Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Thoughts upon thoughts
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Well I gotta hang out with Mint, Levi, Tol, Lala-ru, Suger_snake, Pocky and a few others at Main Event today. Saw Alora, Newbeh and Eric right when I arrived. While I was there I relized a few things... I think I am gonna start trying to act my age instead of acting like I am younger than I really am. I think that could be one reason people don't like me or tend to distant themselves from me. I did a lot of thinking after dropping Tol off, like why people don't like me, why I don't have many friends and a few others I am not going to go into. I understand it seems like I am changing myself for other people but I am not, I am changing for myself. Note I still will go to con's and hang out with people... I'll just be a bit more mature and calm. For example I am going to think before I speak. I am also going to now put school work before my online time and hanging out time. My friends are more important to me than anyone but my 11th grade year is one of the most important years of high school... I need to pass the TAKS this year to graduate or I have to take it again my 12th grade year. Also I got the PSATs again and the SATs if I pick to take them this year. I know it seems like I am ranting... or at least to me it does. I don't know if I am going to be updating as much, heck this might be my last post for a while while I try to keep up with all the stuff that I am given from AP Us History. It might not have been my choice or what I want, but I am in that class and I am gonna give it my all and then some. In closing I may be offline for a bit cause I needa be off the computer more and start caring for my dogs more than I have also I may be going to the hospital for another sleep apnea test. Last time I had one I was fine... but now it has come back and I know it isn't fine right now. Well I am gonna head off a little quote... "Life may seem to be a bitch, but all you need to do is tame life and figure out the good that lies within the bad." -Tala

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Monday, August 22, 2005

Well oh well...
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Okay well I got very bored today, I found lots of gifs that I am gonna post, not all at once mind you. I am gonna do a few of my favorites on this post. Alright this is kinda a rant and I voicin' my thoughts so don't like it DON'T read any more... just leave and wait until my next post. >> I feel I am being igroned by a lot of people. I mean I IM people on AIM, Yahoo and MSN (yeah I got it now) and they don't talk back, i know they are there and they arn't busy but they don't IM back saying hello. I know I used to say I am forving people to talk and I do feel that too but I'd at least like a hey, yo, howdy, hello or hi. Which ever you use to talk. There is one person who I am almost sure about that is avoiding me... I ain't going to name the person's name because they should know who they are... -Sighs- Okay that was one rant now to another one. Well suger and I are kinda in the same boat but I ain't gonna go into it. Most of you guys already know about it so all I am gonna say is that I still like someone that I told. That is all I am going into. That is all I am saying... I think the majority of you guys read this but don't comment so I donno who does read this so I ain't gonna give out any shout outs tonight cause I donno who all reads this I bet a lot of you guys who do and don't comment don't get this far so I donno... Well I know i am gonna repet this but September 23 I am flying to Houston right after school and staying with one of my close friend. Might be the closest I have... even those who live here in austin, I guess that is because I am feeling distant from everyone... I know the main event gathering today I am gonna be the one away from everyone because I don't know what to do anymore. I can run off away from them and even those who know what mood I am in don't even try and make sure I am okay at that moment. I am debating on not doing con's anymore but I already got Afest, Oni, Ushi and A-kon paid for so I am gonna make them but I may not do gatherings anymore... This'll scar you for life ----> -Tala out... -sighs-

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Saturday, August 20, 2005

Late night pointless fun ^^ -the best type i might add-
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Well I gotta hang with Tol, Mark, Danzig, Kimba, Mint, and Levi last night over at Tol's house. When I arrived they where playing a game I didn't catch the name of but tol was kicking butt XD. I went out to my car to get something and mark locked the door on me >.>. Well then they started playing KOF or something close to it when Mint and Levi showed up. Then we got to playing N3 I beat 'em up with the dog. Mark doesn't like it XDD. Well Mint, Tol and I moved to the kitchen and just chatted, it surprized me I talked a bit more then I normally do which I kinda liked but I was crazy most of the time. We skittled off to whataburger, all of them piled into my car o.o... I didn't know I could fit that many into a PT and I think one of them broke the back latch on my trunk XDD we wanted Mc.Donalds but it was closed XDD no one but me has noticed it twas midnight. Well Tol bought me something to eat even know I said I wasn't hungry, which I found out I knida was after I started eating. ^.^ First time I ever eat something at Whataburger it was good. Well we skittled off back to Tol's house and sat around talking for a bit then watched Mark, Tol and Levi play NUH2 XD and then saw all the specials that they can do. They need a mizuki charater in that game ;;^^ well they do. Oh yeah Mark owned with Mizuki one round ^^ Well Tol gave me his Sunkist and let me barrow XXX Holic 1-3 I have already gotten 1 finished it is funny ^^ I am here to grant your wishes. ^^ Well I had to head off cause everyone else was going. One my way home I paced with Mark along avery ranch XD. It was funny. I know a lot more but I can't remember it. I think Tol is as nice as me cause he bought me food stuffs ^^

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Friday, August 19, 2005

Repost of boredum
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Ultimate Survey (377 questions long) Created by illusen and taken 59008 times on Bzoink time started 9:25pm full name Mary Carolyn Lynch nickname(s) Tala birthday September 22 where were you born Austin, Tx zodiac sign Dragon height 5'5" i grew and inch weight not telling hair color brown/blond eye color blue/green -silver shoe size 71/2-81/2 ring size 8 skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.) tan blood type A+ grade 11th GPA last time I looked 4.3 siblings Mike and Missy -half sibs tattoos None yet piercings one in each ear hobbies O.o to many to list favorite color All but pink and bright colors food O.o ramen... candy I unno type of cheese o.o there is more than one... da fuck pizza topping Pepperoni, chesse salad dressing I unno sandwich unno cereal o.o da fuck fruit -still trys to figure out fruit and veggies-XD vegetable See above berry unno cake unoo book manga movie anime, all magazine anything anime, manga newspaper AA-S tv show anime website Myotaku radio station Kase font Unno cartoon character kakashi and Mizuki artist (painter) unoo actor Vic actress Monica cd 'unno song donno music group donno music type all but rap day of the week friday month any winter season winter holiday I don't like holidays shampoo I donno o.o conditioner o.o same number 13 phrase WTF store walmart weather rain restaurant unno channel cartoon network teacher Dr. Evil weekend activity o.o I donno, be alone hangout When I find one I will let you know house color gray sport to watch o.o I donno sport to play Horse back riding animal Wolf flower nightshade XD guy's name Jake girl's name Tala board game Life o.o i think party game o.o 'unno story from childhood ...>.> body part O.O da hell have you ever been on a train yepper been on a plane yep been in a car accident yep caused a car accident kinda >.> run into a wall YEAH XD burned a potato chip -wants to try- almost burned the house down firework stand xD smoked Nope been drunk Yesh been high On a moutain top xDD broken the law Yep burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes) Yep kissed someone of the opposite sex Yesh kissed someone of the same sex Yep, proudlu.. I am Bi and proud of it Damn it frenched an animal an animal frenched me o.o made out Yep ^.^ had cyber sex RPing yaoi count? gotten engaged Not yet. had an online relationship Yep been rejected by a crush Yeah... loved Yep.. made yourself cry to get out of trouble Nope cried in public Last time when I broke my arm in 3rd grade cried over a movie Yeah... >.> fallen asleep in a movie theater Almost given someone a bath Nope... I think been to a boarding school No been home-schooled Want to be lost a valuable item Rather not say... memories bungee jumped Want to skied On water^^ met the president Bush >.>... met a celebrity Yep gotten a cavity 2 shopped at abercrombie & fitch NEVER made a prank call yep skipped school YeSh faked sick to get out of school memories,.. forgers purchased something that you knew didn't fit No climbed a tree Me a monkey fallen from a tree XDD yeah and i have gotten stuck broken a bone arm sprained anything ankel passed out ask Mark, Mint and Seth made yourself pass out ... >> been to disney world Nope been to a theme park (not disney) Yes said i love you and meant it (not to a relative) Yes made a model volcano (working model) Nope made a clover leaf with your tounge nope past what did you do yesterday read post memory you miss the most .... my old friend memory you want to forget my attempts to end my life... something you regretted after it was done attempted sucide the last song you heard Move your dead bones cd you bought the killers thing you said Said time you cried a hour ago movie seen in a theater Unno thing you ate unno person who called sethos nail polish shade worn purple time you showered yesterday person who complimented you I unno... at this moment what are you listening to German Music what are you wearing -slaps- pervert... what are you thinking O.o nothing what are you scared of most ... death how many people are on your buddy list a lot but they hardly talk future occupation Vet or history teacher marriage site I unoo honeymoon >.> I don't know place to live see above two kids adopt 1 or 2 car truck what are you doing tomorrow I unno, kill... I mea school ..>> do you think george bush will be reelected NOOOOO><.... will there be a wwIII Yep will politics ever be truthful nope will humanity snuff itself out yep can the gov. be changed noppers friends best friend Mint, and a few othes funniest unno all silliest all loudest TOL quietest me craziest All my guy friends but SD calmest Mint skinniest mark best secret keeper Newbeh, mint and sethos... I don't share my secrets really worst secret keeper not saying tis mean... the one you have but don't want see above.. that mean smartest Mark, Newbeh, Mint, Seth preppiest None peppiest None most hyper Tol hottest o.o ... ;;-.- weirdest All of my guy friends but Newbeh and eric they just crazy biggest pervert O.o I unno most annyoing mean... not saying shyest me... most religious Unno do you believe in heaven No hell no angels no devil no god no buddha yeah aliens XD yeppers ghosts >.> Yesh spirit (soul) Yeah soulmates Oh yeah reincarnation -nodnod- was a wolf once love at first sight Yeah karma Oh yeppers love in general kinda luck Not really yourself Not really crush who and when was your first crush Danny, 5th grade any now ... they know.. a celebrity crush none who do you want to be with right now ... no comment.. whos number do you want has it >=) who do you want to kiss .. o.o what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex the way their minds work... saddly I understand that if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be o.o ... >.> on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you not very...5 i think first thing noticed about the opposite sex hair what do you look for personality-wise o.o something i can get along with biggest turn on not telling biggest turn off not telling something thay weat that turns you on o.o weat... something they wear that turns you off o.o unno the most romantic thing you want to happen to you -blushs- the most romantic thing that has happened to you o.o two things o.o what do you wear on a coffee date normal is it right to flirt if you're taken NO is cyber cheating uh... are eyes the passegeway to the soul unno who would you like to take to the prom I have someone ... >.> do you want to hug somebody right now Yesh do you know what an aphrodisiac is heheh yesh ;;^^ describe mellow I unno melancholy ... >.> the perfect date not telling unless it is to my BF... if I get one the perfect mate ... ;;^.^ how m&m's are made XDD can say many ways why manhole covers are round ... oh that sounds so wrong.... one or the other coke/pepsi Dr.Pepper sprite/7-up Moutain Dew boxers/briefs XDD gold/silver Gold vanilla/chocolate Both flowers/candy Flowers book/magazine book tv/radio radio glass half empty/half full empty democrat/republican nether colored pencils/markers crayons or paint coffee/tea tea sun/moon moon day/night night hot/cold cold dog/cat both button/zipper zipper cotton/feather pillow feather blue/purple blue plumber/trashman o.o eww jeans/shorts shorts long distance relationship/none LDR mechanical/regular pencil mechanical matt/ben o.o jake that 70's show/simpsons simpsons kelso/eric o.o donna/jackie >.> bart/lisa <.< bart romeo/juliet hamlet romantic comedy/thriller thriller nsync/bsb bsb peanut butter/jelly PB waffles/pancakes waffles letter/email letter florida/california florida pizza/burgers pizza... hat/visor hat football/rugby football >=) iceskating/blading Ice skattig movie at home/in theater home first thing you think of when you hear yellow sun red lipstick o.o kinky socks Eric XDD cowtipping Leander moulin rouge movie greenland cold iceland warm harry potter fun red blood blackberry o.o pie rose thorn rooster crow taxes trouble bill clinton o.o ... whipped cream Kinky XD george w. bush .. -comment to self- lollipops o.o cherry dreams die love ...>.> guys <.< south park XD funny boy bands sad pengiuns Kawaii girls nice thong O.O hurts gotta.. i think death mine spoons spork junk mail spam dairy milk panties o.o perv your father dead pizza mmmm britney spears Sad... vitamin D are you happy now.. not realy sad kinda religious ... no bitchy Can be crazy >.> maybe... >=) messy See my room XDD mad at one person slacker XD yesh nerd no.. bookworm Yeah jock Never preppy NO o.O selfish Maybe giving Yeah obsessive No... violent XDD calm yeah peaceful Not now.. mellow not now.. eccentric O.o caring Yesh untrustworthy Nope loyal Yeah patriotic a little perverted >.> Um.. me... no XDD colorful No artistic A little miscellanoues what color is your jacket o.o ivisable -owns no jacket- do you shave where?? >> where XDD legs what color is your razor o.o blue what size is your bed o.o queen what color crayon would you be blue what are the last four digits of you phone number O.o -coughs them out- feelings on abortion -comment to self- how lond does it take you to shower about 10min maybe 5 what does your screenname mean WolfDemonWolf Tala means wolf people thoughts on blonde pop stars in general >.> -coughwhorescough- who so you trust the most I unno is cussing a necessity in life XDD how about coffee nope is the world screwed Yep what something you cant live without my friends what time did you fall asleep XDD when? know what 69 means o.o oh yeah.. XD how about 143 XDD -coughyeahcough- can you live without a microwave Yeppers what do think about death ... where and when do you want to be married unno do you want to drop out of school Nope why is the sky blue I painted it that color XDD what is a good trait about yourself My nice-ness what do you always think about o.o what is wrong with your school XDD i habe no friends what is right with your school XDD nothing how do you react to change not good do you talk to yourself not right now but yesh what is your opinion on love .... can you afford to lose weight Yes what color would you dye your hair brown best thing anyones told you I am cute ^^ what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot I am shoked cause I don't think I am does being psycho appeal to you XDD wouldn't surprize me if you wrote a book, what would it be about XDD a wolf -is writing it too 40 pages- >.> what would you change your name to Tala or Crystal longest crush lasted how long still going on... tme finished 10:14 Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink

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Thursday, August 18, 2005

quiz bordum
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Ultimate Survey (377 questions long) Created by illusen and taken 59008 times on Bzoink time started 9:25pm full name Mary Carolyn Lynch nickname(s) Tala birthday September 22 where were you born Austin, Tx zodiac sign Dragon height 5'5" i grew and inch weight not telling hair color brown/blond eye color blue/green -silver shoe size 71/2-81/2 ring size 8 skin type (freckles, tan, albino, etc.) tan blood type A+ grade 11th GPA last time I looked 4.3 siblings Mike and Missy -half sibs tattoos None yet piercings one in each ear hobbies O.o to many to list favorite color All but pink and bright colors food O.o ramen... candy I unno type of cheese o.o there is more than one... da fuck pizza topping Pepperoni, chesse salad dressing I unno sandwich unno cereal o.o da fuck fruit -still trys to figure out fruit and veggies-XD vegetable See above berry unno cake unoo book manga movie anime, all magazine anything anime, manga newspaper AA-S tv show anime website Myotaku radio station Kase font Unno cartoon character kakashi and Mizuki artist (painter) unoo actor Vic actress Monica cd 'unno song donno music group donno music type all but rap day of the week friday month any winter season winter holiday I don't like holidays shampoo I donno o.o conditioner o.o same number 13 phrase WTF store walmart weather rain restaurant unno channel cartoon network teacher Dr. Evil weekend activity o.o I donno, be alone hangout When I find one I will let you know house color gray sport to watch o.o I donno sport to play Horse back riding animal Wolf flower nightshade XD guy's name Jake girl's name Tala board game Life o.o i think party game o.o 'unno story from childhood ...>.> body part O.O da hell have you ever been on a train yepper been on a plane yep been in a car accident yep caused a car accident kinda >.> run into a wall YEAH XD burned a potato chip -wants to try- almost burned the house down firework stand xD smoked Nope been drunk Yesh been high On a moutain top xDD broken the law Yep burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes) Yep kissed someone of the opposite sex Yesh kissed someone of the same sex Yep, proudlu.. I am Bi and proud of it Damn it frenched an animal an animal frenched me o.o made out Yep ^.^ had cyber sex RPing yaoi count? gotten engaged Not yet. had an online relationship Yep been rejected by a crush Yeah... loved Yep.. made yourself cry to get out of trouble Nope cried in public Last time when I broke my arm in 3rd grade cried over a movie Yeah... >.> fallen asleep in a movie theater Almost given someone a bath Nope... I think been to a boarding school No been home-schooled Want to be lost a valuable item Rather not say... memories bungee jumped Want to skied On water^^ met the president Bush >.>... met a celebrity Yep gotten a cavity 2 shopped at abercrombie & fitch NEVER made a prank call yep skipped school YeSh faked sick to get out of school memories,.. forgers purchased something that you knew didn't fit No climbed a tree Me a monkey fallen from a tree XDD yeah and i have gotten stuck broken a bone arm sprained anything ankel passed out ask Mark, Mint and Seth made yourself pass out ... >> been to disney world Nope been to a theme park (not disney) Yes said i love you and meant it (not to a relative) Yes made a model volcano (working model) Nope made a clover leaf with your tounge nope past what did you do yesterday read post memory you miss the most .... my old friend memory you want to forget my attempts to end my life... something you regretted after it was done attempted sucide the last song you heard Move your dead bones cd you bought the killers thing you said Said time you cried a hour ago movie seen in a theater Unno thing you ate unno person who called sethos nail polish shade worn purple time you showered yesterday person who complimented you I unno... at this moment what are you listening to German Music what are you wearing -slaps- pervert... what are you thinking O.o nothing what are you scared of most ... death how many people are on your buddy list a lot but they hardly talk future occupation Vet or history teacher marriage site I unoo honeymoon >.> I don't know place to live see above two kids adopt 1 or 2 car truck what are you doing tomorrow I unno, kill... I mea school ..>> do you think george bush will be reelected NOOOOO><.... will there be a wwIII Yep will politics ever be truthful nope will humanity snuff itself out yep can the gov. be changed noppers friends best friend Mint, and a few othes funniest unno all silliest all loudest TOL quietest me craziest All my guy friends but SD calmest Mint skinniest mark best secret keeper Newbeh, mint and sethos... I don't share my secrets really worst secret keeper not saying tis mean... the one you have but don't want see above.. that mean smartest Mark, Newbeh, Mint, Seth preppiest None peppiest None most hyper Tol hottest o.o ... ;;-.- weirdest All of my guy friends but Newbeh and eric they just crazy biggest pervert O.o I unno most annyoing mean... not saying shyest me... most religious Unno do you believe in heaven No hell no angels no devil no god no buddha yeah aliens XD yeppers ghosts >.> Yesh spirit (soul) Yeah soulmates Oh yeah reincarnation -nodnod- was a wolf once love at first sight Yeah karma Oh yeppers love in general kinda luck Not really yourself Not really crush who and when was your first crush Danny, 5th grade any now ... they know.. a celebrity crush none who do you want to be with right now ... no comment.. whos number do you want has it >=) who do you want to kiss .. o.o what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex the way their minds work... saddly I understand that if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be o.o ... >.> on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you not very...5 i think first thing noticed about the opposite sex hair what do you look for personality-wise o.o something i can get along with biggest turn on not telling biggest turn off not telling something thay weat that turns you on o.o weat... something they wear that turns you off o.o unno the most romantic thing you want to happen to you -blushs- the most romantic thing that has happened to you o.o two things o.o what do you wear on a coffee date normal is it right to flirt if you're taken NO is cyber cheating uh... are eyes the passegeway to the soul unno who would you like to take to the prom I have someone ... >.> do you want to hug somebody right now Yesh do you know what an aphrodisiac is heheh yesh ;;^^ describe mellow I unno melancholy ... >.> the perfect date not telling unless it is to my BF... if I get one the perfect mate ... ;;^.^ how m&m's are made XDD can say many ways why manhole covers are round ... oh that sounds so wrong.... one or the other coke/pepsi Dr.Pepper sprite/7-up Moutain Dew boxers/briefs XDD gold/silver Gold vanilla/chocolate Both flowers/candy Flowers book/magazine book tv/radio radio glass half empty/half full empty democrat/republican nether colored pencils/markers crayons or paint coffee/tea tea sun/moon moon day/night night hot/cold cold dog/cat both button/zipper zipper cotton/feather pillow feather blue/purple blue plumber/trashman o.o eww jeans/shorts shorts long distance relationship/none LDR mechanical/regular pencil mechanical matt/ben o.o jake that 70's show/simpsons simpsons kelso/eric o.o donna/jackie >.> bart/lisa <.< bart romeo/juliet hamlet romantic comedy/thriller thriller nsync/bsb bsb peanut butter/jelly PB waffles/pancakes waffles letter/email letter florida/california florida pizza/burgers pizza... hat/visor hat football/rugby football >=) iceskating/blading Ice skattig movie at home/in theater home first thing you think of when you hear yellow sun red lipstick o.o kinky socks Eric XDD cowtipping Leander moulin rouge movie greenland cold iceland warm harry potter fun red blood blackberry o.o pie rose thorn rooster crow taxes trouble bill clinton o.o ... whipped cream Kinky XD george w. bush .. -comment to self- lollipops o.o cherry dreams die love ...>.> guys <.< south park XD funny boy bands sad pengiuns Kawaii girls nice thong O.O hurts gotta.. i think death mine spoons spork junk mail spam dairy milk panties o.o perv your father dead pizza mmmm britney spears Sad... vitamin D are you happy now.. not realy sad kinda religious ... no bitchy Can be crazy >.> maybe... >=) messy See my room XDD mad at one person slacker XD yesh nerd no.. bookworm Yeah jock Never preppy NO o.O selfish Maybe giving Yeah obsessive No... violent XDD calm yeah peaceful Not now.. mellow not now.. eccentric O.o caring Yesh untrustworthy Nope loyal Yeah patriotic a little perverted >.> Um.. me... no XDD colorful No artistic A little miscellanoues what color is your jacket o.o ivisable -owns no jacket- do you shave where?? >> where XDD legs what color is your razor o.o blue what size is your bed o.o queen what color crayon would you be blue what are the last four digits of you phone number O.o -coughs them out- feelings on abortion -comment to self- how lond does it take you to shower about 10min maybe 5 what does your screenname mean WolfDemonWolf Tala means wolf people thoughts on blonde pop stars in general >.> -coughwhorescough- who so you trust the most I unno is cussing a necessity in life XDD how about coffee nope is the world screwed Yep what something you cant live without my friends what time did you fall asleep XDD when? know what 69 means o.o oh yeah.. XD how about 143 XDD -coughyeahcough- can you live without a microwave Yeppers what do think about death ... where and when do you want to be married unno do you want to drop out of school Nope why is the sky blue I painted it that color XDD what is a good trait about yourself My nice-ness what do you always think about o.o what is wrong with your school XDD i habe no friends what is right with your school XDD nothing how do you react to change not good do you talk to yourself not right now but yesh what is your opinion on love .... can you afford to lose weight Yes what color would you dye your hair brown best thing anyones told you I am cute ^^ what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot I am shoked cause I don't think I am does being psycho appeal to you XDD wouldn't surprize me if you wrote a book, what would it be about XDD a wolf -is writing it too 40 pages- >.> what would you change your name to Tala or Crystal longest crush lasted how long still going on... tme finished 10:14 Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to Bzoink

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Second day of school... o.o
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Oh wow second say of school... and first thing in the morning... is a fire alarm... I know the person who set it off too... -wants to know why it had to be in the morning and not mid afternoon.- Well okay... first day of school I didn't mind as much but the second I hate... 5th i had english and had to do a group ativity... c.c Um... no I don't do that... Sixth... Algabra, I don't mind that. Ever since 9th grade I have been good with Math... but it shocked me how many people talked to old friends in that class... >> Okay AP US history... this is were the hell of school B day started... once again my school treadion hold steady... no friends aside from one... who I have no classes with and don't see unless I got to her house... well I wish I had more friends... I wish all those rumors didn't start about me in the 2nd grade... I wish that they didn't stay with me to this very day... Yeah you know what... half of those rumors are true... and I have no clue how they found out about it but I want to know BAD... one I know how it happened ... It was so bad in Elemetry school I only made one friend and she stuck by me no matter what... dear god I miss her... one day in 6th grade she vanished without a goodbye...no letter, wave, call, nothing... just vanished... I noticed when I didn't see her at lunch I asked a teacher and they said she had moved... so I called... no answer... only a new number... I call.. I guess this is what starts my thing for hating to call people... her mom calls us back and talks to my mom... and says the reason she moved is she hates me... my first, only and last best friend, until ushicon, has a mom who hated me and still does... I lost touch with her... I don't even know if she is still in this state... I wish I could somehow find her phone number, email or something. I really wanna talk with her again... just to know if she is still alive... I have just come to the notice that it was after she moved that I started getting depressed, and started my stage that I don't wanna talk about... but yeah... it was because I had someone who I could tell anything too and she to me... I miss that, I know I got seth, sethos, mark and all these other people but I'd really like someone who I can tell anything to in person all the time, I don't have someone like that anymore... I figured out that is why I get into these moods and all this other stuff... I also gave up trying to make friends at school as soon as she left more started along with the old ones... I guess it is because I don't wanna be hurt or left again like last time... which is why... when I go over to people's houses I try to be nice and clean and all this other stuff when their perents are around... I guess it is because I don't want their perents to hate me... Okay well that was a rant I am sorry but I really had to get that out and I feel better, a lot better, believe it or not. ^.^ Well okay yeah US History there was two girls talking about stuff only BFFs would talk about and that is what brought it on, making me relize how much I really miss her and the way I could tell her anything... I still want to know why she didn't tell me goodbye... that is what I still wanna know after 5-6 years after it happened... Well okay I bet not even half of the people who normally read myo kept reading to this point so I am just gotta cut it here and now... I just want everyone to know that no matter how bad it seems my life is getting I am bot going to do anything that could try and kill me in anyway. No shout outs cause tala feels like shit x.x I love you all <3 -Tala out

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Wednesday, August 17, 2005

Night lasts but a second....
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Mood: Given up, beaten Well I think my shyness just got a tad bit worse... and not for the better. I donno anymore, I just don't. School is gonna bring me back into myself like it did last year and then I was able to dig myself out cause I had someone... But now I donno if I will be able to... Well time for my first day of skool... I should post about it right...? Yeah... I guess I should. Well I went to my reg class and got my final sed. Same classes..wooo x.x Well Ag twasn't bad... I just a fond of the picture idea she has going on... Well Art wasn't bad ether but if any class on A day is gonna break me it is gonna be that class... writing your name many times over a piece of paper... I got bored so with one of my writen names I made it reflect into a pool of water. ^.^ I got very bored in the 45min I had that class... Chem seems very easy I like the teacher, he is funny... though he needs new jokes... We were told that we were gonna have first lunch... but NOOO... we got the last lunch.. and to make it worse I knew I couldn't eat when lunch came so I went ahead and ate... ended up having to dash out and empty a drinking fountain for something that wasn't even hot o.o... Well Study Skills is gonna be a fun class seeing as we have to Jackasses who are High and love to make fun of people... they stuck gum to my chair and I sat in it... nice fellow classmates huh...? Yeah.. I like to think so... only because I don't expect anything else from that school... not that I have had many.. if any friends at that school... Well tomorrow I am gonna shut up the whole day and not talk unless spoken to... I don't care anymore.. I am gonna me the quietest person from this point on. I still will talk on IM but not so much cause this is what I get for going back to school... Well Newbeh has a clone at my school... named Jason... no Newbeh I ain't lying there is someone at my school who looks just like you with the same name... I am gonna be confuised as hell... Well I donno about anything... I can't eat anything... after tonight and that'll last for a while.. o.o damn... Oh well, I only really talk to a handfull, small one, of people on AIM and Yahoo anymore... I don't know, people say I can come to them with my troubles but I don't know about that when they seem to have there own ones to be busy with... I just don't know who I can talk to anymore cause some are invisable, some block me others are just away all the time or just not talking. Sorry I shouldn't sound like this so -shuts up- ..>> -Tala

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Tuesday, August 16, 2005

SKOOL STARTS TODAY NOOOO D:
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Well today I gotta hang out at Main Event (ME) with Mark, Mint, Levi, Newbeh, Eric, Toboe, Tinted, SD, Pocky, Suger, and bunch more I cannot remember the names of right now XD. Gotta love that. Well I played games for a bit and got Minty, Ian, SD and Newbeh all shinny glittery braclets. I got Eric a rave mouth cause his other one don't work. I gotta play a BBall game that messed up my leg, I found I am good at the game ^.^ Well I donno, I seem to be getting a bit outta my depression as of late. I was clinging to teh SD one most of the night ^.\\ Had to leave cause of the 10 'o clock thingy and headed home, saw and nasty wreak on the ride home it twas funny. ;-; I start school today 1) Advanced Animal Sci 2) Art 1 3) Chem 4) Study Skills Tomorrow 5) English 3 6) Algabra 2 7) AP US History 8) Intro to Ag mech >.> God why do all my fun classes have to be the first day back. >.> I needa talk to someone but they be offline. Maybe I will catch them later :3 -Tala

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Monday, August 15, 2005

More Sunday fun o.o okay... -ponders if she even slept then yells FRAWG-
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Well okay I got less than 4hrs of sleep I think I got less than 2-3hrs really... o.o Well I got Suger_snake again... o.o deja vu... XD then got newbeh and headed to mint and levi's.. and eric's I keep forgetting he is there too XDD. sorry Well we got there and newbeh and eric left a bit after we got there, then mark showed up. After all that we played N3 and NUH2. I gotta watch mint play PSO and now I wanna play. Well Mark and tol ran out after levi and mint said they'd meet up with us at le fun. So I ran after mark and them with suger. I followed them to le fun. We got there and ran to the dobe mall, mark and tol played games while I and suger ninja'd 'round the mall for a bit before mark found us. XD Some ninja's huh? Well then we went back to le fun.. -you know I just noticed that I love to be as keen on details as I can... I mean I could most likey tell you the hour, minute and speed I was going.. o.o... but that'd be boring... well one day i will >=) Well okay we played a bit and then I took off to go to the far away 7-11 Mark... once again found me.. I ain't a good ninja. Well he led me back to the others... and at that time right before Mark got to me I relized why I was put under most Shy in most everyone's quizzes... I seem to shut up unless I am being talked to... also I don't like all the attention to me on me.. o.o, dear me... now I bet everyone is gonna try for that I think the only time i don't mind is at the con dances. Well okay I seemed to become Tol's puppy dog at Le fun cause I followed him almost everywhere. -shifty eyes- I seem to be the puppy dog of the most wondering person when in a group unless they are doing something that could attract attention to me then I am the Lone wolf and walk faster and away... Well we split up after talking for a bit after getting back to the cars from the close 7-11 >> I donno why I took towards the far one, I guess I just needed to walk and get away from everyone. Well G'night everyone -Tala

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Sunday, August 14, 2005

Saturday/Sunday fun
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Well first there is gonna be something not of funness posted before I get to the fun but here it goes. All this stuff going on with Seth, Neji and Alex; is bring up a few memories I'd have rather remaind hidden. Well that is it, I ain't going it those memories because I want them forgotten... again. ^.^ ~*~ start of fun ~*~ Well I gotta talk to Newbeh and we are just gonna stay friends, I don't mind cause at least we are still friends. (didn't want it to be messed up with unfun cause like I said still friends -points- XD) Okay well he talked me into getting Suger_snake and meeting him at Ian's house, so I gotta bug the Zabuza of austin once again. =P gotta love knowing where people live, and I didn't get lost or turned around this time. It twas funny. xD Well we got there and suger said that newbeh was already there and sure enough he was. XD Well we headed upstairs and Ian was playing his dreamcast, blade of busurk(sp)-and hopes the game is right-. >> Well then Ian's brother got out DDR which we played for who knows how long, cause we went to go get newbeh's pad, which is metal so now I know where yet another boardie lives, someday I am gonna post everyone that I know the way to their house. Well newbeh called eric and he gave him some good news ( read his myO) Well we sat around for a bit then had to take teh sugery one home (I use the term sugery one losely... that girl gets high and stoned off of suger.. >> ) Well dropped her off then turned around and headed back to newbeh's house and waited for eric. So I gotta hang out with both of them from... um... like 10:30 to... I have no clue XD I know past midnight. Well eric took off and newbeh showed me some Amv's and other neet stuff. Noodle Boy is intressting I'm gonna have to start watching it. Well I took off and headed home, I don't remember when. But I stayed up till around 3-4am and got up around 7-8 so I got less than 4hrs of sleep >> poor mint and levi if they getta see me with lack of sleep. Newbeh and eric saw it last night so I don't worry about that XD. Well wow, I think I will post ONE pic and then do some shout outs for peps. Alora- Come back safe to us now, and fast. I shall miss you while you are gone. Levi, Mint- hope I see you guys today with suger_snake.. Tori- Ummm.. I am hunting wabbits XDD Oro-Kun- nice to talk to you again. -headdesk- let's try and time it betters Sethy- I sure hope you stop kicking yourself over this, no one could have seen what was going to happen I mean no one. Neji- The same goes for you on what I said with Seth, Stop kicking yourself. Mark- IM me dude. ^.^ SD- *hands Oro-kun some chains- you know silver is your color. Tol- Umm -pokes- Newbeh- Nice to hang out with you once agian ^.^ Ian- I am gonna randomly apper more... never mind school starts tues... ;;-.- And if I forgot any person remember it is less than 4hrs of sleep I am runing on.

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