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Achievements • http://i204.photobucket.com/albums/bb281/Soul_Resistance/Untitled.jpg... Nuff said Anime Fan Since • Ever since Pokemon Favorite Anime • I'm not that obsessed anymore, to be honest. Mostly just Kare Kano, Ceres, Furuba, Ouran Highschool Hostclub, FMA, and, of course, ShinChan. X3 Goals • Make it out of here in one piece Hobbies • Paranoia, mood swings, and the occasional emotional meltdown Talents • :)
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I'm kinda sick. I say kinda because I honestly have no idea what's wrong with me other than this pain in my throat where my left tonsil used to be. I'd say maybe the stiches were infected, but I got them out years ago, so they're all healed up now. It feels like stiches too though--not just one, precise bump, but a tender, swollen line along the left side of the back of my throat. Tis mysterious.
Other than that, really not much to update. Been playing gaia games, reading books, sometimes writing a book... Same old, same old.
Thank you all for the comments on my last post. They helped a lot.
So I have a question: How come it's okay for other people to break off simbiotic relationships, but not me?
Every, damn time I get guilt-tripped!
When I broke up with my ex, Shaun, everybody was like, "You guys should get back together. He's all sad and emo now."
A whole year after I've broken up with Margaret, people are still saying, "you guys should, like, reconcile and stuff because you used to be such good friends and even though she's turned into a perpetually P.M.S.ing, judgemental bitch, you should still worship the ground she walks on because that's what friends do!"
Why are people only happy when I'm in pain?
I never meant to hurt her, I just wanted her to stop hurting me.
I knew she'd be in pain as a result, but damn it, so was I! I overdosed on sleeping pills at one point just so I wouldn't have to cry myself to sleep.
And, I don't know, maybe we will get back together one day, but in the meantime, I really wish people would let it go. THe only thing trying to force it does is stress me out.
First day of Break!
spent a third of the day playing pokemon, a third eating unhealthy, delicious food while watching anime, and a third of the day at the mall.
Ahhh, yes. The life of a scholar on break.
In my defense, I honestly did try to make porgress on my story, but I had writers block, and then Josh showed up. :( Ah well.
Sick of living in dreams.
Everything is and isn't what it seems.
Deeper reasons, deeper excuses--a hole in the earth for all the darkness, a reverse spot light.
I'll pay fifty dollars to eat popcorn while watching movies about hunger.
I don't know where I'm going, only where I've been
I tried to post a couple days ago, but stupid internet connection wouldn't let me. :(
@ Lute:
1. Yeah, good idea. lol Ever since I started when I was ten, I've gone through this cycle of obbsessively playing, getting bored, forgetting about them, and then playing for the sake of nostalgia or because one of my siblings need help. And repeat.
2. No. I'm kinda starting to get into football though.
3. Thanks. ^^
4. His parents just wanted him to clear a path through the woods behind his house so they could take nature walks whenever they wanted without having to drive.
blajfnfkjhuufijsfkjsfk. I think I reached my breaking point. My resolve and brain are complete mush. I'm supposed to be writing my book and/or studying right now, but I seriously have no discipline. Although honestly, I tend to do worse when I try to study anyway so... *shrugs* Guess I'm winging it.
Exams are okay. My speech exam was take-home/open note, my philosophy one was pretty easy--my thinking that could be a bad or good thing, I'm not sure--, I just had to turn in a paper for Womens Studies, and I got Health tomorrow.
Oh, and unless any of you ever feel like being extremely depressed, DO NOT watch an anime called Ga Rei Zero. Just don't. Trust me. I finished it today and could not stop crying.
Okay, that is all. Hope you all have a great day/night.
ily
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Monday, May 14, 2012
MY GRANDMOMMY BOUGHT ME A LABTOP!!!!! :D
TIS ALL SHINY AND SEXY AND RED. ^^ I'm kind of afraid to take it anywhere... I never had a laptop before. Never even thought I'd have one as nice as this. It's got a webcam on it, but I don't know how to access it. If I did, I'd you my kimono.
IN OTHER NEWS:
1.I am again addicted to Pokemon. So sorry, God.
2. My mom has become quite fascinated with baseball now that our home team, The Orioles, have finally decided to stop sucking.
3. It's finals week!
4. Josh got sliced upon whilest trying to move an old, abandoned washing machine and now he has a frowny face on his arm! :(
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So thank you all for your prayers and well wishes. ^^ It went a lot better than I thought it would. It turned out to be just a really calm, casual discussion of different religions like it was meant to be.
My birthday was pretty awesome. Didn't get to eat as much Hibachi as I wanted to because the waitresses were rushing us out of the place for some reason, but... lol
I wanted to wear the kimono that I got at Katsucon out to eat, but I thought that might offend people. XD Especially because most of the waitresses are actually Chinese. lol
And HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHYYYYYYYYYYY!!! :) We made it another whole year! You never cease to make me smile, so thank you so much for adopting me all those years ago when I had just joined MyO and had no clue what I was doing. I love you!
Btw, it makes me really happy that you can't tell the difference between Christians and Catholics because both Catholics and Christians always want to stress the differences between the denominations, and it's all just so pointless.
Me, Josh, and my friend Amber are going out to Hibachi Grill and Buffet to celebrate.
I'm gonna celebrate again with my family on Saturday night then my brother's Confirmation party is on Sunday.
Oh, yes. Tis a very hectic birthday week. '-.-
When I say birthday week, I mean not only the week of my birthday but that of my sister Emma (April 28), Katie (April 30), and me (May 2nd.) I know technically it's not a week, but... Shmeh.
What really sucks is on Thursday I have to stand up in front of a classroom of feminists-in-training (my Women's Studies class) and convince them the Catholic Church is not sexist.
Which is extremely hard not only because there's plenty of evidence indicating otherwise, but because I really don't like talking about being Catholic.
1, everybody--and I mean EVERYBODY--freakin hates Catholics. 2, no matter what anyone says the fact is I like being Catholic, and the only thing more hated than an unfaithful Catholic is a happy Catholic. Finally, 3, I don't want to appear ostentatious about my faith. It's a very, very personal part of my life and talking about it in front of a classroom is like standing in front of a packed arena naked.
Honestly, I'm even nervous writing about it here, and you guys were the first to know when I lost my virginity. That's how big a deal this is to me.
So if you're religious, pray for me.
If you're not, wish me luck.
Thanks.
They slammed me with hella group projects this semester, which annoys the hell out of me. '-.- I wouldn't mind so much if people would actually return my emails, but oh well.
Went to my little sisters' dance recital today. They're all amazing. Especially Katie, my 11-year-old little sister, who's so good she's dancing in the 14-17 year-old age group with SOLOS!!! Seriously.
If you ever see her dancing in a music video or on Broadway in the next ten years, don't be surprised.
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