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• 1988-09-22
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• 2005-03-20
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• Tala-Namid

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• Since I was 5-6
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• Hell, I like 'em all,
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• Go to Japan
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• Collecting random things and sharp objects *oooo sword*, Anime, stalking people, chatting online, anoying my little *um donno if i would call it this* dog, ridding horses, Watching tv/anime/moives, reading fantasy/sci fi/manga/ect, looking for a job, draw
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• Drawing, writing fanfic/fantasy/ect,singing, raving.

myOtaku.com: wolfdemontala

Sunday, October 2, 2005

Downwards to the ground...
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I've been hidding my saddness behind a mask called a smile. I put on a show for you, so you wil not worry. I don't ask for help even when I need it. I have learned that to give trust is to betray oneself. Life I've thought up until now as a game, one where if I lose I can come back and play again... Now I know life isn't a game. I can't just come back once I've died, I just lay in limbo, waiting for something that'll never come.. as I am waiting now..

That short poem/motto that I found seems to sum up my who life. I'm also starting to feel that love is pointless... I want to patch things up with Iruka but.. seems fate has other plans.. namely rita, seems that nature and fate have teamed up to keep us appart. I am still kicking myself for what I did that thursday in september.. I wish I could be forgiven and take it all back up that can't happen. I can't be forgiven for the stupid mistake I made.. and no one can go back in time..

My head hung low as tail tucks between legs, a scared little dog that submits to all. Ears pinned back against the skull.. a wounded animal.. some amuzment for a sick person to play with...

I know this seems ranty or something else along those lines.. I don't really care..

Seems that everyone I like will never like me more than a friend.. I have already figured out that fate wants me alone.. so I guess I'll play along with it and be alone as it seems that I am to be.. I guess you should consider this my goodbye post.. I don't expect myself to update this again.. hell I may even get rid of it.. Oh well if you wanna talk I got my yahoo and aim up.. MSN just add @hotmail.com

Iruka.. if you read this.. I'm sorry

-turns and slowly walks into the distance, darkness slowly swolling the body-

~TK

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