Thursday, July 7, 2005

6hrs of swimming... NANI!!!??
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mood: Slightly tired/happy/random/bitchy Well O-chibicon is nearing of so slowly. My cosplay list for it. Kakashi-Done, just needa spike the hair Mizuki-done ^.\\ Lets hope the people know who the hell I am, or I'm hurting them. Gaara- Not started yet Well today I got together with Evil Kimba from the Ushicon/A-kon/o-chibicon boards. We went out to the S. San Gabril river and went swimming. I almost got a Beer from one of my friends that I meet out there, I didn't take it. As much as I told myself to, I didn't. Donno why I did I just did. Well I didn't get drunk tonight as I wanted too, but meh. I'm okay with it. I got the thing off my chest by hanging out with Kimba. I learned a lot of new stuff about her boyfriend. It was fun. I didn't eat very well again. I only had a large fry and two corndogs all day and I'd say that was from midnight to 9pm I had nothing to eat. Seems that I'm lossing my will to eat. I donno why, I gotta go see the doctor again cause she's gonna need to do a doctor's visit opration on me. x.x Seems that one of the lumps hasn't gone down so she is gonna need to lance it. x.x oi. Well I ate sonic and let Kimba into my house and showed her my wall scroll and all my other shit. xD. Well I learned some new stuff, that was fun. I'm gonna have Newbeh build a prop for my Mizuki costume. I gotta give him the money first. ~*~ Warning: Bitching below ~*~ Well on my way home from dropping Kimba off I almost got into a head on accident with some Jackass. I had to slam on my breaks to not hit him, I'm just gald it was at night and there where no other drivers behind me or I'd be in the hospital ICU at the moment, most likey on life support because I was going fast and I had the green light. Well after almost dying for the -counts- fourth time, my view on life has changed once again. So now I see the world as shit that everything and everyone wants me gone. >> The first near death was when I was in the fourth grade... I'm not going into that at all cause something, this one is no different, is better left forgotten ( I just wish I could). Second and third time I was in the wave pool at Shlitterbahn(sorry if I misspell it). When I almost drowned. The first time that it happened my cousin saw me and pulled me out right as I blacked out. Looking back I kinda wish she didn't x.x cause I'd love to have gotten the pool closed and the lifeguard near me fired. The second I got myself out, Once again the lifeguards did nothing but sit on their nice asses. And now this time. I donno why the world wants me dead, havn't I proven myself fucked up enought to live in it already. -mutters stuff to self- I mean, I made the choice to not kill myself or harm myself and now this happens. God I mean... Sorry I'm ranting I'll stop. I just found out something else so this'll be the last rant in my post. I love my BF and all but he wants to have a relationship with someone else. One, two days top I've been with him and he says this. So like the Sub I am I say sure go right ahead. I just want him to be happy. It's the way I am. So I guess I'm free once again... >> I guess I'm just ment never to have anyone. I'm fine with that. ~*~ Bitching Finished ~*~ I just wish the dream I had would come true. This is the first one I want to, also. I have my reasons but I'd rather not say 'em ;;^.\\. I'll tell you about them later, next time we talk Seth. Well no shout outs, but I do have some more nice pics ^.\\. -tala out. I'll post more pics tomorrow.

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