Sunday, June 19, 2005

Oi... Reread everyone's last myotaku posts.... and it's F***ing Father's day...God I hate this day.
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Well okay, I can take a hint. I took you off of my friends list here and on Yh! too. Meh.. so starts the friends falling off one by one. x.\\. I also noticed who comments on others myotaku's but not on mine... I kinda wish I hadn't re-read your post now cause it was early in the morning and on today of all days when I'm gonna be on edge about every little thing that I read or do... But yeah, today is the day I've been wanting to skip... father's day...I'm gonna be on edge about everything no matter what it might be: good or bad. I want to forget about him, but how can I do that if there is a day like today and leading up to it every radio station has something about today, been playing for the past week and Tv channels have specials(sp) for today... Well no one really has talked to me about hanging out... which I really wanted to do just so I could forget what today is. *sighs* Oh well, life goes on...right? Don't know who I'll be able to talk to on AIM and YH! because of stuff. *sighs again* O.\\ Wow okay ready for sudden change in topic... I just noticed I have this long scar on my knee, and I have no f***ing Idea on how it got there. Wow that was a random topic change. But back to my little rant thing. Yeah I havn't been getting lots of sleep as I should be, I havn't been eatin' well ether. Don't get me wrong I'm trying to, honest, I am. I just can't seem to do ether. I'm starting to scare myself. But that's not the only reason for being scared. I found a lump under my arm and it seems to be growing... I wonder what it is? I hope it's not skin cancer cause that's just what I need another F***ing thing bad about my health. Let's see doc said I'm overweight... I got High Blood Pressure and they still have yet to figure out why a 13 had high BP. (I ain't 13 not but I was when they told me I have high BP.. did many test.) Asthma... sleep apnea(sp?), the list can go on for a bit longer but I'll stop there... You understand what I'm going at... I also have found out, kinda like Seth has, that I am going to be single forever and there is no way around it. Just something I gotta live with and so I shall. ^.\\. Mark- So it is you and Mint?? *pokes with a stick trying to get an responce*. Alora- I doupt you read my posts but I want to say something. This is your LJ thingy, post what you want. I do, even if people tend to stop reading it for a bit,I still post what I want. You should too. ^.\\ Seth- You're welcome for the Gryffe and you don't have to pay me back, I did it because I wanted to. You know what that's about all my shout outs to friends cause they are the only ones who I know that read my posts. I donno if wuffers or Tori do anymore. *takes out gun and shoots self* See this is what I am gonna be like all day. All because of this day. Also when I got thinking about me being single It made me realize something else. My dad ain't gonna be there to give me away...I hope you people who read this know where I'm going cause I ain't gonna go on. Damn it I hate this day so much... And so I leave you with a song... Darryl Worley Song: If Something Should Happen Lyrics: Buddy you and me go way back Camp all June, all through highschool and before that. So I don't mind tellin you I'm scared to death. The doctor is goin in on the 25th It's the same thing my daddy had Thank God they caught it fast. But if something should happen Stop in some time and say hello to Catherine You and Marianne could always keep her laughing Because shes gonna need a lot of that Take her out to a movie It's gonna take sometime before shes back on her feet. I know you think I'll be fine and I'm talkin crazy But theres always that chance That's why I'm askin If something should happen Little Nathan is growing up so fast This November he'll turn 10 He wants to play quarterback. I'm supposed to coach his team this fall But I may not get to afterall He's gonna need someone to catch a pass And to throw it back If something should happen Oh promise me you'll take that boy out campin Throw a line out in the water every now and then Answer and questions that he has Maybe once he gets older You can sit and have that first cold beer together And tell him a couple stories on his father He's always known your my best friend. That's why I'm askin If something should happen I hope I live until I'm 80 And I get to see my son get married And have some babies And make a million more memories with my wife. Yeah buddy I pray alright But if it's my time to leave Could you watch over them for me? If something should happen If something should happen If something should happen If something should happen If something should happen If something should happen

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