Sunday, May 22, 2005

I am not afraid of pain, nor sorrow. But this loneliness, this futility, this emptiness
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Well this has been the best day of my life...*rolls eyes* I wish. Well the day started out good.. I guess... I donno. I woke up as my mom was leaving for Las Vagas... damn dogs.. I wanted to sleep longer. I should taken that as a sign of things to come.. oh boy should I have. Well after many trys to get back to sleep.. none of which worked... I got online and chatted a bit before heading off to walmart to get stuffs to eat. Well I got home and got online again. No one really one... guess people are just to busy or no one really wants to talk with me anymore. I donno... Well I got my dogs and headed out to PetCo... and so starts my way back down the hill that I call life. Upon arriving I was in a good mood, then it happens. I get my happyness taken away by some JackAss. As I was walking into PetCo I try and stop my dog from barking by holding 'im a certain way. He comes up to me and says "You don't need to hurt your dog." That did it, that shot all happyness I had down the drain. I wasn't hurting my dog, but the fact that some guy who came out of nowhere and said that to me. See I am the type of person who would, go and kill myself over that small comment. It is the way I am, but I bet even if he'd known that he'd still have said it to me. Well I left the store with a harness for my dog, who I was "hurting." Then headed home. On the way home, I have to slam on the breaks and my dog comes flying to the front and puts the car in park. God as if my day wasn't bad enough. Well I got home and got right online. Talked to a few people before they had to go. Still gets the feeling that people no longer want to talk with me. Well I'm gonna end this part with a song I wrote a while ago. It suxs but bare with me... Have you....? By Tala As the sun slowly fades, I stare up at the stars. I count them one by one as they come out to play. A tear slowly fills my eye, as old memories drift back. Somewhere I hear a lone wolf call to the moon. As I think back on your words, questions flood my mind. (Chours) Have you ever seen me cry? my tears are the drops that fall from the darkened clouds. From the clouds all my pain falls fast to the earth. Have you ever seen me bleed? My blood shows on that of battle grounds. A selfless war fought to see who's stronger. I run fast as the wind, or as slow as the tides. I cry each time blood is shead. My tears fill the ocean, rivers, lakes and seas. If you havn't guessed by now, I am nature. I can hear the animals cry, as the mortals kill them off. No reason needed, they just didn't like then so they want them gone. (repeat chours) The wild horsess that thunder across the plains. The lone snow white wolf that pads across the grass. I am everything, everything is me. All I have to say... to the people is... (repeat chours 2x's fade out second time) Well that's my song. Suxs doesn't it. Seth- I'm going to try my hardest never to do it again. Please punish me at your Bday. If I come... Wuffers and Mark- Ummm.. I'll IM you, your little things. Tori- umm yeah. Hi Everyone else. Don't tell me to cheer up. Please, I'll do that monday when I goto Main Event and DDR my ass off after having 9L of Dr.Pepper.

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