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Monday, October 3, 2005
In memory of my pained heart
Okay I don't know how to start this off so here we go..
You want me to.. live a life that I no longer want. Live a life where I have forgotten about you, all memories gone never to be seen again. A life in which we never go near or do anything together.. fine if that's what you want... I'll live that life..
I'll erase you from my mind and my heart. I won't think of you ever, I'll keep away... I'll try to love again...
That life however will be hard for me to live... cause believe it or not.. I really loved you.. I thought this would be forever.. but I had to do, go and say the words lets stay friends... those words killed me the second I said them..
Now a pained heart.. a friend to me.. even if I erase your memories for me.. my heart will still pain cause no matter how hard I may try... a heart can never forget, and mine be no exeption to that rule...
I still wanna say fuck love.. it's worthless... well I just said it huh.. but... fine, for you I won't give up, I'll keep looking for a person that isn't out there..
The tears I've cried wanting together again.. the tears of a hurt, stupid girl.. if this is life, who needs a hell.. cause I don't know anything that can be worse than this.. if there is.. then I hope I never end up there...
I'll life this lie life... I'll keep looking for a love that isn't there... just because you want me too.. I never wanted it to be this way.. I wanted to stay by your side till the end of time... till death...
-Sighs- Well it seems as though I have finally had a taste of true, honest to god love... then I go and ruin it... I am a fucked up person to go an do that...
Iruka I donno if you are gonna read this now... I'll honor your wish... as much as it'll pain me thought it might be easier to tell me to stay away...
A little comment I know I'm human people, humans hurt, humans mess up and humans die.. this is how I know I am human.. I hurt, I've messed up.. big time... as for dying... I have already died on the inside...
Iruka... from me to you... I still will love you no matter what happens...
To everyone else who reads these posts... you can tell I fucked up... this'll be my last post for a while... I just want everything to get back to normal...
 
-Tala Kyo |
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