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Achievements • http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said Anime Fan Since • Ever since Pokemon Favorite Anime • I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3 Goals • Make it out of here in one piece Hobbies • Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown Talents • :)
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Hi.I cut something open today.^^ And now I smell like fermeltahyde(sp?) and lysol.^_^ Yay! Disections! I now know what the inside of a frog looks like.Go me! Anyway...Me and Jenny hath concluded that Patrick Stump is either bald under his hat, an eskimo, or said hat is just a part of his head. REally, do any of you EVER recall a time when Patrick was without his hat? Cause I don't. Well,my bros on my ass to get on the computer,so bye... ~Shadowm-oh you know who I am! '-_-~ Comments (4) |
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Monday, April 23, 2007
I Was tagged...IT BURNNNSSSSSSSSSSS!!
My 6 facts:
1.For about a year, I seriousy thought Jesse McCartney kid-napped Aaron Carter and stole his face.(I mean, they just look so much alike...It's scary.0_0)
2.I constantly bite off more than I can chew, and I ALWAYS try in vain to have my cake, eat it, and lick the damn the frosting off the freakin plate.
3.I break down in tears alot and I do it over the stupidest things.
4.No one understands me.
5.I have blue streaks of hair.^^
6. Kai Hiwatari, an anime character, was my first love.
Bonus fact: I never actually fall in love so much as I want to become the person I "love." (Confusing, no? O.o)
Broke down in tears today.Again.What else is new. This time, I concluded that I simply can no longer depend on my mom or dad to make things better for me...Hell, I can't even depend on this web-site. But whatever... It was also my aunts birth-day today. Can't remember how old she's turning though...
Argh... Feeling rather angry right now. I don't wanna go to Summit(my co-opp) tomorrow.THen again, I'd rather not be here at all tomorrow...~Shadowme(Yu)~ Comments (5) |
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
A yellow chicken calls:"YOU'RE A HO!"
I logged on today...and discovered that I'm going through drug withdrawl.Danny drug withdrawl.SO LET THE DISTRACTIONS BEGIN!
The only thing worse than falling in love is trying to look cool while doing it
Right, so she's like:"No, hon,let me guess, you love him to death but he couldn't care less, yes?"
And I'm all:"Blah,blah,blah...Identity crisis! Blah,blah,blah...Whichever answer suffices."
"Dignity" ? Does the word still even appear in my dictionary?
No, but "desperation" and "obsession" are my new best friends.
Oh, pasty-faced and profanity-laced.
One look at me, and you'd think I've escaped from the most anxiety-provoking place this side of wherever Courtney Loves rehab lays.
But no, this is just what he does to me.
And,Oh, I know,I know, with words like this, I'll become the scoffing-stock of the commuinity.
But you see, I already am.
I've tried to hold out as long as I can.
But, well, there's only so much endurance Heaven can send.
And only so much strength they can lend.
(blessed obvious oppertunity, where are you when I need you?)
Dignity? The word no longer appears in my dictionary. But desperation and obsession are my new best friends. Comments (9) |
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Thursday, April 19, 2007
The message of the day....
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Dude.I shouldn't be up this late. I'll be up for like 3 hours now! '-__- BTW:No PMs...? I FEEL SOOOOO UNLOFFLEDDDDDDD!! ;_;
Can't quite find the words but my pencil's still moving.
But this feeling is more numb than soothing.
Well, whatever gets you in the studio and whatever gets me on another flow.
Because not feeling never felt so right.
And at this point not even you can bring me to light.
Doesn't it ever make you wonder why my words always feel the most heart-felt when I can't feel my heart?
Well, these days it seems I'm either seething or sleeping- there is no in between.
And,oh, didn't you get the memo? human sheilds should be seen and not.
What's worse- having to write fiction or having to live in it?
Oh just so we're clear, I am not drowning-just floating.
And I know I'm better off sleeping than seething so not even you are given the rite this time to bring me to light.
Kill me to death(just suicidal enough to be redundent)
There is one and one thing only that I want out of life right now: death. (Are you perspiring from the irony or just sweating to these lyrics? XP)
Yeah. I was a bitch, my mom screamed at me,I cried, she cried, I somehow ended up telling her I'm suicidal, and the whole damn thing just sucked.
So shut up and be glad you're not me. (DIGNITY IS FOR HAPPY PEOPLE!!)
KILL.ME.WITH.A.LAMP.POST.AND.TOOTH-PICK. T_T
You may kill me now.I'll die happy
Random Mocking of the Day:'Tis Fueled by Pocky-Flavored Ramen.
Ish listening to: My grand-ma talking on the phone in the next room and me talking to myself under my breath.
Random thought:"Screw Avengence.We're back with sleep deprivation and ramen."~The name of Mobile Fallout Shelters 4th album
More random thoughts: Screw this! I'm just gonna write...
The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. (Sorry to steal your qoute,Redmoonchick.V.V) That lyric hits my mood RIGHT.ON.THE.HEAD. (Wow,that sounded weird..)
Sorry,I simply cannot form/write coherent sentances right now. Even though it's been over 4 hours. Yeah, you'd think the effects would've worn off by now, but no. I'm still perfectly intoxicated. "On what,"you ask?
Well,put it this way: it is the most the dangerous and ancient drug man/woman-kind has ever known.And yet, it's not lethal- just depressing. Still, it is just a cursed drug that I won't even say its name.(In fact, its SUCH a powerful and cursed thing, its stolen every bit of my verbal fluency, the horrid sickness!)
Er....Anyway,I got my hair high-lighted blue today. It doesn't show up all that well,but,hey, better than nothing. Well, other than that, I had an unbarably big --it load of Literature home-work today. And,I also nearly died of happiness, but...yeah.Eros!~Shadowme(PattyCakez teh hobo)~
Birds In My Ears, Devil On My Shoulder
This is not love, this is obsession.
And, yeah, I sound so interesting, but what a shame you're not interested.
Well, you're it, and you know it.
Over-stoic and only in it for the "entertainment."
Yeah, wouldn't you just die to know exactly what's beneath all these clothes?
And, coming from you, those 3 words have never meant less, except, of course, for all the extra stress.
You're the latest blood-rush with the painfullest touch I have ever not felt.
And this is not love, this is obsession.
If it ever goes any farther, you'll be my latest confession.
I have 1 thing and 1 thing only to say:AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG!!!!
Warning:Brace yourself,people. The Emo Shadowme hast returned.
Listening to: The clickety-clack of this key-board and the lamentation of my broken and break-dancing heart.
Ish currently:anxiously a-waiting the arrival of a PM from redmoonchick/Cassie that's been promised to cure me of my Daniel addiction.
Ish wishing: I could reach into my head and rip out the sub-concious impulse that attracts me to you-know-which-scene-kid.
Current thoughts: Dude, I have GOT to stop making this list thing.
KILL ME. Just kill me. I'm confused, I'm anxious, I'm hormonal, I'm miserable...And I want him but I don't want to want him. Addiction sucks.~Shadowme/Patty Cakez the addicted,loveless hobo~ Comments (3) |
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I have 1 thing and 1 thing only to say:AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRG!!!!