression within it. So letting you all know in advance. Here is my early christmas gift for all who READ and LOOK my site. Don't get me wrong, I love Sasuke but this picture just had so many options. I found the picture, but I edited it myself. So enjoy. -TK

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Wednesday, December 21, 2005

a little change
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Okay... okay I know you all have hated me these past few days so I am gonna take a change. I am taking a vote. See Below And if you have a personal thought on the matter, leave it in the comments. Like this one from Iruka. Nice when around his team, pretty damn naughty around Iruka

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Tuesday, December 20, 2005

i want a deathly sleep. i dont wish for life to take me any further. i feel my journey has come to a halt and i see no way out. there is nothing here for me anymore.
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Most people... seem not to get me... I hope these quizes help those people out... I answered all truthfully... so enjoy.. What do people remember you by? (anime pics) brought to you by Quizilla Yes... I would -curls up and cries- People see nothing in your eyes. You seem to either be indifferent about everything or are trying to cover up a lot of pain. Your eyes have a cold stare that can make people shiver. Try to show a little more caring, because your hard exterior most likely drives people away. ...stop looking at me like that...stoppit! ((Image copyrighted to http://sakurah.deviantart.com/ )) What can people see in your eyes?(great ANIME pics)((IMPROVED!!!)) brought to you by Quizilla Whats your inner darkness? (anime pics) brought to you by Quizilla .::::What color is your heart? [w/pictures and many results]::. brought to you by Quizilla Kill me.. that is what these say -TK

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