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Sunday, April 16, 2006
-yawns- Well... I have a summer job that pays nice. $7 dollars an hour for 43 hours a week for about 12 weeks. It's not bad, I should have s little over, $1500 for moving out after that job so I can keep a place with a room mate for 4 months if they actually pay. So I am hoping. -shrugs- I am actually going to start the job this week in hopes of getting SKC money, saddly it won't be a lot but oh well. It is money. x3 |
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Saturday, April 15, 2006
Namid: Tala is kinda having a bad day full of mixed emotions and... for once, is actually quiet tonight. -looks over at Tala-
Tala: You leave me alone, it's yours and Xaviers fault...
Namid: You are just trying to blame everyone but yourself hmm..??
Tala: -looks aways and curls into a dark corner- You know what Namid... people seem to like you more than me, I'll just let you be me...
Namid: Tal.. -is cut off by her throwing something at him- Sorry...
Well... it seems like Tala doesn't want to live anymore, she has just kinda of given up. I can't say I wouldn't do the same when what's happened to her has happened. Well let me start from the beginning...
As of Monday she's kinda had her heart pulled into four different ways... one of the ways she kinda driffed to, yet she found out... that the person didn't even exist, it was one of her "friends" playing a trick on her... so she didn't give someone the chance she was going to...
Her friends have drifted from her, no longer do they invite her to hang out and being Tala she is scared to Call anyone... she doesn't really like calling people... she is just a wreak, she cried herself to sleep last night wishing she had listened to her mind instead of her heart...
I know I am going to get hit for saying this but Tala still loves Iruka with almost all of her heart, even know it is slowly healing she... just... well is hurt that Iruka and her no longer talk the way they used to... I can see what she is getting at but... -sighs- I think all she wants is to have someone she can trust, actually see spending the rest of her life with and raising a family... I don't know anymore with her, I just wish she could learn to could on her friends and learn she isn't alone...
Xavier: We are all alone, no one loves us and no one cares for us, but ourselves...
Namid: Xavier... that... nevermind... for a while Tala wasn't emo and she could be happy... yet she listened to others and turned herself into what she is right now... I know why Tala wants to leave this earth... but I promised I wouldn't say...
Tala: Namid... Xavier is right... how can I count on anyone else when I know that they'll just end up leaving me... it has always happened... and it'll keep happening...
Namid: ... Tala come on...
Tala: NO!!! I actually hope I don't get to go to SKC... then I won't have to deal with the pain I'll feel in my heart when I see them... together...
Namid: Tala... never mind...
Tala: You and Xavier can have fun... I don't want to come out again, I give it three days before people forget I was even alive...
Xavier: I put my money on two..
Namid: You two... -sighs- I guess I'm the only one who trys to think positive..
Tala: I have one final thing to say before I vanish... it is to Iruka... anata ga totemo suki, ai shite imas. Sabishiku narimas.
Namid: I don't know what that means... but I think it has something to do with what happened before Ushicon when something was promised... yet never happened...
Tala: Good bye
Xavier: The bet is on now.
Namid: Come on you two... -shakes head- if Tala ever does come out... she won't be the same, I can see this much now.
****Namid~* |
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Friday, April 14, 2006
"Time causes things to change, people change like the seasons, they leave yet when the same season comes back around, they are different."
My mom is more than likly gonna take my SKC money from me so I highly doupt that I can go. Again, with the good comes the bad.
"I wish my heart could forget you, but how can you forget the one who taught you what it felt like to truly love."
I promised my dog that I wouldn't let any harm come to him and I would keep it until he died, so he and I are going to vanish together. One day we will just up and leave... hopefully no one will find me... and I can live alone as it seems my life wants me to be.
"Just forget that you knew me, erase my face from your mind, forget my name, just leave me in the past and have me gone from your life."
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
"Seasons come and Seasons go... nothing ever stays the same..." -Holes in the Floor of Heaven.
I guess I'm gonna be posting a quote instead of a song as my start now... song will be at the end.
Well... I know I keep saying that sooner or later all my friends leave me... I think that's finally hit some of my friends... Please if you are gonna do something with a handful of my friends which are also your friends... don't tell me about it after you do it... especally if you knew I wanted to hang out with you...
I wish I had a scanner at this moment so I could scan a picture with a new quote I made that I love... "Everytime life leaves someone behind... an Angel dies."- Tala I love that quote because it fits me... life has left me behind so many times, I think I've killed a dozen angels...
Well... the Tala a lot of people knew is about to vanish... I am still going to be here... after the storm on tuesday... I promised my dog I'd let no harm fall on him... so until he dies, I have to live for him... I found one thing to live for... one thing to hold me to this life... But I am going to be distant... I am still going to joke and laugh as normal, but I won't say it unless someone starts it first.
It's days like this I just go back to my Elementry school days with Melissa... I know you can't repeat the past and I won't ever see her again... but I just have to wonder... what it would be like if we meet again... would she remember me? Would I beable to recognize her? All that stuff...
When I was middle school... I was who I was because of her...
One last quote... "I can't even hold onto the one person I love... how can I hold onto a single friend?"-TK
Well no song tonight...
-TK |
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Tuesday, April 4, 2006
I'm alive....kinda
"Before"
Ooh Ooh Ooh
Never knew I was existing
Getting by from sun to sun
Missing out on what my life
Someday would become
There were friends and there were lovers
There were times I really cared
And every now and then
Someone I thought
I always wanted there??
I laughed and dreamed
I moved to my heartbeat
I never lived before
Never felt before
Never breathed
Until I breathed the same air as you
I never gave before
Always wanted more
And with one touch I knew I'd never loved
Before....you
It's like I never saw a sunrise
Til I woke up by your side
Like I didn't see the moon until
I saw it in your eyes
I never kissed
Until your lips touched mine
I never lived before
Never felt before
Never breathed
Until I breathed the same air as you
I never gave before
Always wanted more
And with one touch I knew I'd never loved
Before
Before you there was no music
No rhythm and no rhyme
Now life is like a symphony
And my heart is alive
I never lived before
Never felt before
Never breathed
Until I breathed the same air as you
I never gave before
I always wanted more
And with one touch I knew I'd never loved
Before....You
Oh oh oh
One touch I knew
I never loved before
Well Looks like I am somewhat alive... yet I really don't know reality from the real world... I can tell my dreams from my life... I am messed up after what I did... My sanity.. or what I had of it... is somewhat gone...
I'll let Namid and Xavier fight over who posts until the end comment... which is for someone who I dearly miss from my life...
Namid: Eh... Well Tala has been letting me out almost all day now and everything, she seems to say that I act like her so no one will notice that She is gone. She is acting weird but she has promised to come out a bit more... I think Zappa had something to do with that.
Tala: Skrew the last part... I just wish we could talk like we used to before we became friends... we could talk endlessly for hours... and now... an hour... Ha... we barely get even 10 lines.. |
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Friday, March 31, 2006
Dubble post
For those of you who don't know... I have another Myotaku... and seeing as I will not post what I have posted there on here...
www.myotaku.com/users/skarler ... that is my other myotaku... feel free to read... and maybe read my last post ever... |
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Dum de dum....
Sound the bugle now - play it just for me
As the seasons change - remember how I used to be
Now I can't go on - I can't even start
I've got nothing left - just an empty heart
I'm a soldier - wounded so I must give up the fight
There's nothing more for me - lead me away...
Or leave me lying here
Sound the bugle now - tell them I don't care
There's not a road I know - that leads to anywhere
Without a light feat that I will - stumble in the dark
Lay right down - decide not to go on
Then from on hight - somewhere in the distance
There's a voice that calls - remember who your are
If you lose yourself - your courage soon will follow
So be strong tonight - remember who you are
Ya you're a soldier now - fighting in abattle
To be free once more -Ya that's worth fighting for
Hehe, gotta love that movie ^.^
Well yesterday... I was right... one of my friends was RUN over by a train here in Cedar Park... go figure... I need better thoughts... He's okay though =P
I saw Ice Age 2 |
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Monday, March 27, 2006
event
We're supposed to start work down on the river today.
And for Joe and me, it's some pretty good pay.
Now, I was countin' on him
To be at the dock by ten.
A week's pay says he's still at home,
'Cause the boy's in his own time zone
I'm a waitin' on Joe, whaddya know.
Time flies fast and he is slower than a.....
I told him over and over: "Now don't you be late."
Ah, but like always,
I'm just sittin' on go,
And waitin' on Joe.
Yeah.
Towboat's a leavin' 'cause it don't care.
What's not on board and who's not there.
Once that whistle blows,
Down the mighty river it rolls.
Man if I could be more like that,
I'd get on with my life and never look back.
Instead of waitin' on Joe, whaddya know.
Time flies fast and he is slower than a.....
I told him over and over: "Now don't you be late."
Ah, but like always,
I'm just sittin' on go,
And waitin' on Joe.
Waitin' on Joe.
And he's in a hurry,
'Cause he's runnin' behind.
Now I'm not one to worry,
But I've got a real bad feeling this time.
Oh, oh, oh, whoa.
'Cause sirens are crying all through this town.
And one old boy said Joe never slowed down.
It was that 12 O'clock train,
So he didn't feel a thing,
Lord,. I believe that my brother's all right,
Still I'm prayin' he'll just give me a sign.
Yeah, I'm a-waitin' on Joe, whaddya know.
Time flies fast and he is slower than a.....
I told him over and over: "Now don't you be late."
Ah, but like always,
I'm just sittin' on go,
And waitin' on Joe.
Waitin' on Joe.
Mergy again...
Xavier: -blinks and stares at Tala-
I don't know why, I've been feeling weird all this weekend. Okay lets start with friday..
Friday:
I went to see that Larry the Cable guy movie. It kicked ass. Found out I can get my Ex-boss fired and get my job back. I'm good with wanting her gone, but I don't want my job back there. xD
Saturday:
I had to wake up at 4 in the morning -dies- for a TAMU compation in College Station with FFA. We stared and Judged Horses all day. After all that was over with we went to go eat on A&M campus. Twas ta fun... until... I got a fortune cookie that I'm worried will come true... unless it is telling about what has already happened...
The cookie said "Love is the only way to mend a broken heart." I hope that thing doesn't mean anything about Ty or something... I just kept thinking about for the rest of the day until I went to mark's. Hehe Foam weapons are fun, but ATVs are funnier. This time I didn't hurt myself with the ATV... hehe, but I rammed my leg into a peice of rebar sticking out of the ground. =P
Sunday:
I sat around the house doing nothing but watching Anime, nascar and random shit. I let Xavier come out of hiding for a bit so he could calm down. I think he behavied himself fairly nicely. hehe
Xavier: .... me nice HA!
-rolls eyes- okay then... the song I posted is... well I'm feeling meh, I didn't know Steven all that well and he didn't die by a train... but I can't help but feel one of my friends is about to get killed in a train wreak... call me crazy but it's true...
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Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Namid: Hehe, Tala actually has let me come out today.
Only because I dyed my hair and it matchs your personality more than me.
Namid: True -chuckles- Well yep, Tala dyed her Hair Dark brown with Crimson Highlights. It looks go on her. ^.^ -murrs and churrs-
Heh, I actually got looked at... even guys who'd normally never notice me saw me. -blinks in utter disbelife- Oh well, after Shiokazecon, I'm getting this perment. -grins- I even have a friend who may talk his friend into letting me get a tattoo. =P Hehe -twees-
Xavier- Phuff... you should wait till you're 18... just wait, you'll love it more.
No I won't I'll love it just the same, smiles and dances around.
Namid: Tala, Xavier is right... it's out body too.
Zart would agree with me...
Namid: Well let her come out then. I know how you love it when she is in control.
Uh... nevermind... -growls- I'm gonna get it if he'll do it... I don't care. He does a good job you saw that. The killer dragon on my friends arm.
Namid: -shoves Tala down into a box with duck tape around her mouth-
Tala: -lets out muffled crys for help-
Xavier- Just go to sleep you -shoots a tranq into Tala's neck and watchs as she falls into a deep sleep-
Namid: Thank you Xavier. -looks at the sleeping Tala- I wonder if she's gonna let me out more often now?? Oh well, hehe. |
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Saturday, March 18, 2006
I am bored so I took random quizzes here
Yaoi Personality Quiz brought to you by Yaoi-manga.com
Pain lies behind your eyes. You may seem normal on
the outside, but on the inside there is
something destroying you. You don't talk
about it because you hope it will go away.
But no matter how hard you try, you can't
hide from it. Maybe if you try talking to
someone, you may be relieved...
What lies behind your eyes? brought to you by Quizilla
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