Thursday, September 22, 2005

Meh...
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Well no houston for me this weekend... damn it I really wanted to go. But oh well Rita hates me and I can't go cause she had to go and become a cat 5... she is gonna hit my house as a cat 1 and I am in cen-tex O.o.. Well it is my birthday so I am now 17 years old ^^;; woot right. I guess so. My mom booked me for a cruise in Feburary right after ushicon O.o... nice... I am going to mexico from Galvaston assuming it is still there. x3 G'night everyone and all in Rita's path take care.. Iruka that means you too. I don't want to lose you. -TK (Tala Kyo)

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Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Rita
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Well as most know I am or I think I still am... Well seems that Iruka might have to leave the area cause her backyard is a swamp for lack of better words that I know how to spell. So hurricane rita seems to hate me, oh well ;;^^ So I don't know about my plans this weekend.. I hope I can still down to houston. Well tomorrow is my birthday.. one more year older. I am really starting to see why some people don't care about their birthdays. But oh well one more year till I am out of school right x3. Well this weekend is going to be hell if I don't go and it is if I do go, but ether way I am going to find someway to have fun. I just hope I can go to houston cause I think I'll have more fun that sitting at home all weekend. Well I think fate has a funny way of playing with me but oh well, I don't care at the moment. -Tala

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Monday, September 19, 2005

Meh..
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Seems like once again I am confuised. I feel lost and alone.. but I know I'm not alone. I seem to be unimportant to certain people but, you know what, I can handle that. 'Cause I am trying to get stronger emotionally. ^^ I still don't don't much hope for that. Well after school I am going to be on my way to the airport, so I can get to houston a little after nine pm >.> damn new rules for the airport... I hope they let me through cause of stuff I like to carry on. I just relized something, plastic knives can hurt but they make it through O.o Well turning 17 soon, I should be happy, shouldn't I. In a way I am, but also I ain't. I've had no one tell me that they are gonna come hang out, well I have but they havn't told me that they are 100% sure. Also it is one more year, I am starting to see why mark doesn't care so much about birthdays. Well no comment or shout outs cause I am late for school... -Tala

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Sunday, September 18, 2005

Song
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Tim McGraw Kill Myself I'm gonna clean the house I'm gonna fix the fence In my final hours I'm gonna tie up these loose ends I wont leave a note For anyone to find Tomorrow they'll know What I've done here tonight [Chorus] The drastic steps I'm takin' Are just an act of desperation I knew no one would miss me So what the hell I fought and lied I drank too much Hurt every one I ever touched Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell This is not some kind of cry for help Just good bye I wish you well Because I love you I'm gonna kill myself Now who is that In my easy chair Now wait a minute That's the old me sittin' there And I thank God The devil in me died I stand before you now A man changed and alive [Chorus] The drastic steps I'm takin' Are just an act of desperation I knew no one would miss me So what the hell I fought and lied I drank too much Hurt every one I ever touched Just how much I hurt you is hard to tell This is not some kind of cry for help Just good bye I wish you well Because I love you I have to kill myself Gonna clean the house Gonna fix that fence In my final hours I'm gonna tie up these loose ends Heh, I donno why I just posted the first song on my playlist ;;^^

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Saturday, September 17, 2005

Fogotten
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Well seems like downhill has happened since thursday.. I wish what happened just was forgotten and no one knew about it.. I ain't going into detail but a few people know what I mean, I hope. I just kinda wish that I could forget everything since I was born to right now and start out with a clean slate. Don't ask why cause I won't say, just all you need to know is that is it. Still going to Houston on the 23rd.. I hope I can still go. If I can't then I just ain't gonna go home, I think I'll just find a friends house and stay over there for the weekend. Day after my Bday and if might turn out to be depressing. I needa exersice more, my bio teacher said that stops depression. But I am to scared to even do DDR at it's lightest cause of my asthma now. Well that is all my birthday is the 22nd.. I am having a small get-together at my house for everyone who wants to com and can, well come on over, I'll send a PM if you leave a comment saying you'll come. Well that is all, I don't expect to update again till the 22nd unless something eventful happens. Shoutouts/comments: Ian- O.o I didn't even know you were still at Main event when that happened. I thought you had left already. Gomen. Seth- I hope to come hang out with you before Oni-con. Mint, Levi, Tol, Newbeh, Eric, and Mark- Great to hang out with you guys again. Hope you all can make it on the 22nd Everyone eles <3

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Wednesday, September 14, 2005

DoMG
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Okay okay I am bored.. Okay seems my dreams of making all As when bye bye as soon as I started AP Histroy of the America... I should have learned in 7th grade not to do an AP, oh well I'll get thrown out next Sem if I ain't passing like they want x3. Well Monday I went to Main Event to hang out with people, and I meet some very nice ambulance people and a nice coppers x3. I don't really remember much of what happened at main event so =P to bad for all of yous. Well I gotta get to work on Edward Elric and Anbu Kabuto.. I am only missing the mask, and Armor.. Seems easy... -goes to ebay- x3 Well okay seems my comment thingy broke again >>.. so shouts are comments READ... Tol: Heh, ya didn't bug me at all during Afest, if I was grouchy it was because my ankel blew out and I couldn't keep raving. You're very welcome for the badge too.. I have a feeling I'm gonna have an Oni-Con badge I don't need too.. so if you havn't Pre-Reg'd then feel free to let me. ^^ Iruka- I really don't wanna post the comment here so, Cya next weekend. Closet Pervert- Call or IM me sometime I havn't talked to ju in ages. Seth- I got your LJ to comment with so =P Levi, Mint, Mark, Girl I don't remember name of x3, Newbeh, and everyone else who was there.. Hey I don't remember much about ME so lay off. Thanxs for everything Monday, you guys are good friends to me and I was glad to have you around when it happened. -gives hugs to everyone- Well like I said I don't remember a lot of anything, I was outta it yesterday and monday.. well I'd rather not go into that. ^^;; A few Icons before I leave. ~Jaa

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Sunday, September 11, 2005

9/11 We remember
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Today, yesterday depends on when this is posted, is the 4 year reminder of the terror that fell upon this great nation in 2001. The twin Towers, symbol of the American wealth and power, was struck down by two planes full of people and a tank full of gas. The one wing on the Pentagon and the people on flight 94 who died in that rual Penn field. Millions watched in shock, from home, from school, from work, or live in person in downtown Manhatten. The people who got phone calls from their loved ones got to hear it first hand by the passangers willing to take on the highjackers that took over their plane, that was rummored to have been going to the White House. The Smoke that lined the skyline lasted for days and was a sad and horrable reminder of the terror that fell upon us 4 years ago on September 11, 2001. Many cried for the people who lost their lives, be loved ones or strangers. Most of the pictures that you find are about the towers making people forget about the other 2 planes that went down that day. One will never forget where they were standing or what they were doing when they heard the news. I myself had just finished running Cross Country and was going to my first period (7th Grade) as a Student Aid in the Library. They had the TVs on and I watched as the second plane hit, just as I looked at the Tv. My mind didn't know what was going on, cause I had never heard of the towers before then. But I blame myself for surviving the attack. People lost Fathers, Mothers, Bothers, Sisters, Daughters, Sons, Grandparents, Husbands and wives. Not one person had some attachment to the horror as the towers feel. Mine was not until we had started the war when my cousin Jessica Lynch became a POW in Iraq. Now I know most of you are tired of hearing about her, but even if she hadn't been a POW she still would have been a hero. The fact of it all is that she lived through it all to tell her story and help others who went through the same thing she went through. I don't like the fact she made a book about her life, or got so much air time and other stuff. Cause the other POW's who came over didn't get the same treatment. Most people say the attack was on this day because without the - or / it is 911 also the 11 are symbols of the towers. But they found records that they had did everything earlier than planned. So they could have been planning for a busy holiday when a lot of people were in those places and plans they took. Many have lost their lives over this when we HAD no proff that Bin Laden was the one who started it all, we just assumed because of what he has done in the past. As for the video's he sends... how do we know the goverment isn't fucking up the translation of it to keep him as the bad guy. Many songs were changed for this tragity and many were written like Have You forgotten By DW (lyrics are below) I hear people saying we don't need this war I say there's some things worth fighting for What about our freedom and this piece of ground? We didn't get to keep 'em by backing down They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in Before you start preaching Let me ask you this my friend CHORUS 1 Have you forgotten how it felt that day To see your homeland under fire And her people blown away? Have you forgotten when those towers fell? We had neighbors still inside Going through a living hell And you say we shouldn't worry 'bout Bin Laden Have you forgotten? They took all the footage off my T.V. Said it's too disturbing for you and me It'll just breed anger that's what the experts say If it was up to me I'd show it every day Some say this country's just out looking for a fight After 9/11 man I'd have to say that's right CHORUS 1 Have you forgotten how it felt that day To see your homeland under fire And her people blown away? Have you forgotten when those towers fell? We had neighbors still inside Going through a living hell And we vowed to get the ones behind Bin Laden Have you forgotten? I've been there with the soldiers Who've gone away to war And you can bet that they remember Just what they're fighting for CHORUS 2 Have you forgotten all the people killed? Yes, some went down like heroes in that Pennsylvania field Have you forgotten about our Pentagon? All the loved ones that we lost And those left to carry on Don't you tell me not to worry 'bout Bin Laden Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten? Have you forgotten? Picture I was unable to find a pentagon or penn field one that did it justice. ~Jaa Tala And remember we will never forget September 11, 2001 Please take a moment of silence after reading this to morn for all those who have lost their lives.

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Thursday, September 8, 2005

Distance..
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Well school has kinda gotten better for me, o.o. Now I got friends to chat with at lunch. On A days I get to hear a fight about Mary and Joe not having Sex from a christan and a cholic it was the funnest thing, but I had to leave before I inputed my mind into that. On B days I getta sit with the anime club who I am a proud member/ officer of. I will be president next year ;;^^. Or so I am told. I am going to be trying to get the club shirts. We gotta meeting tomorrow and are gonna vote on colors >< I gotta make the sheet for the voting. Well I guess I am president already, oi... this is gonna be a fun year. Well I think I got a guy in my Intro to ag Mech hitting on me o.o;; he has hinted but made no move. When he does though, it'll be funny to see his reaction to everything. X3. Well it is nice to have firends finally at school but I don't see them as true friends, not yet anyway. Well I donno how to bring this up in a normal convo with Iruka but I am starting to feel some distance between us. I think I might have did something at O-chibicon that made this happen. I think I did, I don't know what it was but I want to fix it, even know there is no way to time travel yet. I am just rambling now it seems so I guess I'll end it. Iruka let me know though, cause I am starting to wonder. Well going back to school, our GSA club starts this coming monday and I ain't gonna miss any of it this year, just because last year I was worried about what people would say, now I am just gonna tell them off >3. Well writing club don't seem like it is gonna be my main club this year. Anime and GSA are gonna take top, cause I can write anytime.. and yeah I can watch anime anytime but I needa be there, Feh I ain't complaining. Well I donated like $6-7 to the red cross since saturday. Normally I ain't one to help out but I am to this, I guess it is because I know people in the area Katraina hit the hardest. Well in sometime this month I'll be 17... one more year until I am free from my house. Sometime this week I am gonna apply at SunCoast, maybe a job will help me outta this rut I am in right now. Right now is when I wish I could have a brother or sister to talk to. It seems that I lost most of my friends I used to have. I think Afest changed a lot of things, wheather you went or not. Almost 1am and I ain't tired yet.. but meh, I am gonna try to sleep anyway. First time in a bit I wasn't down. I guess because my alt on furcaida (Frawg) he gotta mate. Seffy I am your son-in-law now cause Shelbie is me mate ^^ Also everyone note that this is online and not real life that she is my mate X3. Though I'd be funny if I knew her irl. o.o Furcadia seems to cheer me up because I can kill twinks >3, that and you can start anytype of OOC chat in TDAC or OotW and it goes really random or wrong. Well alright now off to bed. G'night all. No shout outs cause I still needa do homework -is a bad girl- -Tala

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Tuesday, September 6, 2005

my afest post.. finally
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Well to start things off, I have my likes and dislikes of Afest. I ain't gonna list most of them, cause well I just don't wanna be ranting. Well I got there around 8-9pm on friday after a weird ass car ride from houston. o.o;; I gotta watch Urban Cowboy and Bill and ted's advinture thingy. When we got to the con I hopped out and got my stuff and went to walk around da can and found suger_snake, or she found me. I donno. Well I got there just in time for the dance so I put my stuff in my room then took off, after getting my staff badge. I worked Video room 1 the whole con.. I had to watch the damn dubbs ><... Well the dances kinda sucked, one reason being because no matter what I had to leave early so I could wake up on time for my shift 6am-10am ><. Well yea.. the first night I got kinda buzzed but meh. I think I ain't really a drinker unless it is wine. ;;^^ Well I got to bed after some stuffs at around 1-2am... that was to late, I just woke up on time for my shift. They gave me free mountain dew =3 Well I played Gundam Seed and Giant Robo on that time.. had some left over time so I gotta play the AMV's on the filler disk. The first one made me wanna do DDR again X3 The rest of the con I walked around and hid in my room.. FEMA out numbered the con goers for a good part of the con. It was funny, the FEMA people with dogs let us pet them. It made me kinda sad.. cause it made me miss my puppy's and another thing I ain't gonna mention. Well I wanted Scott's Auto but the line was to long and they wouldn't let me in when it was short. ;-; But oh well I got it later that day. Well me, Iruka and her mom went out to eat and saw Monica, Scott, Johnny, Kyle, Greg, Doug, and quite a few more. I got all there auto's and bugged monica for her badge, which I got the extra sunday so I am monica's clone o.o XD. Well I danced again and threw out my ankel, well messed it up. My ankel got swolen so I had to leave the dance once again >> Well that dance wasn't to good but I wanted to dance more ;-; Well Sunday I woke up before all in my room and the second the alarm went off so I didn't wake anyone.. Had to put up with DearS and Area 88. Nether of which was bad... but I woke up got the anime and watched it.. DearS slammed my mind deep into the gutter..>> Just what I needed at around 6am in the morning... Well it was around then that the con started to suck for me.. I felt invisable, I don't know why I just did.. until monday morning I just felt like I wasn't there. Well I had to spend the night in mint and levi's room. I used the curtain as my blanket and Kiara as my pillow. It was intressting to say the least. Well I am gonna put what I did on sat night to sunday when I went to sleep. Sorry for everyone who reads it.. if you don't know it ask and if I think you should know about it I'll give it to you. But wait until tomorrow to look at it, I ain't gonna do it tonight. Well I rode home with mint, levi and tol. Slept most of the way home but I was tired. But even know it was the last con day I still had to work my 6-10 shift >>. I don't remember the first anime we played but the second was Daphine I liked it. I liked all the anime I watched that weekend. Well after this con I don't know why but I feel that I have drifted farther from all of my friends. I donno if I should think that as good or bad but it really doesn't matter right now, I will figure it out as I go along. I think I even drifted apart from someone who I ain't gonna mention. ~Jaa

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Friday, September 2, 2005

O.o
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Seems like Iruka's house has wireless that I CAN use X3. That my post for today ~Jaa Tala(mizuki) Oh yeah Scare you for life-

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