Wednesday, May 17, 2006

yea i know it has been a bit since i have been on here and posted well, this is my bro and sis last week of school so the will be getting out soon for summer vication so when that happens who know when it may be i will be able to get online i do what i need to do. Plus it does not help when my bro has two computer games on here so who know how long he will be playing them for cause even if we do have a time limit he will not follow it. Also i am not realy happy with my lil sis saveing all this stupid yaoi pics to this computer and she has been told meay time by my mom and dad not to save pics but she does not listen at all she still saved them any way casue she is one hard head lil girl who thinks she can do any thing she wants to do. Hopefully my mom has something planded to keep them busy from being on this computer so much. I am finel getting me another Dir En Grey cd that has one of my fav songs on it and that song is cage. Well thats about it i am off to work on my msn group i have a lot to do onn there.

Later

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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

Yea i changed my theam again back to dir en grey. well i can not help it i am obssed with them and thats all there is to it with me. WHen i get obssesed with something i can not help it at all i am just liek that.
YEasterday my damn bro pissed me off he come in from school and demaned me to make kool aid when i did not empty it. I do not drink stuff with surgar in it any more cause i am loseing weight and want to keep on loseing it right now i am at 159lbs witch is good for me cause last time i checked i was closr to 200lbs so i am glade i am no longer near that any more.
Damn my luck just never can change around this family were i am always getting blamed for stuff that i do nto do and my siblinges damanding me to do stuff i am the god damn second oldest around this house and they think they can tell me what to do that is fucked up. I am so tired of there shit around here.
Only tywo more mounths till my b-day and i will be 18 and then they better not mess with me cause i will beat the hell out of them well to end this off with a few dir en grey pics. Shinya the drummer is a cross dresser so he can match the others costumes. Thats a lil fact i know and there know you other diru fans know it also.










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Saturday, April 22, 2006

IM BACK THEY FINLEY FIXED THE DAMN COMPUTER TOWER!!!
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Thursday, April 13, 2006

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Wednesday, April 12, 2006

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Wednesday, April 5, 2006

leaveing tonight at 10 pm will be gone for 5 days. see you all when i return
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Monday, April 3, 2006

Hey, I thought i would let all of my friends know that until next monday i will be gone to taxes. If you do not know why we are going down there here is the reson. My mother is going down there to do a wedding for a friends friend and her fiance so i decied to go so i can get away from my bro and get away from him hitting on me all the time and from starting a fight with me. I mean it is so damn stupid the way he is always hitting on me. If only my punches would fase his ass i would beat the liveing shit out of him for all the times he has hit me. Also i am doing it cause i need a break away from this house with all this work i am doing aroudn the house when they are at school cause they just get up and think of hey mom and big sis is here they will clean the house i am so tired of that bull shit they need to learn to clean up after there selfs. They sicken me with how leazey they are and that is even worse then any thing is how damn lazey they are even on the weekends. But damn do they work when allowence day is around the corner even then if they have not done there work threw out the week they will not get it.

Well guess i am done. Just had to vent all that anger out i had about them today so it does not nip at me during my trip to teaxs with my mom.

see you all next monday
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Friday, March 24, 2006

Isolation Thirst
poem not writen by me

Alone in the far corner
of a world of dreams
I listen to the plaintive whisper
of sweet memories with wings
clipped with time fluttering
a sedate, soothing rythm
through this cool flesh sliding
so namelessly familiar
over this landscape of loose
translation. She kisses me,
slowly forces herself through me;
my trembling assembles a tacit myth:
this is of significance.
We move in lasting time,
resisting a sense of desperate secrecy.
Then, somewhere far below us,
the strangers, the rest of them,
begin to stir. I need not ask
she stay until I forget.
And we are laughing--
the day has come too soon
And we are sobbing.
This is a stranger's clutch;
so little time to learn so much--
as if no other night could bring
such a futile, fleeting touch.
And because she sighs,
and because she sings
as she becomes my pain--
I must steal the night again.





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Monday, March 20, 2006

I hade one fun weekend with my friend. Even thow i mostley played with her lil bro when she was watching law and order or just writeing her story that she is not done with yet she is still wirteing it like crtazey i mean she will not quite for nothing not even to play put out side with me her friend. But that is my friend for you she is a writer and that is all she ever does it write stories even when she has companey over with her. Also while i was there at her house i made a neckles out of Guitar Picks and Beads. Got to watch a few movies i never did see in theaters with my friends lil bro and some were funny others were very stupid if yea ask me. Even got ten dollars from my friends mom for helping them clean out there old trailer that they sold so that was cool i earned some money and with the money i bought an one fish tank that can be divied into two seapert ones for my Betta fishes i have and that is cool so now when the female is ready to mate with the mele betta all i have to do is take the middles out and then when she ie ready to lay the eggs i can put the divider back between them. Of course i got my da*n friend saying: "when the male betta starts blowing bubbles at the top of its half it is ready to squeeze the eggs out of the famale fish" and she gets this so called info from her teached whom i think knows nothing as to raseing betta fishes so i will be going online to prove her butt wrong about what all she has been saying about the fish thing. This is going to be so dange funny if i prove this so called teched of her that raise fishes wrong i will bust up laughing and rub it in her face for all the time she has rumbed stuff in my face that she got and i could not get a hold of and that would realy ticke me off and she wounders why half the dange time i am always so mad at her for that well i would not know why. Then here i am in the middle of getting ready to go to teaxes with my mom cause she has to perform a wedding there and i will be going to get away from two people that are always agervateing me and they are my bro and sis witch are always like that the love to p*** me off all the time and they always seem happy when i leave cause then they know they can get all the computer time in the would they want and that is what make me mad. Well that is about it see you all next time when i up date
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Tuesday, March 14, 2006

So far so good i am still working out my plans for teaxes and how much fun that will be. i am hsaveing to much time on my hands to plan for this trip lol. My bro and sis seem happy that i will be gone for a bit but i do not get a fuck they are always tormenteing me and i need to get away from them cause i am so tired of getting up in the morneing and cleaning up there mess they leave from breakfest and there dishes that are always strolled around the liveing room. Then my older bro is here for two weeks witch is comeing to and end soon cause he leves to head back to base the 19th and then this summer he is gettng shiped back to Iraq and that is not going to be good cause then my mom will get so worried about him and i can see why cause he will be over there it hink for two years i am not sure so i will be turning 18 july 1st so that will yet again be another birth day with out my older bro around that sucks so bad to. well guess that is about it see you all later.


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