Monday, April 25, 2005

   Wasting away slowly.. not caring anymore.
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Time: 8:12 Song: Travlin' Soldier. Singer: Ty England *true singer Dixie Chicks just stole it* Well went to bed around midnight, sry sethy. I get the feeling two of my online friends *not naming s/ns* are avoiding me. *Shrugs* Nothing new really, I make friends they call me a friend and then just stop talking to me and just plain forgetting me. I woke up a bit late still feeling depressed about the fact that two of my "Friends" seem to be avoiding me. Other than that it starts as a good day. I head to school and eat breakfast and just do the same ol'. A person I hang out with at school *is gonna stop calling people friends in a while and just calling them people or people that avoide me, ect stuff like that* I've made myself a promise that I'm gonna stop making friends, if i still call 'em that* after a-kon. Why make friends when they just seem to avoid you and not do anything with you? I'll only have 6-9 true friends and yes I'll still call them friends. Well I went to bio and had a test I didn't study, well okay day went bad. After the test I wrote a song called "Welcome Home." My next class I finished my world history stuff and then got on mobile no one on. So I just sat back and listened to my new trance CD. Lunch time, I just had my last lunch ever. I'm not eating lunch again. I just don't care anymore, why care when I'll always be alone. No I'm not living in the past cause I'm stating a fact. World history and we got into our Humanitcs unit. I'll do go in this cause I finally get to work alone. Math we did two worksheets and took notes. *Shrugs* same ol' day. Went home got online. No one on so I just layed down alone. Finally Vash logged on and I talked with him for a bit then he logged off to go visit his friends *sighs* I wish I could do that. Well I put my CD's into my comp and saved them so I don't havta change music anymore. Tori-You're one of my true friends Seth-Your not a true friend, you're my sister. Mint & Levi & Eric- You two are also my True friends. Vash-*shrugs* donno if you read this but you're one of my true friends. Newbeh-You're one Alora-you're one Mark-Bro i wish I could catch you online a bit more. Cause you're the only one who can really cheer me up. Tol-Just forget about all I said about liking you I think it's making you feel akward around me. I'm just glad to have you as a friend and nothing more. Rememeber that. I've got a few more true friends but cannot rememeber the names atm. Update ~* My mom just made me feel guilty about not hanging out with her anymore. I know my mom's nice and all but she is the reason I'm deperessed a lot along with other things I ain't going into. But I never tell her anything anymore she has no clue how many times I've come close to death because of her making things worse that they already where. *~ -This is Tala saying "I wish people would talk to me more instead of avoiding me." *Does and curls up in a dark place, alone*

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