Sunday, July 17, 2005

Gonna sing about the heartland, the only place I feel at home.
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...So sue me I used a country song's lyrics as my subject. Mood: half dead. Singer: Linkin Park Song: Somewhere I belong Well as most of you know, from my past posts, that I am going to O-chibicon in 18days. The weight is killing me and driving me insane. >> As if I needed another reason to go crazy XDD. Well I figure I might as well post my plan on how my days are gonna go. Thursday the 4th: Arrive at the hotel at around 10-11am (I hope) meet up with a friend at noon and find a dark place where I can teach her to rave, then later on I hope to meet up with Kris and teach him to rave. Also gonna pick up my packet for volunteering. I got all the days still needa figure out where I am gonna be and what times. Friday the 5th: Do my volunteering thing, hang out with kris and marzgurl. Go to the rave and pose-off. Saturday the 6th: Still at the rave then go to the hotel and pass out. Wake up do my volunteer thing and hang out with Kris again then go to the rave. Sunday the 7th: Pack up my stuff and put it in my car. Then do all my stuff, after the con head home. I'll add more stuff as I come up with them but this is my con so far. I copied and pasted that from my LJ (TalaKyo), I have now found out where I am to be volunteering. It is in the video rooms. Oi.. this should be fun cause I am on that for A-fest too. I'll also be on it if Rob recomends me to Drift. Well I just need to finish the Armor and I got my Anbu costume but I know 100% that I am going as kakashi and Mizuki. I hope I win the wig on Ebay for kakashi. XD (when this began) I had nothing to say And I get lost in the nothingness inside of me (I was confused) And I let it all out to find That I’m not the only person with these things in mind (inside of me) But all that they can see the words revealed Is the only real thing that I’ve got left to feel (nothing to lose) Just stuck, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [chorus] I wanna heal, I wanna feel what I thought was never real I wanna let go of the pain I’ve felt so long (erase all the pain till it’s gone) I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m close to something real I wanna find something I’ve wanted all along Somewhere I belong And I’ve got nothing to say I can’t believe I didn’t fall right down on my face (I was confused) Looking everywhere only to find That it’s not the way I had imagined it all in my mind (so what am I) What do I have but negativity ’cause I can’t justify the way, everyone is looking at me (nothing to lose) Nothing to gain, hollow and alone And the fault is my own, and the fault is my own [repeat chorus] I will never know myself until I do this on my own And I will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed I will never be anything till I break away from me I will break away, I’ll find myself today [repeat chorus] I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong I wanna heal, I wanna feel like I’m somewhere I belong Somewhere I belong Yeah okay sue me I'm bored now onto pic's then shout outs then the question of the day. XD. I love that picture it's so KAWAII!!! XDD. Well shout outs. Seth- Hope you didn't kill your family. Mark- we got the rot a home so no need to worry about my last shout out to you. Kris- 18days <3 Everyone else, I am just to damn tired for a shout out. Question. Why when translated does Iruka mean Dolpian? Cause he sure don't look like one.

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Saturday, July 16, 2005

Death to my Sleep.. XDD
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Well okay I finally went to bed for a short bit before the grand opening. That placed rocks, Cabela's is KAWAII!!!. I was one of the frist 500 in the store, I think I was the 25th or 24th, but I got a free buck knife. Woot for shinny pointed sharp things XD. Well I didn't get much sleep but I got enought to last me walking around that place. I saw the #88 UPS Nascar. That thing was sweet. Saw the creator of buck knives and he signed my knife ^.\\. I also meet Bill Johnson, part of team Realtree. I bought a new decal for my car, it's a golden vinal lab head. Puppy. I placed it on the same side as my kakashi one so it can be a ninja dog. I also got a reflective dog collar, color green. I'm gonna use that at the dances at con's. And I also go a hat which Bill sighned. When I wear the hat and my glasses I look just like a NASCAR driver it is so funny. On my way home I stopped by Kimba's house and got my reflective tape for my raver ninja costume. From there we headed to the mall, but from KImba's to the mall we saw another famous person.. I donno know his name XD but he was on Lancearmstrong's team last year, I could tell cause of the United States Postal service on his uniform. Well at the mall I shopped around there was a guy in a chicken suit standing in the middle of the road but hey this is austin XD. I got the Harry Potter book at midnight and read to chapter 2 before I feel asleep, i am gonna try and finish it today, I hope I do. Well finally able to say... Going back to the 12th of this month, I had been talking to a guy for about a week or so before the 12th but we finally talked about somethings. So starting at thursday I am no longer single. I got a good feeling about this. I sure hope we stay together for a while to come. Cause I've never been so happy. ;;^.\\ Right Kris. <3 Well das ist alles, >< German... -shivers-. Well shout outs right. Mark- If you want another rotty my firend is getting rid of the one she found. IM me sometime, I'm starting to feel distant around you as of late. Seth- don't kill your family to bad. Kris- <3 You make me a happy kakashi. (speaking of which I might wanna note one of his cosplays: Kankaru XD ) Kimba- thanxy for the tape. Mint- give me a call sometime, you're another one I'm starting to feel distant from. Newbeh- They don't need to be 100% till oni-con so you don't need to rush on them. ^.\\ I thought I'd let ya know. Suger- IM me sometime everyone else, -goes back to reading Harry Potter- I'm ether feeling distant and donno if you'd respond to this or read this. So heh, take care. Question: Why does Naruto love Ramen?? Oh yeah in Anime Insider they misspell Orochimaru's name XDD. I know I do too but I ain't that best with a few names.

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Friday, July 15, 2005

Death to Tala...
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Oi.. my subject may just come true today. Well see there is a grand opening for a sports and outdoors place called Cabela's in Buda.. I am gonna be driving on I-35 around 80-90mph at 5 in the morning so I can get there before all the traffic, which is gonna be there. So in order to do that, I am not going to sleep at all tonight, and I ain't gonna sleep at all this coming night cause of the harry potter book. So I am gonna be driving on less than 5 hours of sleep. So yeah, if no one hears from me on AIM as I am not going to use Yahoo untill sunday, cause no one talks to me on it anymore. Call my Cell ASAP.. I am most likey in the ICU at the hospital if not in the normal place. Well right now I look just like Itachi, but for the hair color and hight and I got acme. Becausemy sunglasses have given me those lines like itachi has on his face. Well I seem to have gotten the last question with no answers but one.. Why does Sasuke's name end in UKE? Seems like I deleted my last post o.O wow.. I didn't mean to do that.. Tala; -- Im me people I am not gonna IM first anymore, unless of corse you're that certain person <3

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Wednesday, July 13, 2005

.. oi..
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Okay I deleted my last post because I feel that is between me and that person. So I'm gonna talk to her myself. That is all, I am still gonna dissaper for a bit but I just wanted to post that.. You In FullMetal Alchemist by AlexiaSilver Full Name Age Fav. Color You are a ---- Alchemist Your Hair Lenght and Color Long , White Hair with Red tips Eye Color Red with Black Specks Alchemy Name CougerTail Alchemist Partner A Alchemist named Rockey Husband Roy M. Your Kids 1 Girl How You Die You died from a random Sickness How Much you will Be Missed: 96% Quiz created with MemeGen! You scored as Anakin Skywalker. Anakin Skywalker 75% General Grievous 67% Clone Trooper 61% Darth Vader 61% Obi Wan Kenobi 56% R2-D2 50% C-3PO 44% Emperor Palpatine 44% Padme Amidala 44% Yoda 42% Chewbacca 39% Mace Windu 33% Which Revenge of the Sith Character are you? created with QuizFarm.com You In FullMetal Alchemist by AlexiaSilver Full Name Age Fav. Color You are a ---- A State Alchemist Your Hair Lenght and Color Long Blond Hair with Gold Tips Eye Color Crystal Blue Alchemy Name CougerTail Alchemist Partner A Cat Named Puffer With White Fur and Wings Husband Al Your Kids 5 Boys How You Die YOu Died of old age How Much you will Be Missed: 1% Quiz created with MemeGen!

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Tuesday, July 12, 2005

...back again xD
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Woot nothing happened today just heard a new song I like. Singer: Simple Plan Song: Welcome to my life Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your room? With the radio on turned up so loud That no one hears you screaming No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Do you wanna be somebody else? Are you sick of feeling so left out? Are you desperate to find something more? Before your life is over Are you stuck inside a world you hate? Are you sick of everyone around? With their big fake smiles and stupid lies While deep inside you're bleeding No you don't know what it's like When nothing feels all right You don't know what it's like To be like me To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life No one ever lied straight to your face And no one ever stabbed you in the back You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay Everybody always gave you what you wanted You never had to work it was always there You don't know what it's like, what it's like To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like (what it's like) To be hurt To feel lost To be left out in the dark To be kicked when you're down To feel like you've been pushed around To be on the edge of breaking down And no one's there to save you No you don't know what it's like Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Welcome to my life Woot-ness for songs. Random question for today: In an ItachixKakashi yaoi, who would be the Uke? (( I blame you Sethos)) -Thanxs to all who responded to my last one, it seems to be a hit so I'm gonna keep posting them.

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Monday, July 11, 2005

.....back... or am I?
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Well I sorted out a bit of my life, and turns out I'm fine with out it is. I know it can get better yeah, but hey if this is the worse life has I can take it, just as long as hell don't apper on earth I can take it. Well I had fun with Photo shop as that Itachi picture in my profile shows, I'll post more as I make them. Seth's gonna kill me for one of 'em. But I like it, it's funny. Well I went to Barton Springs and waited for a bit until everyone was gonna show up did. Newbeh, Dev and I swam for a bit until Eric came to join us. Then got back out. I stayed in the water longest cause I like cold water, It feels good, especally in the summer texas heat. Well we went to go get custard and it was good. I know a lot more stuff happened don't get me wrong, I just donno if I should talk about any of it on myotaku. ;;^.\\ Those who went should understand. But all in all it was fun, we cut it short because not a lot of people went. Well I went home, changed and then left. I talked to Sethos, we're good friends now. I got her phone number tonight and she called me but my phone batt died on her. So I went to my house and had to break into it because I don't have a key to the top lock. That is the short story, I ain't going into the longer story. I finally called and told her what had happened and now I ain't worried but still feeling bad. Well I could have made this post a hell of a lot longer, but I to tired and half the stuff I donno if I can or should talk about. Well bett time, -waves as she randomly starts speaking german-.... Nein, mein bett ist gut. Deinen bett ist toll. Guten tag mein frau... (-instert shoot me now in german-) Well like I said, I can handle life with how it is right now, I want it better but hey it's good right now so why rush. Okay lyrics to a song then pics and then bett. (note song is devoted to my new look on life) Song: Look at me now Singer: Sixwire Sunshine shining in the summertime breeze. The whole world’s smiling, if you know what I mean. Cool, cool time, hangin' out with the boys. An AM radio making some noise. Tunin' in to a moment in time, When everything seemed like the perfect rhyme. Here it is. Here I go. My show. Can’t wait. Gotta do it now ’fore it gets too late. Hey, man, look at me now, Nothing in the world’s gonna get me down. Sparks fly, I’m on fire: Way up high, and I’m getting higher. Turn it loose; turning it on. On a day like this, What could go wrong? Tip my hat, blow a kiss to the crowd. (Hey, man, look at me now.) Green grass growing on the edge of my feet. Feels good knowing I’m not out of my league. Singing a song that I never have sung; Out of my reach on the tip of my tongue. Who knows if tomorrow will come. It really don’t matter ’til this day’s done. Gotta move. Gotta go. My fate. My turn. Still a little daylight left to burn. (Still a little daylight left to burn.) Hey, man, look at me now, Nothing in the world’s gonna get me down. Sparks fly, I’m on fire: Way up high, and I’m getting higher. Turn it loose; turning it on. On a day like this, What could go wrong? Tip my hat, blow a kiss to the crowd. (Hey, man, look at me now.) Sunshine shining in the summertime breeze. The whole world’s smiling, if you know what I mean. Here it is. Here I go. My show. Can’t wait. Gotta do it now ’fore it gets too late. (Gotta do it now ’fore it gets too late.) Hey, man, look at me now, Nothing in the world’s gonna get me down. Sparks fly, I’m on fire: Way up high, and I’m getting higher. Turn it loose; turning it on. On a day like this, What could go wrong? Tip my hat, blow a kiss to the crowd. (Hey, man, look at me now.) Hey, man, look at me now. (Now.) Look at me now. (Now.) Look at me now. (Now.) Look at me now. (Now.) (Hey, man, look at me now.) That is a fast moving song so you have to hear it to understand some of the wording. Mizuki-kun -glomps- I have no clue how someone came up with this one \/ but heh, read and see. Sorry to all the shikamaru fans but I find it funny Today's random question and will be until I get a good answer: Why does Shikamaru have the same circle with a dash through it on his clothes that kakashi-kun has on the back of his Icha Icha Paradise book to say that kids shouldn't read it? Does that mean you can't read or enter him? ;;^.\\ Sorry I have to know. -tala

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Saturday, July 9, 2005

Good bye for a bit...
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M'kay well as I may not dissapper from Yahoo or Aim, I'll dissapper from myotaku for a bit and won't be as talkitive on Aim and yahoo, so if you're on IM me, cause i really don't like IMing people anymore. One's I used to be able to talk with for hours only talk to me for minutes, even when I know they ain't busy. Well this past day I am sick, sore, still got the burn that hurts like hell, and I couldn't eat, but I did so I doupt I'll eat anything tomorrow. Got a fever too which along with it is a headache. Well outta all the bad comes some good. I became good friends with Sethos, and we might share a room for Oni-con when it rolls around. I'm taking Kimba to O-chibicon with me when it rolls around. Gotta talk with Vic for a bit, so yeah I guess this day wasn't a total loss on my part. -headdesk- I want someone to shoot me right now cause of my headache. Well I'm gonna post a few more pictures. ^.\\ hope you guys like... Itachi is Hot!!! Don't get me wrong I will still post if something of talking of happens, other wize this'll be blank and I'll just comment. Wuffers- I'll miss you girl Seth- don't take this post the wrong way.

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Friday, July 8, 2005

-headdesk- x.x
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Well today I really don't got much to post but I am gonna try anyway. To start everything off, if this post has some anger, that's because I am in pain. Today I got my laptop working again, and to get it working I had to give into a butt load of pain. I think I got a first degree burn... >> I had to keep it on my leg for 45min while my comp reloaded and in that time my laptop got super hot. I couldn't move it off my leg until I got it all reloaded. So in turn I got a bad burn on my leg, it still hurts after 5hrs. So in order to get my comp up and running again, I hurt myself. But I can say it was worth it... I think. >>. I just hope it goes away. Well today, the getting my comp up and running was the only good thing in my day. I'm sore from last night, and now I got the burn on my leg. I just don't know what's going on. When I try to be in a good mood, my life suxs but when I'm in a depressing mood my life is fine. I just don't understand. I feel as if I don't know myself anymore. I don't wanna post any of my pics tonight, I just donno anything. Well I think I got a busted rib, but I ain't gonna mess with it. I -shrug- donno right now. I'm tired so I'm gonna do some shout outs sorry if I miss you. Seth- I wanna get-together with you sometime soon. Let me know when you find out. Thanks for listening to my dream... >.> and thanks for not telling anyone. Wuffers- -clings- I don't wanna see you go. Just give the word and I'll kidnap you. Well okay I'm more tired than I thought... Z.z Mark- I have a friend that found a rotty pup. Any tips? -falls dead on ground- okay I'm heading off to bed, maybe I'll have a better day tomorrow. ^.\\ G'night everyone and take care.

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Thursday, July 7, 2005

6hrs of swimming... NANI!!!??
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mood: Slightly tired/happy/random/bitchy Well O-chibicon is nearing of so slowly. My cosplay list for it. Kakashi-Done, just needa spike the hair Mizuki-done ^.\\ Lets hope the people know who the hell I am, or I'm hurting them. Gaara- Not started yet Well today I got together with Evil Kimba from the Ushicon/A-kon/o-chibicon boards. We went out to the S. San Gabril river and went swimming. I almost got a Beer from one of my friends that I meet out there, I didn't take it. As much as I told myself to, I didn't. Donno why I did I just did. Well I didn't get drunk tonight as I wanted too, but meh. I'm okay with it. I got the thing off my chest by hanging out with Kimba. I learned a lot of new stuff about her boyfriend. It was fun. I didn't eat very well again. I only had a large fry and two corndogs all day and I'd say that was from midnight to 9pm I had nothing to eat. Seems that I'm lossing my will to eat. I donno why, I gotta go see the doctor again cause she's gonna need to do a doctor's visit opration on me. x.x Seems that one of the lumps hasn't gone down so she is gonna need to lance it. x.x oi. Well I ate sonic and let Kimba into my house and showed her my wall scroll and all my other shit. xD. Well I learned some new stuff, that was fun. I'm gonna have Newbeh build a prop for my Mizuki costume. I gotta give him the money first. ~*~ Warning: Bitching below ~*~ Well on my way home from dropping Kimba off I almost got into a head on accident with some Jackass. I had to slam on my breaks to not hit him, I'm just gald it was at night and there where no other drivers behind me or I'd be in the hospital ICU at the moment, most likey on life support because I was going fast and I had the green light. Well after almost dying for the -counts- fourth time, my view on life has changed once again. So now I see the world as shit that everything and everyone wants me gone. >> The first near death was when I was in the fourth grade... I'm not going into that at all cause something, this one is no different, is better left forgotten ( I just wish I could). Second and third time I was in the wave pool at Shlitterbahn(sorry if I misspell it). When I almost drowned. The first time that it happened my cousin saw me and pulled me out right as I blacked out. Looking back I kinda wish she didn't x.x cause I'd love to have gotten the pool closed and the lifeguard near me fired. The second I got myself out, Once again the lifeguards did nothing but sit on their nice asses. And now this time. I donno why the world wants me dead, havn't I proven myself fucked up enought to live in it already. -mutters stuff to self- I mean, I made the choice to not kill myself or harm myself and now this happens. God I mean... Sorry I'm ranting I'll stop. I just found out something else so this'll be the last rant in my post. I love my BF and all but he wants to have a relationship with someone else. One, two days top I've been with him and he says this. So like the Sub I am I say sure go right ahead. I just want him to be happy. It's the way I am. So I guess I'm free once again... >> I guess I'm just ment never to have anyone. I'm fine with that. ~*~ Bitching Finished ~*~ I just wish the dream I had would come true. This is the first one I want to, also. I have my reasons but I'd rather not say 'em ;;^.\\. I'll tell you about them later, next time we talk Seth. Well no shout outs, but I do have some more nice pics ^.\\. -tala out. I'll post more pics tomorrow.

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Wednesday, July 6, 2005

Warning: Tired slight ranting/mood-ness may be held in this post
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Okay first off, I'm not in my Gaara mood, I'll say it again I ain't in it. I'm just tired so they way I say things may be strange. Well I had another intressting dream, I am not going to tell anyone but myself what that dream was about for fear the person who it was about might hear about it, and seeing how that person reads all my posts I can't post it here. Oi.. I will say who it's NOT about. Mark, Seth, Zappa, Wuffers, Tori, ect. Well upon waking I got on the comp and talked with Clan elder Danzig and fellow footsolider Kimba for a bit. Then I had to get off, dentist appt. At least they didn't find anything. Well upon coming home no one was still on. Oh well I amuzed myself by watching foamy and reading and looking at fan drawing of Naruto. I wanted to go swimming in the South San Gabril today with a friend but she didn't wake up until 5-6. x.x. She sleeps as much as you work, mark. Well I tomorrow I plan on going back home to my house for a bit and get this thing off my shoulders. I'd rather not say what it is, but Seth, Mark, ect, if you want to know what it is let me know. I'm more likey than not gonna have a bit of wine when I get home to see if that'll help ;^.\\ though me drunk is never good and it never solves anything. Well memories of the past have stirred once again in my mind, I ain't going to live in them cause they are the past the only good the past is for, is so we can learn from it. As they say, those who don't learn from history are doomed to repeat it. ^.\\. I might be going swimming with Kimba later this week and on Sunday I'm going to the austin boardies picnic at Barton springs. I just hope I can find it. x.x well right now I'm dead to the world because 1) I'm tired 2) meh, no one seems to talk to me anymore 3) It feels like I'm hung over but I'm not unless I got drunk and don't remember. ;;^.\\ Seth- Let me know next time I can come over and hang out, Okay? I'm starting to feel distant from you sis and next time I get those eyes that much I'm just gonna log off. >> -wonders if she'll use that to force me to sleep now- Everyone else I'm just to damn tired to give shout outs but I'll post two of the comics I found. -gotta love kakashi Tala out G'night all and stay safe -dies on her computer-

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