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Birthday
• 1992-02-15
Gender
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Female
Location
• In the clouds somewhere
Member Since
• 2007-09-08
Occupation
• student at the happiest place on earth! (not)
Real Name
• Brittney
Personal
Achievements
• Surviving the first 16 years of my little pathetic life. j/k.
Anime Fan Since
• the beginning of time..... ok more like three years ago, but still.
Favorite Anime
• Inuyasha, Fruits Basket, Full Moon, FMA, Naruto, Chibi Vampire, etc.
Goals
• To make it through high school and college and yes, this is going to sound completly corny, but to find my perfect guy.
Hobbies
• inPlaying electric gutiar, playing piano, singing (even if I totally suck), drawing, listeng to music, eating junk food (what teenager doesn't like to eat junkfood for fun?), hanging out with friends, and being on theO.
Talents
• People like me don't need talents. I'm cool just the way I am. XP
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myOtaku.com: X sHaDoW aNgeL X
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Saturday, January 19, 2008
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Hello. How are you? I'm bored. Things have been kind of stressful lately, and it seems like no one really cares. But can I really expect them to? They have their own problems, right? No one else's problems matter. Sorry, I'm just a little frustrated. I've been really depressed lately, and I don't know why. Well, I kinda do, but not really, if that makes any sense. School drama is starting to weigh on me more than usual. And it usually weighs on me a lot more than most people. Every little thing gets to me. Some kid on my bus was like, "Dude, look at that girl over there. She probably doesn't have any friends. Hey girl! Do you have any friends? Do you? I doubt it." It upset me a lot more than I let on, and I cried when I got home. The friends that I do have really don't seem to care much anymore. Not even my BEST friend, who is supposed to be there for me through everything. But she's to hyper-focused on her own wonderful life. She's working on getting a short story published that she wrote, she draws anime better than anyone I know, she has almost perfect grades.... And I should be happy for her. I really should. But I'm not. Because it seems like whenever things are going well for her, my problems, actually, anything I say, seems totally insuccnificant to her. I hate it. Because I can't even try to confide in her, or vent to her every once in a while, because she DOESN'T LISTEN. She doesn't CARE ANYMORE. I feel very alone. And it scares me because I'm afraid that we're drifting apart because of me. Because I always complain and I am non-responsive most of the time these days. I don't laugh, I rarely smile, I don't put effort into anything. I'm not sure what's wrong, but I wish it would go away. Most of the people on theO don't visit anymore. Why is that? Probably the same reason my friends and I are drifting apart. Should I be sorry for wanting someone, anyone, to listen to what I have to say for once? To actually listen, and care about what I have to say? Is it a sin to ask for help, for guidance these days? Or is everyone too selfish to care? I don't know. Who knows? I don't. If other people expect me to care about what they're problems are, then why shouldn't I expect the same in return? Why? What is wrong with people? Am I just so freaking annoying, that no one wants to talk to me? *sigh
* Why do I even bother? No one is probably even going to read this post anyway.
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