Saturday, January 27, 2007

KILL....KILL...KILL....KILL.....KILL....KILL...KILL.....KILL.....
Good news-our basket ball coach finelly admitted we suck.WEll,no he didn't,but he didn't try to make excuses for us.Usually,every time we lose,he's all,"Well,that was one of the best teams in the league,so don't worry about it;" or "You guys did your best,its okay.We'll win next time!" And,every time,I think to myself:"OH,SHUT UP!! Excuses,excuses,excuses! your just making it worse,and making us feel guilty/guiltier.Just yell at us,and get it over with!!" But not this time.THis time,he didn't even try to praise us-and thank God!

Now,normally I'd be celebrating his lack of fake pride by stuffing endless sweets into my mouth...But we don't have anything.Damn.
Well...Lets see,what else? Oh yeah.The only good thing about Valentines day-the theatrical release of Music And Lyrics.(Yeah,you know,that new Drew Berrymore movie.) Its looks pretty good.I might go see it.THough,probably not when it first starts showing.(I almost NEVER get to do that,for some reason.*shrug*) Oh,and the other good thing about V-day-I gots my theme/background up for it already.And,it is heart-broken-tastic,if I do say so myself.^_^ I mean,a shattered,and bleeding valentine,next to the words:"Were you using that?"...? My compliments to the designer/artist.Anyway,thats about it.So long and lets not keep it that way!~Shadowme(Yu'kan'uke)~

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Friday, January 26, 2007

   Anybody want an "adurable" brother? CALL ME!!
Hey,how y'all doing? Ish currently listening to I'm not Okay.(I Promise)
Robert:STOP ATTEMPTING TO KILL ME!*gets kicked in the face*
me:Dumba-robert.:IT BURNS!!!
Me:Little brothers...oy.''-___-
Anyway,I am currently eluding the panic of the situation at hand.And that is,my brother is a dumb-ass.
robert:STOP POINTING OUT THE OBVIOUS!!
Me:An over-the-shoulder-post-reading,illiterate jackass.
robert: hey i thought i was stupid not a donkey.
Me:Your a stupid donkey.Your also nosy.*hears "YAY STUPID DONKEY"*
And obnoxious.I'm not kidding.You computer-obsessed-
robert:not my fault moniters are my friend!
Me:YOUR JUST DOING THIS BECAUSE YOU WANT THE COMPUTER!!! And,take a shower! You smell!
robert:thanks i use sweat as deodorent....And,actually I'd rather have a lap-top,but a comp would be good.
Me:Well...Whatever.Anyway,the REAL matter at hand is,the consequince of how little work I got done today.And,if you know me,you'll also know that said consequince is-come Monday,I will be suicidal.Come Tuesday,I will die of embarissment from the dirty looks I'll get from the teachers.Lovely.Come Wednesday,I will be ressurected(sp?) by the shiny-ness of Panic! At The Disco.In which case-see ya Wednesday.SO LONG AND GOOD NIGHT/MORNING/AFTERNOON~Shadowme(Yuki)~
robert:i hope you enjoyed the exp of me mooching of my sisters account because i'm too lazy to check my own.-jackass/dumbass/anyotherinsult
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Thursday, January 25, 2007

Blue Moons and Aubern Dreams....
Well,its lost soal93's birthday today.SO,PLEASE,EVERYBODY GO TO HER SITE AND WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! *ahem* In other news,I can't focus,I can't write,I can bearly think...today is not a good day. I AM ALONE IN THIS BED,HOUSE,AND HEAD....Yeah,well,what else is new? Dude,I don't need a psychiatrist,I need anti-depressents! T___T Well,as usual,its going to be nothing but decisions,decisions,and a complexity-complex,when I get up tomarrow.But,hey,its not like thats anything new.
And its not like I even have a choice.Well...I love you all.Bai*hugs*~Shadowme(Ayanami's Helena)~
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Or Was It God Who Chokes In These Situations?
When in doubt,write it down.
When at a loss for words,quote Hitler.
Now heres the irony of it all: the only conflict you have to keep you entertained,is your own boredom.
No,I sappose when your a 1 woman-show,theres really no merit in picking a character.
Playing parts of theatrical fakes and concealing chronic head-aches? Well,what else is new.
And if I give you something to bang your head to,can I give you something to bang your head on,as well? (Because You can bet that if heads don't roll,eyes will.)
When in doubt,write something down.
When at a loss for words...Um....right your wrongs.
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Oy......That made no sense at all.'''-___-
Um,go me...? It made no sense,but every part of it was true.Espcially the chronic head-aches.Seriously,OW! But the importent part is-THERAPY TOMARROW!! ^.^ Because then,I might just be another step closer to figuring out all this crap.
Well,anyway,I'm still groping for ideas about the story. I finished another one of my library books though.Twas pretty good.Of course,it was about teenage writers block,so of course I'D enjoy it.Well...It hurts to think,so bai! Thanks for the comments.^.^


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Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Titles....What should there be for a title? Ummm....
Well,she is NOT bleeding on the ball-room floor just for the attention,people.'Cause thats just ridiculously on.(When at a loss for words,quote Panic! At The Disco.) I just realized something-Spencer,from P!ATD, is almost as hott as Ryan Ross. Oh,and futhermore-TANGERINE NAIL POLISH:love it!! Its orange AND its pink!

Well,about today-totally boring without Anna.One of the kids I go to school with went to Illonois to visit her older sister.And,frankly,I miss her.Its just so uncomfortable and boring without her.'-__- By the way,I finally got the first 2 volumes of Alichino.And I just have to say-the art work is GORGEOUS.Here,I'll show you...



Shyeah,man....Well,feeling somewhat aggrivated right now.Writers block+groping for ideas= FAR too much mental strain. Ahhhhhhhh,the discouragingness of it all!''-__- Well...I've got nothing.So,instead,here are the lyrics to my current theme-song,by-guess which band-Panic! At The disco.(Who else?)
Watch your mouth
Your speech is slurred enough
That you might swallow your tongue
You'd want to give up the ghost
With just a little more poise than that

Or was it God who chokes
In these situations, running late?
No, no, he called in, he called in...

The hospice is
A relaxing weekend getaway
Where you're a cut above all the rest
Sick and sad patients
On first name basis with all the top physicians

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

That's when you stutter something profound
To the support on the line
And with the way you've been talking
Every word gets you a step closer to hell

No I just can't help it.
To say what everyone else is thinking.
Let me state the obvious again..

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

I am
Alone in this bed, house, and head
And she never fixes this
But at least she...
(Makes me forget)

I am
Alone, in this bedroom
She never fixes this
But at least she...
Makes me forget

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

Prescribed pills
To offset the shakes
To offset the pills
You know you should take
It a day at a time

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Sunday, January 21, 2007

Well,it was my uncles birthday today.(Happy birthday to him,happy birthday to him...) And it started to snow today.....But....More importantly.....*shifty eyes*...I'VE GOT MANGA,HOMIES!!!! BWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA!!!!!
We now have spell-check on the internet....*groans*
LOOK,I DON'T CARE IF I MISSPELLED PORCELIN,OKAY?!?!!!!!! Oy.....Oy,oy,oy,oy....My mom's reading over my shoulder.Actually,shes reading over the desk,but...The point is,my "special place" is being ruined by parental supervision! No,wait.Nevermind.She left.
Ahem....RANDOM RHYME ATTACK,BITCHS!!!
"Pull the trigger,take the picture,and don't mind the flash.Because if your annoyed by that subtle flash,you'll never be able to stand the bang." Wow.
That mad no sense.GO ME!!!^.^ Oh,and I also checked a book out of the library about teenage writers block.Again,GO ME!! So...bai.X( ~Shadowme(Yuki,Yu-Yu,Yu'kan'uke)~

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Saturday, January 20, 2007

I love you all.DOMO ARIGATO GOZAIMASU!
I'm hyper...And I'm tired....And its Saturday...And grand-ma is still a bitch....And my guest-book has got 140 FREAKIN' GUEST-BOOK SIGNINGS!!! 140 FREAKIN' SIGNINGS,MAN!!! Thank you all SO much!*hugs everyone* I think I might cry...;~; I'm so thouched.
But lets skip the acceptance speach,shall we?
Because...I think I'm having a crisis.(Wow,over-dramatic,much?) Its nothing serious.Just a writers crisis.I don't know what to do.Should I continue with the story I have now,or build on an idea I have for another story,in my head? Because lets face it,the story I have now isn't going ANYWHERE.I mean,come on,I'm on the 21 chapter and I haven't even gotten to the main story-line yet! *sigh* But its such complex story-line...I don't what to do.Its so hard to explain.''-__- Oy...I guess I'll just work on the story I have now until I come up with more ideas for the other one.*shrug* Anyway...Here are some pics..

^Before...

And after! Yeah,cross-dressing is fun!

HELL YEAH!!


And in case the Kaoru and Hikaru pics weren't yaoi "brotherly love" enough for you...

^Damn,those pants look tight.



And last,but not least...

Actually,no,that was the least.Dude,how did that get in there?
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Friday, January 19, 2007

Mikey Dearest (my ex) is currently being harassed by weirdo's on his chatbox.Oh,goodie,goodie gumdrops!^.^ (And,as you can imagine,I am beside myself with amusement.Goodie goodie gumdrops indeed.)^^ Although I really don't have a reason for hating him....But,its like this-I either hate him or I love him.And I REALLY don't want to go back to loving him.Not to say it was dreadful being with him,or anything...Its just that the relationship ended kind of badly. But,lets not risk the spoiling of my good mood by prolonging this rant of "past loves,"shall we?

Well,in other news,I went to a friends 14th birth-day party today.Was pretty fun.I wish they would have played more party games,though.Instead,everyone went into their own not-so-little,somewhat secluded group of friends.It was kind of excluding.*shrug* Oh well.
So,y'all like my valentines day theme? Yes,I know the actual day isn't for alittle less then a month,but I wanted to be prepared.I like the song on my site.Over my Head by The Fray.Well....Other then that,my writing is getting pretty frustrating...Thats about it.Bai!~Shadowme(Yuki)~
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Thursday, January 18, 2007

INTERVIEW TIME!
And now for an interview of Panic! At The Disco...(Taken from AbsulutePunk.net.)
What is with the makeup you wear during your performances on tour and other shows? Why do you feel the need to wear it?

Ryan: “I feel pretty, oh so pretty…”

Spencer: We always want our fans to be entertained and to feel like they came to see a show. What’s weird is I can’t understand why it bothers anyone.

Do you ever think that the over-the-top props and add-ons will overshadow the music you’re playing on stage?

Spencer: Hopefully the music will stand up on its own. Otherwise, I’m going to need a REALLY tall drum riser and a giant fire-breathing lizard next tour.

On tour, are there any special requests that you ask for backstage? Anything that you must have on the tour bus to get by each day? Are there any rituals as a band or individually that you do before/after/during shows each night?

Ryan: Capri Sun!

Jon: We are pretty low maintenance when it comes to our dressing room. pb and j, fruit, water, red bull ... all the living essentials ... we put on 90s alternative hits before the show to get warmed up. Usually we get some type of buffalo-styled chicken for after we play.

Where do you get the inspiration from for your lyrics?

Ryan: oscar wilde once said no great artist ever sees things as they really are, if he did, he would cease to be an artist, and, two things every artist should avoid are modernity of form and modernity of subject matter. I like both these ideas and so I like to start with characters and a storyline. If the characters are interesting and the storyline is strong, the lyrics start writing themselves.

Will the next record be more like the second half of your debut CD, or will there be more electronic “dancy” songs?

Ryan: We wrote “Fever” in chronological order so the next one will probably be a progression from the second half of the album. Of course, Brendon’s been in Africa for the last month and a half with Madonna trying to adopt a child so it could sound like tribal drums mashed up with like a virgin.

There are many references to the writings of Chuck Palanuhik. Was this accidental, or intentional? Have you ever been contacted from his estate for the allusions and quotes? Will this be a continued theme on the new album?

Ryan: “Time to Dance” is about a book he wrote called “Invisible Monsters” and the title of the “The Only Difference…” is from “Survivor”. They were definitely intentional and written around the time I was reading these books. No one’s called from the estate so far.

Spencer: Every lyric in “Build God” is a direct ripoff of Jurassic Park 2: the Lost World” from the director’s cut.

Does it ever creep you out that fans have begun knowing more about each of your lives than any of you do individually? What is your personal take on having your life under the microscope for so many of your fans to see? Is keeping things private hard for you all to do now since you have so many fans and the internet makes everything readily available for them?

Ryan: I think celebrities make too much [of] a big deal about not having any privacy. I think if you don’t put the drama out there people make it up for you. I don’t have a myspace profile but there are plenty of fake Ryan Ross profiles. The shit people make up is much crazier that what really goes on. I’ve heard that I’m dating Hillary Duff right now and that I got kicked out of the band. My fake life definitely makes it more interesting for me.

Many fans, as well as non-fans, entertain the thoughts that members of the band may be homosexual due to pictures that have been taken of the band during shows and posted on the internet, as well as some of the actions of the band members. What is your response to this kind of blatant stereotyping (and ignorance)?

Ryan: We’re not gay, not that there’s anything wrong with it.

You’re doing a cover of the song, “This is Halloween“, from A Nightmare Before Christmas, which in recent years has turned into a scenster cult movie. Do you have any personal account as to why you accepted the offer to do the cover? If you were given another offer to do any score from an already existing movie what would it be?

Spencer: We’re huge fans of Danny Elfman’s scores and we weren’t planning on doing any new recording because we were on tour but when that opportunity happened, we couldn’t pass it up so we ended up doing it with an orchestra rather than Panic! style because it was easier to work on just arranging the vocals on the road.

Ryan: I’m a big fan of the scores of romeo and juliet, eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, all the burton films, moulin rouge, and chicago.

What happened to the infamous rose vest Ryan used to wear during stage performances? Who is the designer of the vest?

Ryan: jake oliver and some students at FIT. Unfortunately, I lost it in new zealand.

What made you decide to send demos to Pete Wentz of Fall Out Boy? Do you think he can market anything or anyone given to him? Where do you think you’d be as a band had he not heard your demos and signed you to his Fueled by Ramen imprint, Decaydance?

Spencer: We were superfans. We had no idea how anything worked in the music business. We didn’t have any contacts whatsoever and only two songs. We liked their band and when you don’t think anything’s gonna come of it, it’s like ‘why not’?

Many rumors have gone around from Brent’s departure from the band. What is the real story behind it? Did he leave or was he kicked out? Is it true that he didn’t play any of the bass parts on the debut album? How is the lawsuit that he has against the band faring?

Spencer: I think pretty much everything has been said on this subject. It was not an easy thing to do because we were all friends but things were moving fast for the band and, at least in our opinion, Brent was not on the same page as the rest of us, as far as growing as a musician. He did not play the bass parts, Brendon played all of them. Brendon is a really good musician - if you saw our last tour, you saw him play guitar, piano and drums. We recorded our album on a very tight budget and tight budgets mean tight schedules. Having Brendon play the bass parts made the most sense, given our time constraints. As far as the lawsuit, we haven’t received anything about it. He was paid an equal share of all the tours he was on and, as far as I know, he’s been paid and is being paid all the royalties he’s owed.

Do you regret the comment made on MTV Canada about Brent being the first one drunk on New Years since it put the band in a bad light for saying it? What made you Jon give the response in the first place?

Jon: The truth is it just slipped out - you can tell from the way I covered my mouth right after that I realized I wasn’t supposed to say that. I think everyone has those moments, mine happened to be on camera.
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Wednesday, January 17, 2007

   Shyeah,man.
Dude! The sound on my computer is back! (Youtube sound still doesn't work though.) So,anyway,I went to therupy today...And I feel completely normal about it.(I'm such a psycho...) But,the lady/psychiatrist was really fun,so I've approved her.By the way,I also had to act in a play today-I got to be a good guy AND a bad guy! How kick-ass is that?
Now heres the sucky-I have to go to Basket-ball soon.Uhhhhh,F.T.S..(Fuck This Shit) I've decided I hate Baskit Ball this year.It makes me feel like killing somone,every time our team loses.So,yeah,blood-lust can bite me.>:P
Anyway,I'm off to have my confidance and self-esteem oblitherated by said sport of Baskets and Balls.''-__- If I merdur somone this time,you guys will still like me,right? Well...Bai.~Shadowme
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